Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Disclaimer- I do not own the Teen Titans or the songs
Author's notes: Ok I am truly sorry for not updating in such a long time. I hope my fans from this fic will forgive me especially Tecna. I was busy plus I was grounded. I was practically on project central during the vacation. And my brother was practically breathing down my neck.
Well I hope you guys can forgive me and read this chapter and review it. I would like to thank Frostflower, Thermopolis, lunafan, ChErRyBlOsSoMs-FlOwErOfDeAth, Allie, Blackattitude8, and last nut not least my most faithful reviewer Tecna. I love you so much Tecna cause you're so nice. And I love the rest of you too.
Oh and I have to ask all of you for your opinion. Am I really a bad writer? The other day I received an email. It told me I couldn't write. And that my ideas are as stupid as I was. It really hurt my feelings. I knew I wasn't a terrific writer but I thought I was ok. Now I want all of you to be honest with me please. But that letter isn't going to stop me from writing. It didn't get me mad it just got me a little down and it takes a lot to piss me off.
And The Moment You've Been Waiting For:
Chapter 6 - Should I Forgive Him or Should I Stay Mad At Him
Jinx's P.O.V.
"I know I want to apologize and tell you something"
"Well what is it"
" I think I'm in…"
"I think I'm in love with you"
Viktor told me in a rushed voice. Of course I didn't believe him. It must be a joke. I know Kori and co. put him up to this. They're trying to make me look like a fool. Well it's not going to work. And I'm going to let Viktor know I'm on to him and his little joke.
"You know Viktor I'm not going to fall for your stupid little joke"
"I know you don't love me. You just want to hurt me and Aiden more you ass hole, shit face I can't stand you."
Along with my screaming and Aiden's I'm surprised my mom didn't come up stairs. It's very surprising.
"No I don't want to hurt you guys any more and I really do love you"
"Oh really" I screamed at him.
"Yes I do love you and I wish you would stop saying I didn't"
"So when did you supposedly fall in love with me"
"Well after we stopped hanging out because of Kori I started to miss you and Raven, and I just thought it was because you guys were my friends and then I started to miss you a lot more than Raven and I concluded I was falling in love with you. I tried to deny it but you can't deny love"
"So you really love me," I asked almost afraid it was still a joke.
"Yes I do really love you and I want to apologize for letting my selfishness get in the way of our love and of our friendship"
As I listened to those words my heart melted. They were so sweet. And what made it better was that it came from Viktor. I will admit I do love him but I thought he just thought of me as a friend. And with these I hugged him.
"Vik I love you too"
"Ok good for a second I thought you were going to reject me"
"No I would never do that"
Next I invited him in side. He sat on my bed and we started talking. It felt so good to hear him talk to me, and for it not to be something so foul. And out of nowhere we hear Aiden scream.
"So what father I don't want to be ruler of Azarath and that's final," she sounded pretty pissed. Lately her dad's been calling a lot.
"So let me guess Raven just had another fight with her dad about the whole Ruler of Azarath thing"
"Yup and he's been calling a lot lately so she's really pissed"
Viktor was the only one we told about Aiden being a princess. He was the only one we could trust enough not to tell. He said he would never tell. So we had to tell him when he saw raven with purple hair and amethyst eyes.
Viktor had been reading up on Middle Eastern countries and found a few pages on Azarath. It said the ruler had purple hair and amethyst eyes.
"I don't know what's so bad about being ruler of a whole country"
"Well you don't know everything"
"So what is everything"?
"I'm not sure if I should tell you but I tell you anyway"
"Ok"
"Well Aiden she had a sister. Her name was Nightingale like the bird. She was older than Raven. You know Raven and Kori use to be friends. And so one day Kori and Night were playing and Kori pushed Night off a ledge."
"Wait what so Raven and Kori use to be friends"
"Yeah best friends"
"Oh ok wait so I'm guessing the push was an accident"
"No it was no accident. Kori did it on purpose. Raven saw it with her very own eyes. This is what started the A.T. war."
"So Kori is a murderer and she got away with it," asked a shocked Viktor.
"Yeah pretty much. After the war Azarath and Tameran became allies. But Aiden doesn't want to be ruler because Night was supposed to be. She doesn't feel right taking something that isn't rightfully hers."
"But Raven does deserve it"
"I know but Raven feels guilty she felt like she could have prevented everything"
"Oh I see"
Next Aiden barges in here fuming.
"Hey Jinx hey Viktor" Raven said casually. Raven then did a double take.
"Hey Viktor what are you doing here shouldn't you be with Kori and co." Raven didn't seem mad what's so ever.
" Hey Rae nah I cam here to tell Jinx over here I loved her and now we go out" that made me blush so hard.
"Oh ok I'll just leave you two lovebirds alone and oh don't do anything I wouldn't do"
Raven's P.O.V.
Wow about time hey got together. I'm happy for them. I knew Jinx liked him and I sort of had a feeling Viktor liked her back. Ah almost like a fairy tale.
I walked to my room and lay down on my bed. I had nothing to do. Today is my day off. I start to doze off when suddenly I hear a ring. I know I disconnected the phone from the outlet. I get up and start looking around.
Then I realize it's my cell phone. I look at the umber on the screen. It says Rich. My phone is still ringing. I really don't want to pick it up but I do anyway.
"Hello" I say.
'Yeah hey Jade"
"Hey Richard"
I put emphasis on Richard as my voice dripped with venom. Apparently he caught my venom.
'Um I want to apologize for what happened"
"I'm not one for, forgiving one so easily"
"Well what the hell Jade I said I was sorry" Rich boomed
"Well yelling at me like that wont get you off the hook you bastard"
"I'm not a bastard you prude bitch"
"I'm not prude you pompous arrogant jerk jock strap"
"At least I'm not a slut who thinks they can sing and dance" I'm usually not affected by words like this. But his words stung. It felt like a knife was cutting through my heart. It hurt and it hurt a lot. I want to cry. And I've never cried before in my whole life, with exception of when my sister died.
"Um you know Richard I got to go bye" I say this with sadness in my voice. I hear him telling me to wait. I know he realized how much his words stung.
"No bye Richard'
"No wait Jade I'm sor"
I hung up on him before he could even finish. I walked around the room. I was thinking about what Rich said to me. They stung more than he would ever know. I couldn't sit around my room.
I grabbed my black Puma sneakers. I put them on and ran down stairs making sure I had my house key. I told Nieve I was going for a walk.
"Hey Nieve I'm going for a walk"
"Okay Aiden just be careful"
"Al right"
Nieve so sweet and kind. She always worries about other people but not herself. She's as pure and white as snow. Hence, the reason why my Grandmother called her Nieve. (In Spanish nieve means snow)
I walk out the door and start walking. It's not that bad outside. Plus it's dark and it's a summer night, which makes it all the better.
After walking for ten minutes I end up at the park. I start walking along its path. This is the same park where Rich told me he loved me. I sit down on a bench and the flashback replays in my head.
After I realize I'm doing this I shake my head and start walking home. If I'm going to get over Rich I cant think about him.
A Week Before School Starts
"So Jinx ready to do my hair"
"Yeah Aiden I do this all the time"
"Ha just don't mess up or Viktor wont be able to recognize you"
"Ha funny like you can beat me"
"Yeah remember that one time in karate I kicked your ass"(Remember this, they took karate)
"Shut up Aiden and come on"
"Alright"
After an hour of sitting Jinx is finally done.
"Thanks Jinx"
"No problem"
I then walk to my room. I then stand in front of the mirror staring at my self. I then notice purple at my ends. I grab my hair and look at the end.
So my hair is black now with purple tips. Not bad. It left traces of the old Raven and of Jade. In a week I would start school. I decided right then and there that I would be different this year. Jinx decided to do it also.
Jinx would not be stepped on or used. Her being with Viktor is really a good thing. He gave her more confidence. I'm glad she's finally found someone for her.
I wouldn't let anyone step on me push me or even use me. If someone had something to say they can some see me. And I wouldn't put up with anyone's crap.
A week passed by. And before I knew it Jinx and I were saying bye to Nieve. I decided to let Jinx drive. I flipped down the visor and looked at my self. I definitely looked different. My hair but my eyes were still the same. But I had a different aurora about me, which gave me more confidence. Although I feel nervous. I had avoided Rich the whole summer. Of course he would call but I wouldn't pick up. I didn't have any thing to worry about as far as I know he thinks I'm Raven.
I get out of the car and grab my book bag. Jinx tosses me my car key and I catch them.
"So ready for our last year of hell"
"Yup just a little nervous"
"Is it cause of Rich"?
"Yeah sort of"
"Well don't worry about it he doesn't know who you are"
"Right"
We start walking. We go inside. I see old faces and many new. Jinx and I go up to the front desk to pick up our schedules.
"Who are you. Give me first, middle and last name" says the secretary with out even looking up from the computer.
"Jennifer-Noah- Shadow and Raven-Anna-Roth" we both said.
"Okay here you go hope you have a nice day"
We started to compare our schedules. We had most of our classes together. And then because I was so caught up in my schedule I bumped into somebody.
"Hey be careful dark girl you're getting stronger you know" I smiled as I heard one of Viktor's names for me.
"Hey Vik"
"Hey Vik" said Jinx just as happy to see him.
"Hey baby"
"Okay stop with the love," I said
"You're going to make me hurl"
"Yeah what ever Rae"
I found out Viktor was in my homeroom class as was Jinx. We started to walk when I heard a shrill cry. From the moment I heard the voice I knew I wanted to punch some one.
"Oh hey Ravie and Jinxie" it was Kori.
She came running over to us. I wanted to punch her right then and there but Vik gave me a look telling me not to. So I just stood there until she came over with Gar, Terra, and Richard. It was now that I started to get scared.
My heart beat started to become louder and louder.
"Hey Ravie and Jinxie"
"Yeah hi"
"Wait no I missed you"
"Believe me , me telling you I missed you would be the year's biggest understatement."
"With that I smiled" I had just challenged her
"Well I could pretty same the same thing to you and Viktor why are you hanging with them?"
"I'm with them cause they're my friends and Jinx's my girlfriend"
"Oh really you know I have a problem with this"
"Well I don't care so you can take your problems and shove them up your ass"
"Don't talk to me that way"
"I talk to you the way I wish"
During this whole thing I stayed quiet, stealing a glance at Richard every now and then. Terra and Gar were to busy making out to even care.
"ENOUGH SHUT THE HELL UP" Richard's voice boomed.
"Gawd shut the hell up Kori, I don't want to fucking hear you. Let Vik be with who he wants to be. And come on"
Kori hadn't spoken a word. She just stayed quiet. I saw tears forming in her eyes but they never fell.
"Now come one I don't feel like staring at the ugly cousins anymore"
"Fuck you asshole." I screamed at Richard. I wasn't going to let him insult me.
"What did you say"
"Did I stutter? No"
"Up yours you stuck up prude bitch"
"You fucking bastard. Your such an pompous arrogant jerk jock strap" I didn't mean to tell him what I told him before it just slipped out. I know it hurt him. I saw a flash of hurt and then anger.
He threw a punch at me but I caught his fist instead and flipped him over my shoulder. Thank god I had done karate. I didn't slam him hard in fear of me hurting him badly.
I heard Kori scream and call me a bitch. I started to walk away trying to avoid more conflict. I couldn't wait till this day ended because I would then be off to the clubs were I could escape this life.
Before I knew it rumor spread that I beat Rich badly. I just wanted the day to be over. While coming from lunch to my locker out f nowhere Richard came up to me and punched me in my arm and told me we were even. I did feel a little better but the pain was excruciating.
As soon as the day ended I got up went to my locker and emptied out my books. I saw Jinx waiting for me.
"Hey Aiden I'm hang with Viktor do you mind"
"Nah I don't mind"
"Well okay I'll see you later"
I went straight home. I didn't feel like making any stops. I just wanted to get home do the little homework I have and go to the club. When I got in the house I said hi to Nieve and went up stairs.
I did my homework slowly still thinking about today. After my homework I took a nap. At seven o'clock I got up and took a shower. After I changed I looked in the mirror my eyes were purple and so was my hair.
I bid my aunt a good bye and I got in to my car.
In twenty minutes I was at the club. This was the one place were I would never be hurt, besides my house.
I walked into the club and was greeted by Ramon.
"Ah hello Jade long time no see:
"Ramon I saw you two days ago"
"Oh right my memory is slipping"
"Well I'm here and I'm ready"
"Okay looks like we have an open house tonight"
"Okay"
I started walking when I spotted Richard. He was sitting at a table by himself with his head down. I know he must feel bad so, I've decided I would forgive him. I walked towards him. He didn't notice though. So I decided to whisper in his ear.
"Hey Rich my boy blunder"
His head instantly shot up. He had a smile on his face which could make my heart melt.
"Jade finally I've seen you"
"Right hey Rich"
"Hey Jade, I want to apologize about what I said on the phone a while back I now realize how much those words hurt"
"No it's ok I was being ridiculous"
"So are we still together Jade?"
"Only if you want to be"
He hugged me and I gave him a kiss. Neither of us wanted to pull away but I had to if I didn't want to get fired.
"Okay Rich you want to go for a walk after my show"
"Yeah sure if it means more time with you"
"Ha you're a real romantic"
"I know and you love it"
I walked up to the stage and started singing. I sang a few songs. Some old some new. The crowd loved it. I got off stage and saw Rich waiting for me.
"Ready to go sure am"
we walked in a park for at least an hour. We talked and I got to know more about him. I learned his dad was Bruce Wayne. I think my dad knows him maybe.
"So Jade Bruce is going to have Christmas Ball and I want you to go with me"
"What about your girlfriend"
"Well she's going to go visit her parents"
"O kay sure I'll go," I told him.
That night Richard and I had gotten back together and it made me feel so happy.
For the next few months no one really bothered me. It was probably because I flipped Rich. Before I knew it we were on Christmas break. I had hung out with Jinx and Vik, and Rich as Jade. I had taken the dye out of my hair too.
I couldn't wait till the ball. I had already bought my dress months in advanced.
The dress was simple and like Jinx said hugged my curves perfectly.
It was December twenty-fourth and I was out side waiting for Rich to come pick me up. When he finally picked me up he said I was the most perfect angel he's seen.
The night went by a blur. We danced, we ate and I got to me Bruce Wayne who told me I looked lovely. But that night was perfect for one reason: my first time.
After the party was over Rich wanted me to stay with him. I was afraid to but I loved him right.
We went up to his room. We started kissing. It was hot, passionate, and in love.
We had stopped because Rich asked me a question.
"Jade are you sure you want to do this"
"Yeah I'm sure Rich I mean I love you and you love me"
"But I just want to make sure we're not moving a little fast'
"No I'm fine" although inside I was a nervous wreck.
"I mean are you sure we shou" and I cut him off by kissing him.
Clothes were tossed, skin was touched, sweat was made, and so was love. I was in a world of bliss. It felt great to have him on top of me. I loved it so much and I knew he did too. It was perfect this is how I wanted it to be.
I wanted my first time to be full of love, and not just because of hormones. At this time I felt loved truly loved. And I fell asleep in his arms, for the first time.
So I finally updated. I hope you guys don't mind it took a long time. Well I hope you guys love this chapter cause I think I rushed it. But please review
Reissa