Should I Stay or Should I Go?
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Author's Notes: Sorry for the long wait guys and or girls. I was busy and all. I also was writing we'll Always Remember Her. I'm, glad most of you guys and or girls loved it. I have to give an apology though. Also this chapter is going to be short. Also it's the last. All good things must come to end my good friends.
Apology To Pepper Tip:
Hey dude I'm so sorry for the mishap. I hope I didn't insult you in anyway. I just assumed with a name like Peppertip you'd be a girl. I'm not calling the name girl or anything. I'm truly sorry. I hope you can forgive me.
Okay I would I like to give thanks to those who reviewed my latest fic.
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Also I would like to thank Abc, who filled me in a little bit more on pregnancy. Thanks for pointing those things out to me.
Now that I've gotten that fic out of they way it's time for should I stay or should I go.
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Thanks you guys and or girls. Don't worry Tecna your fic should be coming soon. Also because I love you guys I have a joke for you.
Joke:
One time my brother, his friend and I went to the library. My brother and his friend were acting all crazy. They were talking loud and hitting each other. The librarian kicked us out. Before she kicked us out my brother said.
"I don't need this place, I'll make my own library with black jack and hookers, wait just forget the library part"
So now every time he gets kicked out of somewhere he says this. I think he got it form Futurama.
Okay I hoped you guys like the joke.
On With The Show
Chapter 15: Should I Love You or Should I Hate You
Raven's P.O.V.
I sit here in my room. For the past two days I haven't left it. It's my sanctuary. It's keeping me safe from the out side world.
Right after I Richard and I kissed we fell. I ended up pinned down under him. I only had a robe on. And being this close to him made me blush. A red hue appeared on my cheeks. I usually never blushed.
"Never seen you blush before Jade"
"There's a first time for everything" I reply coolly.
I get up and instantly make up some lame excuse. I walk away to be instantaneously pulled back.
"Where are you going?"
"I have to get sleep"
"No you're not, you just don't want to face me"
"Why wouldn't I want to face you Richard?" I say hotly, while brushing back my wet hair. Though it was useless to do that since it just came right back down.
"Because Raven, you love me and you're afraid of it," Richard said while gently brushing back the lock of hair that refuses to stay there.
"I'm not afraid of love and I don't love you, so please let me go so I can retire to my room"
"Fine Raven" Richard let me go.
I down the hallway. When I turned the corner I broke. I didn't want to talk to him.
I've been cooped up in my room ever since. The only thing I've been able to think about was Richard's kiss. It was so soft and gentle, almost as if it wasn't there. I had to constantly pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming.
I had always wanted to kiss Richard again, even if he did what he did. This got me thinking. I've been selfish. All this time I've been only thinking about my self.
I didn't see where Richard was coming from. I didn't think about how he felt. Not once did I stop to think about how Richard felt, about when he found out I was Raven or when he killed his own child. I made myself to be the victim. That's something I always hated doing. Oh man I'm such a freaking hypocrite.
Now I couldn't face him. He just basically forgave me and told me he loved me. I just played him like he wasn't important. He must hate me again. I'm such a bitch. I grab the book on my nightstand and whack my self in the head with it.
Next I hear a knocking at my door. I hope it wasn't Richard.
"Come in" I say rather loudly.
Raiden comes skipping in. She has a book and her newly found Teddy Bear named Jense. (You pronounce it Jen-ci)
"Mami can you read to me?"
"Sure, but why I thought you could read yourself"
"Well I can but now since my daddy started reading me stories I like it better for someone to read to me. And since daddy isn't here I want you to read to me"
"Okay angel"
Raiden climbed into my bed. I got comfortable and so did she. I look at the cover before opening the book. It was a fairy tale. I started to read to her before she soon fell asleep. For my own benefit I read the rest of the story.
The story was about two stubborn people, one girl, one boy who wouldn't admit they're feelings for each other (sound familiar). They went through lots of trials and blah, blah, blah. It's a basic love story. I look down at Raiden. I see some black hair in her face. I push it behind her ear. She then starts to mumble.
"Mami I want a daddy"
I look down to her again. Was she really sleeping or was she trying to tell me something. I didn't want to know. I picked her up and walked to her room. I opened up her door. Her room was a little messy with books strewn here and about. I lay her down on her bed then whisper to her.
"I wish I could give you a daddy angel, but I'm afraid."
I kiss her fore head and walk out of the room. After I close the door. I turn around to only bump into someone. I fall on my ass.
"Ow gawd damn, I wish people wouldn't sneak up behind me, shit"
I look up to see whom I was talking to. As soon as I look up my eyes lock on to Richard's. I wanted to tear my eyes away from his, but I couldn't. He holds out his hands to help me up. I gladly take it. I start to rub my butt from the impact.
"Wow Raven didn't mean to make you fall on your
ass"
"Right, now it hurts"
"Do you want me to rub it?" Richard says with a sexy smirk.
"No you pervert," I say as I blush a light pink.
"Come on Rae you no you want me too besides, I've already touched every square inch of your body"
"I hate you Richard"
"Ow you know you lowered my self esteem"
"I don't care"
I then start to walk away. But just like before he grabs my arm.
"Come on Rae talk to me" I look up to his eyes. They were pleading.
"Fine but not here Raiden's sleeping"
"Okay" Richard says following me my room.
(Okay people the moment you've all been waiting for)
I walk into my room and close the door behind Richard.
"So what did you want to talk about?"
"You know very well"
"I do but you start"
"Okay Raven, I'm sorry"
"Sorry for what"
"For what I did, I should have never did it and I should have never hit a girl"
"Okay Richard, I forgive you but do you love me"
"No I don't love you"
I stare at him. I knew my mouth was wide open.
"Wait so you've been lea…"
Richard stops me by kissing me.
"You didn't let me finish, I'm in love with you. I've always been, even when I used to pick on you. I was in love with you. You know how they say you only hurt the ones you love"
"Wait so you've always been in love with me, what about Kori"
"Don't get me wrong I did love Kori, but I grew to realize it was more of a brotherly love"
"Oh"
"So I sit here waiting for Raven to tell me the same"
I don't say anything.
"Raven! Say something. I know you love me, but you're afraid"
"I'm not afraid"
"Yes you are"
"Fine damn it I'm afraid. I'm afraid of love. I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid that you're going to hurt me again. I'm afraid that the next time you hurt me I'll break all the way."
"Raven you don't have to be afraid of love. I'm in love with you and you're in love with me. I wont hurt you any more"
"All the other times we've argued, you said you wouldn't hurt me, but you still did"
"Raven, Jade, what ever you want to be called, I want to start over. This, time no fights. No secrets. No secret identities. Raven I wont hurt you any more"
I had started to cry. He really wanted to start over.
"You wont hurt me"
"No Raven I wont" Richard said as he wiped away my tears.
"I'm in love with you Richard"
"And I the same with you Raven"
Richard gave me a kiss with so much passion. We fell back on my bed. We just laid there I in his arms.
I can finally admit it. I'm in love with Richard Grayson.
The End
So I'm done. The fic is over. I know the ending is so crappy. But please review. And don't be sad I'll be back and better than ever. You just wait I'll have a better fic.