For The One Who Had Nothing
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam SEED or GSDestiny.
(A/N) First and foremost, I would like to thank all of my reviewers and I am humbled and flattered by you all who've taken a bit of your time to read this story. I am encouraged by all the words and I hope not to disappoint. Gomen ne for the delay to the reviewers that I said I would get an update soon…unfortunately I came down with a sickness plus I kinda ran into one of those writer's block…I couldn't decide where I wanted my story to go from and I made two drafts that I didn't like so I threw them away…heh…hehe gomen ne, but the document manager thingy messed up for me for some reason and I couldn't fix it…it was talking about how the request to upload a document timed out and stuff and I refreshed it and logged in and out like 50 times…ok maybe 20 times, but you get my point? Heh, gomen nasai but I tried so hard but the server was just having problems I guess because I'm sure I didn't do anything wrong…heh, I'm such a noobie I know, I know, heh lol.
Also, I must apologize again if anybody objects to my writing style and the length of it all, I wanted to get better at my descriptive writing really and I enjoy writing/typing so hehe…I don't really want to rush this story so that it's more enjoyable for me and hopefully for you guys as well. Please bare my mistakes and cliffhangers and my slow process of telling the story, I just don't want things to happen like so quickly and vaguely that you don't know what's going on. (If you guys haven't noticed it's still the same date as in chapter 1, lol). I really like stories that are well thought out and descriptive rather than being full of non coordinated (no pun intended) actions, and that's what I am aiming for in this story.
Plus one of my constructive criticisms of SEED and Destiny was how they didn't elaborate on how the characters felt so that it would be concrete. A lot of things in the anime were subliminal or were all understated, but that's how Fukuda-sama is brilliant because even though the show didn't show all that much love scenes and stuff, you could feel or assume that it was there because it was basically a given. Like Lacus and Kira for example, even though they haven't kissed lips to lips or said I love you or anything of that sort, it's a given that it's there just by there subliminal actions, neh? That's why it's very difficult for me to stay in their character because most of their dialogue in the anime is about one sentence long, lol, but that's where creativity and imagination comes in neh? So please bare with me if my impressions of their character differ from that of yours, everyone is different in a sense, but we're all the same neh? Well I'll end that rant before I even get further, I kinda blabbered about that too much already in my profile, lol, heh.
I also want to clear up on any confusion in the story plot, it's a part of my set up and plan and it will soon be cleared up, just hang in there a for a bit longer for me…hehe. Anywho, I hope I can capture the real essences of the characters and sumimasen for my inadequacy as a writer. Well that's the end of my little blabbering, here's a heads up preview if anybody read this at all, this chapter will be a chapter where I explain everything and have a lot of events (including the reactions and POV of Lacus and Cagalli before and after they see Kira) so it will be basically like two chapters all rolled up into one. Also, I will like to forewarn those who want the KiraxLacus action that it might not be hitting as quickly and all fluffy like so soon just because of the circumstances, and I will leave you guys to figure that out, but please note I am a KxL fan too so as much as it hurts me to make them not be all over each other like I would want, I hope this will suffice for now See ya at the end of the tunnel. Ja ne.
Oh yea, gomen ne if the story seems like a kiraxcagalli, I know it may seem like they do like each other a little to much but to clear up on that, I just like their brother and sister relationship even though they are not aware of it. It's very intricate and nice, but I don't want to go on and elaborate on that, I kind of mentioned it in my gundam seed rant though in my profile, lol, heh. I was kind of subtle about the specifics of their relationship though so sorry for any misconceptions. But rest assured, their will be no existence of incest in this story.
Back to the story. Oh yea, so there's no confusion on the time frame, the beginning of this chapter is after Kira came in to give Cagalli the documents that Uzumi-san asked Kira to give her and left to go get dressed up. It's where Cagalli questions Lacus' peculiar demeanor after she notices her looking at Kira differently.
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Japanese Dictionary -- Dikushonari-Nihon
Otou-sama : father (respectful)
Haha-ue : honorific of mother, (more respectful)
Chichi-ue : honorific of father
Okaa-san : mother
Onii-chan : older brother (cute form with O in the beginning)
Hountouni : truly or really, dependent on how it is used
Arigato : thank you
Gomen nasai : I am sorry
Gomen ne : sorry
Sumimasen : sorry; excuse me(casual)
Hai : yes
Tennyo : celestial maiden
So desu ka… : I see…(to understand or comprehend)
Without further adieu…
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Unforgettable Love
"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies." -Aristotle
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." -Robert Frost
"Love is something that cannot be forgotten." -Ethereal Enigma
Cosmic Era 70, January 27...Heliopolis, Orb
In the flowering vernal season of Orb. The flowers spring to life from their wintry slumber showing their beauty and grace to the world that sees their beauty. Their fresh scent tickling the nose buds of all who stop and smell the roses. The air a scintillating crisp cool breeze. The moon illuminating the surface of the earth in a fluorescent scope of phosphorescent light. The stars filling the night sky, innumerable by all means, creating a sense of immeasurable wonder. Inside the many homes of the world lay the troubles, problems, disputes, dilemmas, happiness, laughter, solutions, and wonders that comprise life itself.
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'Was that 'him' again? No. It can't be. Why is he here?' Lacus' mind trembled almost as much as her body. She had not recalled who 'he' was at first, when she 'met' him earlier that day at her new school, Heliopolis High. Granted, it had been nearly eight years since she had seen her first true love. She remembered what had happened earlier that day; all the emotions that betrayed her at once was certainly overwhelming. At first, she believed she was tarnished and an awful woman by being unfaithful in looking at another man with eyes filled with what can only be described as a loving gaze. She didn't know why she would look at another person like that. After all, she was the wife to be for the 'Most Eligible Bachelor' in all of ZAFT, named Athrun Zala. Athrun was handsome to say the least, he was in every GQ and Maxim magazine covers, he had his own fan base of obsessive fan girls, and had even been number 2 on the Top 100 Beautiful People consensus in the world, only second to Lacus Clyne herself.
Nevertheless, Lacus knew that her love for him was only through friendship and not the type of love she felt deep down in heart at the moment she saw passionate violet eyes trying to decipher her bewildered and entranced expression earlier that day. Athrun was a close childhood friend that became her husband to be at the tender age of 10, (2 years after 'he' left) in order to unite ZAFT with PLANT to help benefit millions of people. The cause of her marriage was so great that she never objected or thought of refusal even though her heart ached at the thought of not having 'him'. She would have been glad to jump at 'him' and rekindle their relationship that she never once forgot about. But she knew duty came over her selfish desires and she would not disappoint her father nor anyone else for that matter. Besides, it seemed that Athrun had come to love her despite their rare moments of being together. Since this boy came back, her world and resolve had nearly crumbled and shattered to pieces.
Most of her songs were based on the hope that one day, she would see him again. That was the only thing that kept her going through the sadness of her life. Hope. Since the day she was able to saw his handsome face again came, she was happy. But circumstances prevented her from loving the only boy she ever truly loved, it was fear and pain. 'Did he forget me? I felt his confusion…the turmoil in his heart still lingers inside him, only more evident this time…He hasn't changed though…My feelings for him haven't changed neither…' she thought with a heavy sigh placing her tiny pale hands over her heart as if to shelter it from the pain that ached within her. It was not that his appearance pained Lacus, no in fact it made her genuinely happy. Truth be told, it was the fact that they were yet again thrown into a bittersweet situation, a situation that was all too familiar with them. But 'he' forgot already, which was bittersweet itself since she knew being ignorant or not knowing the pains of reality is logically better than being hurt and tormented constantly by knowing. She knew that even though Kira may harbor the same feelings, she would not press on for a relationship between the two. She would rather keep the pain within her concealed no matter how much she wanted to be with 'him' again, she would not be able to do so.
A soft hand was placed on the shoulder of the pink-haired princess who was presently battling millions of soldiers that attacked her thoughts and emotions mercilessly. "Lacus, what's wrong?"
"It-it's nothing Cagalli."
"Don't lie to me Lacus, it's clear something's wrong, do you think I'm that stupid?" Cagalli retorted in mock anger in order to get Lacus to talk. She ushered her tearful friend into the warm Jacuzzi to try to get her settled down and maybe even give her a few answers to many of her questions.
"N-no…It's just that…that…Why is that boy here Cagalli?" Lacus asked trying her best not to mislead Cagalli.
"He's a good friend of mine. He's really cool and very nice, kind, and overall a great person. Why do you ask? You got a problem with him or something? I know he's not the richest guy, nor a GQ cover model like your baka for a fiancé Athrun," she retorted, wincing from sounding meaner than she actually wanted to say. Athrun Zala was just somebody that she harbored a crush for yet infuriated her at the same time. They would often clash in a series of testy feuds and both harbored some sort of fondness for each other despite his engagement to Cagalli's best friend. They would never admit that though, she never looked at any boy for more than two glimpses until she met Athrun. Kira of course caught her eye a little more but that was only natural since she was curious about his personality that radiated a sense of genial caring and kindness that she desperately needed in her life. Athrun was something different than that, but she could never be with him so what was the use.
"N-no…It's just that," Lacus stuttered, something she had never done before while talking to anybody, "he reminds me of somebody…that's all." Lacus used a conservative answer that was not a lie, just part of the truth.
"Oh…Okay Lacus. Well, since your going to be living here with me, I guess it's for the better that he might be somebody like that. After all, he will be spending the night here," Cagalli said happily causing a blank look to appear on Lacus' face.
"What? Why…Cagalli…"
"Huh? Oh because I want him to, I like him, he's really nice and fun to be around, I'm sure you'll like him too, and he's got an adorable little sister you should meet," Cagalli said joyously unknowing of the pain she was causing Lacus.
"Hai…I'm sure I will like him," Lacus said noting the irony of what she said.
One of the doors to the pool area opened as the said boy walked in with a smile planted on his now clean face. The boy just walked in to spend some time with his good friend, unaware of the presence of another person. Reaching his destination, he stopped in front the Jacuzzi that Cagalli occupied. Many surprised gasps filled the area.
"Hello Cagalli, how do I look?" he asked innocently, hoping he would now look decent. It would be an understatement to say that this boy was modest, but society affects the thoughts and minds of all those who are govern by it.
Blushing at the appearance of the incredibly handsome youth, Cagalli could only nod in agreement. The boy then quickly realized that Cagalli was not alone. 'Pink hair…? I know I've seen that somewhere before' he thought as soon as he recalled that the girl was in fact the same beautiful girl he saw at school, his mind just blanked out as his whole body stiffened up. 'Why am I reacting like this?' he questioned himself yet again.
Noticing the uncomfortable silence, Cagalli decided to break silence, "Come on Kira, or would you rather me teach you how to swim?" Upon hearing his name, Lacus involuntarily shuddered as she was once again dazed by his reappearance.
Kira managed to break out his stupor and fumbled around saying, "M-maybe later Cagalli, I-I have something I have to take c-care of, later…"
"Okay, your loss."
The boy turned around to leave, but he was stopped by a calm and gentle celestial voice, "Wait…" Lacus said.
At that moment, Lacus began to rise out of the warm water as Kira began to choke at the incredibly arousing scene he was seeing. The light pink two-piece bathing suit that Lacus wore was drenched in water making it cling to all the perfect curves that she possessed. A lot more of her skin showed through the lack of garments causing a rouge pink tint to surface on the abashed boy. Her hair was rolled up into a neat bun that was accentuated by her golden double-crescent shaped hairclip while her pale complexion perfected her angelic features only to be emphasized the protruding moonlight.
Kira's mind consequently went blank as he breathed in the appearance of the pink-haired beautyHe was unable to speak. His lips moved in its own accord mumbling in a barely audible voice the only word that would be able to fittingly describe what was coming towards him, "Tennyo…?" At that, Lacus felt her cheeks tinge a light pink that matched her bathing suit, she did not expect the boy to say something like that.
Realizing that the girl had requested him to wait, he somehow finally managed to squeak out a reply in politeness, "Hai?" The look of confusion etched on his perfect face made him absolutely adorable to Lacus.
'He hasn't changed one bit…He's still that adorable loving boy my heart remembers' Lacus thought causing her to bite down on her lips in an attempt not to tell him the three words she wanted to say the most at that moment.
Kira began to blush more and more with each and every step that Lacus took to towards him. The expression of ethereal cuteness etched on her face almost crippled his lungs and just about every other bodily function. He was not used to such close proximity with a girl, nonetheless a tennyo. Upon reaching the now unhealthy looking boy, the said tennyo peered into his violet pools awash of confusion and embarrassment. Her own cerulean eyes searching, examining and hoping to find what she wanted to see in his orbs.
'Why is she looking at me like this? What's she doing? And why do I want to kiss her so badly? I don't even know her…Yet she seems so familiar…Why--' A soft hand placed upon his cheek broke his thoughts. Lacus herself did not know what she was doing, her actions were not being dictated by her own will, but by her subconscious that longed to touch the boy she loves with all her being. After a couple seconds passed, Lacus was heartbroken that she did not find the feelings she wanted to see within his violet pools. She almost cried at that moment, but decided not to. Instead, she would savor this moment when she could feel his soft skin again. The childish features of his handsome face were marked by confusion bringing a small smile on her lips as her interrogative gaze softened at his cute expression.
Upon seeing her softened light blue eyes glimmering with bittersweet emotions, Kira's mind flashed with memories of familiar light blue orbs as an overwhelming emotion came to surface. Love. As his eyes snapped out of its confusion, they were replaced with a look of longing, craving and yearning. 'What are these thoughts…'
Lacus' caught a glimpse of the change in Kira's look, she was surprised at what she thought she found but before she could conclude her suspicions, a panting maid came bustling in.
"Cagalli-sama! Uzumi-sama is calling for you in the conference room in twenty minutes."
"Okay." 'I wonder what that's about' thought Cagalli.
At this point, Cagalli knew something was up between the two and that's why Lacus was acting weird today. She was kind of disappointed since she liked Kira, but she felt as though there was something deeper between the two. She also knew that she didn't like Kira in the way that Lacus was staring at him. Call it, "sister's intuition", but she shrugged it off as a certain blue-haired coordinator came to mind that she quickly dismissed the thought of as quickly as it came to her.
Silence filled the facility as the ill-timed intrusion caused Lacus and Kira to separate, but not before both teens had a pretty shade of pink blush appear on their cheeks from their 'weird' interaction. Kira was left in his own mind deliberating what he was feeling the moment he saw the girl's light blue orbs. While Lacus was left in her own mind deliberating what she thought she saw in the boy's violaceous eyes.
'It couldn't be…' the two thought deeply, almost as if they could hear each other's voice saying the same thing.
Disgruntled and puzzled by the uncomfortable atmosphere, Cagalli seized the moment of silence to introduce the two, "Kira, I'd like you to meet my best friend, Lacus."
Upon hearing the name of the 'mystery lady,' Kira's mind once again filled with memories of a familiar name. It was then that his mind registered the familiar looking figure embroidered on the girl's pink hair. At that realization, he knew he had to get away soon to think things out before he was overwhelmed. He gave an incomprehensible muttering as if to say "nice to meet you," while Kira's discombobulated mind began to waver and feel heavy from the influx of memories as he tried to make his leave to sort things out. He quickly mustered up the strength to mutter his reason for departure, "Sumimasen, I-I got to go check on m-my sister, j-ja…"
With that said, the boy abruptly parted leaving a bewildered Lacus and Cagalli who were both perplexed by his rash actions. Recalling the feelings that Lacus momentarily glimpsed inside the brunette's eyes, her bluish eyes began to brim with tears of mixed emotions. She could feel his mind traced with emotions of confusion and amorousness, but before she had a chance to contemplate the matters any further, a comforting hand touched her shoulder.
"Lacus, please tell me what's going on…" Cagalli stated clearly, determined to apprehend her actions and emotions.
Lacus removed her tears and sighed knowing that she might as well tell Cagalli the truth because honesty is always the best policy, especially with a temper tantrum prone princess, "Do you remember the time I told you about a boy…" Lacus trailed off, and Cagalli nodded in compliance, she recalled Lacus' story full well since it was the only other time she's seen her cry and the only time when Lacus talked about 'a boy'.
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Heart wrenching sobs could be heard from the lavish mansion of the Clynes. A pink haired girl of eight years was the source of the tears. Her blonde best friend secured her in a sympathetic embrace as she poured her heart out in an effort to diminish the pain in her heart. 'He' was gone. The grim reality knocked the wind out of her sails for the second time that day. 'He' was gone. He sporadic crying convulsions hadn't begun to subside after the first time. 'He' was gone.
"I love him Cagalli…and now, he's gone…." Lacus always kept Cagalli updated on her relationship with the boy regardless if she ever wanted to hear it. Lacus told her everything that happened that fateful day and she ask Cagalli to promise not to tell anybody. Naturally she complied and peacefully resided to comfort her best friend, which was the most that anybody that was not 'him', could do for her.
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"Uhm…so?" Cagalli asked in confusion.
Lacus just pointed at the golden double-crescent shaped hairclip she never took off, while only saying one thing, "You remember his name right?"
Cagalli was dumbfounded as the thought of his name dawned on her. How could she not have recognized his name before? Granted it was a thing of the past, but how could she not have realized the brunette's name before? Than she realized that she only knew 'him' through his name and as the boy that Lacus loved so much, never having the opportunity to meet the boy until eight years later. Fate must be doubling over in laughter at the immense irony that its mighty hand had dealt.
They both chorused silently, "Kira. Kira Yamato."
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Kira ran through the multitude of corridors until he reached his designated bedroom where his sister slept peacefully in. He went in briefly to check upon the slumbering child he was entrusted to care for. The moment he knew she was fine, he decided to sit on the chair next to the bed to contemplate his thoughts. Recollecting the events that happened, the boy once again drowned in a flood of memories that were not conclusively registering in his mind. Images, people, things, and emotions all flashed in a disorganized and barely coherent frenzy.
'A beautiful dawning sky...beautiful azure sea…?'
'Haha-ue…That girl…?'
'That hairclip…those bittersweet eyes…?'
'Love…Pain…Misery?'
Before long, the boy took off the necklace and began to fiddle with the 'thing' that was attached to it. Soon afterwards the boy realized who gave him the ring as his mental exhaustion took over causing him to succumb to a premature slumber.
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"So desu ka…Lacus," Cagalli said absently to no one in particular, smiling at the knowledge she obtained while hoping things would work out. She decided on going to the meeting instead of checking up on her good friend. For the time being, she would head towards the meeting that her Otou-sama had requested. While walking towards the destination, Cagalli recalled the talk she had with Lacus about the brunette.
"Cagalli…It's not his fault. I know he still remembers me deep down inside. I saw it in his eyes for just an instant but...but…I know it's there…." Lacus trailed off as if she was trying to convince herself as if it was there. She was on the verge of tears whether Kira remembered her or not, she still had those same feelings for the him and she knew that was something she could not forget.
"Demo, what about Athrun?" Cagalli asked unknowingly showing a little more interest than she had meant to have.
"You must know already Cagalli, I do not like Athrun the way that another Princess might like him," Lacus answered insinuating that she did in fact know what was going on between Athrun and Cagalli.
"Wha-what?" Cagalli flushed pink at the thought of being caught of maybe having feelings for a certain coordinator.
Lacus smiled at her expected response, she knew all along that the Princess of Orb harbored a secret crush on her fiancé. "How long has it been since we met each other, Cagalli?"
Cagalli was puzzled by the sudden change in topic but casually said, "eight years ago," since she almost knew by heart.
"How long has it been since we became best friends?"
"Eight years ago."
"How long has it been since we met Athrun?"
"Eight years ago."
"How long has it been since you liked Athrun?"
"Eight years ago."
Lacus just smiled at tricking Cagalli to reveal her 'secret crush' on Athrun. After thinking for a few minutes of what she said, Cagalli blushed madly at her revelation. A comforting hand was draped on her shoulder, "Don't worry about it Cagalli. I've known all along."
"But what about your engagement with him Lacus?" Cagalli asked in a worried tone.
"Chichi-ue will not make me marry against my will. Besides, I'm sure Athrun's feelings are the same."
Cagalli tried her best to cover her crush up, "I don't know what feelings you're talking about Lacus."
Lacus just giggled in understanding.
"But what do we do about Kira?" Cagalli said trying to change the topic as well as equally puzzled on what to do about the disgruntled brunette.
"You have a meeting to go to Cagalli."
"Demo, Kira is more important than that!"
Lacus smiled, "I know. That's why I will go check on him Cagalli, I have some things to confirm." She grasped her heart while fiddling with the precious gift she's kept for eight years.
"You still love him, don't you?"
Lacus merely smiled, and asked for the directions to the aforementioned boy's room. Once she understood where she would be going, the princesses parted ways.
Reaching the mid-size, but equally lavish conference room, Cagalli entered the door only to be shocked at what she saw. Cagalli noticed that her father was not the only one there.
Elsewhere, Lacus reached her destination as well.
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Inside the room lay two slumbering figures. One was sleeping on the bed while another was sleeping on the chair next to it. Lacus approached the two in order to get a better look. She noticed the boy sitting on the chair had his head slumped down in what seemed like an uncomfortable position. After a few moments she decided to help the boy out of his discomfort by guiding him onto the bed. She wrapped her arms around the sleeping boy as she delicately place him on the bed beside the little girl. The position she ended up with left her in an uncomfortable yet delightful situation. She was face to face with the boy. Their lips a mere inch apart while there noses barely touched the others. Lacus was staring into the closed eyes of the man she loves and held both of his hands with her own. Feeling something in his right hand, she soon realized what it was and she knew that she could no longer hold herself back any longer. She had to say it, even if he was sleeping, she had to say it just to ease her mind even a little. And so she did.
"I love you Kira."
With that said, she closed the distance between her lips and the boy's lips, kissing him with all she had. She closed her eyes in an effort to stop the tears of happiness that were flowing freely from her eyes. The feel of his lips pressed against her own sending a euphoric tingling feeling down her spine and all over her body. She recalled the first time she ever kissed someone the way she was kissing the sleeping boy. An eternity passed in a matter of seconds as the feeling from the pit of her stomach arose once again.
Soon she realized exactly why.
He was kissing back….
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To be—(A/N) aw come on guys, I know you all don't think I'm that mean…hehe
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Lacus opened her cerulean eyes only to meet a pair of violaceous eyes. She could decipher only one emotion that was clearly showing through his orbs. Love. After a couple of minutes passed by as the need for oxygen finally came to mind, the two reluctantly broke the passionate kiss as they both gasped for air. Upon realizing what Lacus had done, which was kissing the boy while he was sleeping, she turned to leave immediately until a gentle hand kept her from doing so.
"I love you…Lacus."
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To be continued…
(A/N) gomen ne everybody for the delay and that lousy cliffhanger, hehe…I felt really bad for taking 2 days just to write this short chapter…heh. : ( Im really not proud of it, but I was feeling more guilty in not updating so I decided to post it up so sumimasen… I kinda ran into a writer's block of what to do, and plus my mind is groggy of medicine, stupid cold, I really dislike the winter season aftereffects and the always changing climate around here. My immune system has been really bad since I was a child…but don't feel bad for me cause I sure don't, anyways, sorry about this chapter, I can't make any promises on when I can get the next chapter up, hopefully I get healthy soon and get back to writing better. Ja ne