Oh my god you guys I am SOOOO SORRY! I so totally left you hanging lol. But anyway I guess that's going to be the norm for the week, weekends I can write all I want but between work and school I'm strapped for time M-F ANYWAY thanks for all your praise, I'm really glad you liked the fact that Sarah told Ruth off…I was very proud lol.

The whole thing with Sarah's mom will come out in a few chapters. So hold your horses : )

This is for Norma…

Wise QUOTE of the Day

"Listen, strange women lyin' in ponds distributin' swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony."

Lol you're crazy, but you've been with me since the beginning of this so I had to make you laugh. Lol

To everyone else, thanks for your continuing support, I love you all: )

Chapter 18

Hannah came into my room not long after the steward left and helped me dress. Finding me something to wear seemed to be a chore for her. She kept talking, fast, giving me a mere glimpse into how nervous she must have really felt. I know because I felt it too.

I wished more than anything that I could go to Harry, but if there was something really that serious going on he had duties that came before me, as reluctantly as I wanted to admit it.

Minutes later, Hannah had me so bundled up I don't think any kind of cold could have gotten through. Her attempt to put the life vest on me failed though. I didn't feel like wearing it, I wouldn't have been able to move.

When I was dressed I sent her off to do the same. As soon as the door shut behind her, I grabbed Harry's pocket watch and slipped it into my coat pocket. I then walked out of my room and followed the crowd of people that was heading up towards the first class reception area. When I reached it I looked around for Rose, I spotted her over along with Cal and…Aunt Ruth. I took a deep breath and walked over towards her.

Mr. Andrews quickly passed in front of me and Rose suddenly looked up and walked toward us quickly. She practically ran over and reached out to him just as he was stepping up the stairs. He turned around. His face was no longer kind and handsome, but more apprehensive and worn.

"I saw the iceberg, Mr. Andrews. And I see it in your eyes. Please tell me the truth." she spoke in soft words. Cal walked up behind her as Mr. Andrews looked around the room. The dome on the ceiling made me see him as some sort of heavenly messenger.

"The ship will sink."

My breath caught in my throat. Sink?

"You're certain." Rose managed to say.

"Yes, in an hour or so this will be all be at the bottom of the Atlantic."

"What?" Cal asked, visibly shaken by what he had just heard.

"Please, tell only who you must I don't want to be responsible for a panic. Get to a boat quickly don't wait…you do remember what I told you about the boats?"

"Yes…I understand…" she looked over at me, her eyes full of fear. I couldn't help but look around the room. All of these people, I admit at having not paid attention earlier when we were taking that tour but I had heard what he had said about the lifeboats.

Enough to save only half.

This couldn't be happening; it was all a dream wasn't it?

Oh god please say it was a dream.

Mr. Andrews looked at Rose and me, sympathy on his face. "Ladies, please, don't wait…" he trailed off and looked around the room quickly, then back to us. "…I must go." he quickly turned and went up the stairs.

Rose and I looked at one another.

"This is an outrage….calling my lawyers when we reach New York…full refund…"

I barely heard Cal's blathering. I felt as if I had my ears in seashells and there was nothing but that empty noise surrounding me. The only person I could hear was Rose, and even then they weren't her words, they were her thoughts. She was thinking about Jack. The memory of him being hauled away to God knows where on the ship, stung me and I then realized he had no idea what was going on.

Rose's face showed no emotion. Her face had turned the color of ice. As Cal moved away from us, and went back to Aunt Ruth I took Rose's hand into mine.

"Rose?" I asked in a faint whisper.

She didn't answer me.

"Rose…please, I know you're thinking about him. You know he didn't do it. You need to go to him."

She shook her head. Defeated, it seemed.

There was an announcement for us to start heading out onto the deck and Cal came back over and took Rose somewhat roughly by the arm.

"Come along, darling" he said forcefully. He threw a look back at me and I reluctantly followed the two of them and Aunt Ruth outside onto the port side of the ship… The night air was beyond frigid. You could actually see your breath form a cloud in the air. I noticed that it was the officers who were supervising the lifeboats and I looked around quickly to see if I could find Harry. As far as I could see to my left and right, I couldn't see him. There were a lot of people out on the deck, so even he if he was out here I probably wouldn't be able to.

A flare suddenly shot up into the air and exploded in a flash of brilliant light and it was then I realized I did recognize someone…what was his name? Lightoller…Yes that was it. He was standing near the lifeboat I was instructed to get into.

"At this time, we are asking for only women and children…woman and children only!" he yelled to the crowd.

You could feel the fear emitting from the other women around me. They clutched tightly to their husbands looking at the lifeboat with great apprehension.

If they only knew… I thought

I looked at him as I followed Rose, and Aunt Ruth towards the lifeboat, like I was cattle be driven in a herd. He was looked awfully distracted and but he did look at me as I stood behind Mrs. Brown, who was getting into the boat. He seemed to know exactly what I was going to ask him.

"Starboard side" he replied. I nodded, thanking him with a small smile and started to turn around, when I heard Aunt Ruth's annoying voice come up over the crowd.

"Will the lifeboats be seated according to class…I hope they're not too crowded." she finished with a slight laugh.

"Oh mother SHUT UP!" Rose's voice came back with a vengeance. "Don't you understand, the water is freezing and there aren't enough boats, not enough by half….Half the people on this ship are going to die."

"Not the better half" Cal muttered under his breath. From where I was standing I could see the anger swell up in Rose's eyes. "You know it's a pity I didn't keep that drawing, it'll be worth a lot more by morning."

I had no idea what he was talking about but I watched the little color Rose had left in her face drain. She exploded her anger quietly, just as another flare went up.

"You unimaginable bastard."

"Come on Ruth, get in the boat. These are the first class seats right up here. That's it…" Mrs. Brown helped Aunt Ruth into the boat, who still looked a bit shaken by Rose's words; I couldn't helped but laugh a little on the inside.

Rose was next. Mrs. Brown reached over to help her but suddenly Rose stepped back, shaking her head. I looked hopefully at her…Was she coming to her senses?

"Rose, get in the boat!" Aunt Ruth practically screamed through clenched teeth.

Rose looked at her, then at me and gave me a small smile. I smiled back. She then turned back to her mother. "Good-bye, Mother." and turned walking away. Aunt Ruth screamed for her and Cal took swooping steps towards her and grabbed her, pulling her back roughly. I couldn't hear what he was saying over my Aunt's yells, but I saw them struggle, Rose finally won, spitting a bad of saliva in his face. He let her go and she immediately ran down the deck.

I was going with her.

Mrs. Brown looked at me and shook her head. "Sarah…"

Before she could even finish I was running off in the direction Rose had, passing Cal who was still wiping the wetness off of his face. Behind me I could hear Lightoller.

"Lower away!"

'Rose! Rose get back here!"

Those were the last sounds I heard as I ran after Rose. She needed me right now, as much as I wanted to run into Harry's arms I needed to be with Rose. I just hoped he would understand that.