Title: Unconditionally
Author: CelticGoddess1986
Pairing: N/A
Warnings: Umm, None? I dunno, you tell me, I don't see any. Maybe slight spoiler warnings for people (poor souls that you are) that didn't see the 1st season finale of Avatar.
I love him.
Hard as it is to believe it, I do love him. I cannot hate him, even after everything that he has done to me.
I can try to hate him, try to convince myself that he does love me, in his own twisted warped way. I try to persuade myself it's my fault he doesn't love me. That I haven't earned his love. But that truth of the matter is I'm lying to myself. Love shouldn't have to be earned from a parent. It should come unconditionally. My sister has always had that love from him. But not I.
He has always loved her better. Everything I ever accomplished was never up to the standard that she set. And I was the elder, I should have been setting the bar. Hah, but then when has anything in my life ever fair. Uncle presumably has some wonderful proverb that would work right about now. Something about life not being fair, just fairer than death. Hah, sometimes I wish death had claimed me, instead of leaving to wander the world on a fool's mission with a scared face, scared heart and scared soul.
But I cannot give up. I cannot lose hope that maybe, maybe if I can just do this one thing right. Maybe he will finally love me. And maybe I will finally feel complete.
Aww, poor Zuko. His life kinda sucks doesn't it?
Zuko: Oh shut up you.
Me: Hey, you will treat your writer with respect.
Zuko: Oh will I now?
Me: Yes you will, or I won't let have any romancy moments with Katara
Zuko: Gives Celtic the evil eye You wouldn't dare.
Me: Wanna bet?
Zuko: Grumble, Mutter, Angst Fine.
Heheheh. I win. Stay tuned for the next episode in which… well actually I'm not sure what happens yet. I'll figure out what it is once I get 10 reviews.
Ciao!