Drama, drama, drama. You know you love it. And no this is NOT
the last chapter, just clearing up that quesiton for those who asked
hehe. But yes. If you read the beginning to the first chapter in her
little opening speech she uses the word "nearly". Just take that hint.
Waking up the next morning, I was still in his arms. The memory of what he said hadn't faded. I shot up to the sound of the phone ringing. I usually never got a call, unless from Sean, Marco, Ashley, and now Craig. Sometimes my Mom, but it was rare in re-hab. I slowly got out from under Craig, who was sleeping still. I walked across to my closet and got my robe quickly, picking up the phone. "He-Hello?" I said still tired. "Ellie?" It was Sean. I felt nervous. Technically on his standards, we were still together. I had to stop it. "Hey Sean, how are you?" I said nervously. "Things are good. Listen, I know I haven't been there in a really long time, but I want to let you know. I still love you." There he was, lying to me. I knew he didn't love me. He didn't love me the way Craig did, Craig seemed so honest about it. I loved him too. "Sean," I began to say. "Now Ellie, I love you." I was tired of hearing. "Sean, I can't," I began to say "I just can't do this anymore. You don't love me. You wouldn't have left if you did. The truth is, I don't love you anymore. I found someone else, who loves me, more than I'll ever dream about." I could hear him breathing angrily, "You cheated on me?" I wasn't about to have him yell at me for something that was his fault. "Don't even give me that! You're GONE Sean! You left me here to cry myself to sleep, cut myself AGAIN, and PAY YOUR DAMN BILLS! No, don't give me this. I was always there for you, you were never there, EVER. Not when everything went to the shitter, hell no." He was silent. "I love you, and you aren't doing this to me." I shook my head, "Sean, you did this to yourself." I hung up on him, he wasn't remotely justified. I just sat down on the bed next to Craig, watching him sleep. I took his hand, "Don't leave me."
Summer went by rather fast. June, July, then August came without warning. I knew there would be things to face in the coming school year, but I didn't care. I knew it would be different.
Now when people ask me how this sort of things happens. My response will never make sense to them but only to me. I knew that somewhere Ashley was still thinking of Craig, in a way that hurt me, because I knew that she held a hope, and I knew it was over, over because of me. Walking around, fingers laced, people gave us stares. I knew they were judging us. I didn't care. Sitting with him, having him listen to me was enough. Our time spent was rarely physical. A kiss, sex once in awhile. But that wasn't everything. When the school year began the school was buzzing, and it was close to Ashleys return. Sean was angered, he called everyday, I never answered the phone, then Craig got me a caller ID. Summer went by rather fast. June, July, then August came without warning.
Now I couldn't sleep again, I knew I wasn't alone because Craig was right next to me, but Ashley. She was coming back, tomorrow. Looking to my clock which read 2:17, She was actually coming back today. I sighed heavily as Craig groaned next to me turning frustrated. He shot up and looked at me. "She knows, she knows I would move on it's her fault." I smiled tiredly and took his hand. "Listen, if she has something to say, she can say it to me." He smiled and kissed me. "If she had the nerve to leave you, just like Sean left me, then she doesn't deserve your love. She made you feel like a burden she needed to avoid so she ran away. And you know what, I'm going to say that to her if she objects." So eventuallywe fell back asleep for a short bit, and woke up at 5. We needed an early start to prep for our "big day". Craig never told her. I guess it slipped his mid. In my mind, she deserved this little suprise. Walking to the dot, Craig and I were a bit antsy. Maybe coffee was not the best thing to have when you're on the edge.
People were already surrounding her when we arrived. We were hand in hand, it felt better to take her head on togehter. Slowly going up the steps, Ashley stood in the center of a giddy group of grade niners, fascinated with her tales of European fancy. Spotting Craig, obviously not me, she ran down and hugged him, my hand getting torn away from his. "Craig, oh my god, you have no idea how good it is to see you!" She leaned in to kiss him, but he turned his head, slowly peeling her arms off of him like pieces of trash. "Ashley, don't" She looked at him stunned. "Craig, I thought, we were still," she faded off. Craig laced his fingers in mine, Ashley looked down at our hands. "Ellie?" She looked at me, still speechless. "You, you're with Ellie now..." She looked up at him tears forming, and without warning she slapped him so hard he stumbled. " You bitch! You knew he was with me! You're my best friend!" I was gaping now. I now became intimidated, unable to say anything to her, I looked down in shame. Craig looked up, a cut from her nails on his face. "No Ashley! Don't you DARE blame her for what you did." Ahsley was fuming, "Really! What did I do to make you cheat on me now!" A crowd was forming, and Craig was just getting started. "You ran off, like a little baby because you thought that I was too much for you! You just, fucking left me here! You wanted to be away from me, YOU broke up with me. As far as I'm concerned, we were done from the second you closed that cab door." She atood there, thinking about what he had said. "Ellie was there for me! She didn't think that I was a problem, I felt like a god damn charity case who made my girlfriend leave because I was 'too much' for her! Well no Ashley, you wan't have to deal with me anymore. I know what true love feels like, I have Ellie." Everyone looked at me. Feeling more courage to stick up to her I spoke, finally, "Ashley, you lost the best thing that ever happened to you. You fucked up, and if I'm a bad friend, that's fine." Hand in hand, Craig and I entered the school, leaving Ashley standing there, silently crying to herself.
Word now spread. Craig and Ellie, together. Ashley Kerwin, what a bitch. Everyone now had their own say. The only bad things were about Ashley. But others thigns were being spread that wasn't exactly musci to my ears. Sean Cameron, he's back, looking for that Nash chick. I was assured he wouldn't do anything, but I knew something was wrong.
"So," Craig began to say one day in the Dot."Mmhmm?" I asked drinking my tea."Well, I was thinking, how about, since you know your birthday is coming up, we throw you a party?" I looked at him. "Craig...I'm nto a party person." Her looked eager to please so I reconsidered. "Alright, well throw a party. And yes, you can have drugs and alcohal if you feel like being a total moron, then again, I don't care, I'm just there." He smiled, "I love you Ellie, it will be great." We kissed, then Jay came up to us, "Hey lovers, cool it, you never know where Cameron could be hiding." I rolled my eyes. "Jay what do you want?" Craig asked. "Well I couldn't help overhear your conversation, so is the party tonight, and should we inform just about everyone...oh wait, I will either way." I covered my face as Jay shouted, "Party at Nash's!" then pointing down at me, everyone cheered. Craig took my hand, "Let's go." We went to his car, and drove to somewhere quiet for a bit, and then did a bit more than he intended. I was on his chest when I realized, "Shit!" I shot up. "Craig, wake up, we have to go to my party!" We fumbled to get our clothes back on. And It was around ten o'clock already. "Craig chill out it doesn't matter how late we are, it'll be all night." He began to slow up when we were rammed from the back. "What the hell!" Craig turned around quickly, "Who is that?" I pushed him back, "Keep driving! I'll look." I squinted looking into the beater following us. I couldn't see, but they sped up and got to the right of us. I stopped breathing, Sean. He looked wild, like a homicial maniac. Craig looekd oer, "Oh shit." I rolled down the window, "Sean, what the fuck are you doing?" He looked at me, and smiled evilly, then ramming us again. I quickly rolled up the window. I looked at Craig, "Go faster! Lose him!" We were then rammed again, pushed against the quard rail of the bridge. I think I was screaming, I don't know, it was a blur. I just remember taking Craigs hand, then we flipped. He held on still. My head smacked against the ceiling, and I blacked out, but I knew, I was still holding his hand. I woke up, upside-down in the car. Glass was cutting into my side as I layed there. Craig was breathing heavily, "Ellie, are you okay?" I was never happier to hear his voice, "Yeah, are you?" He nodded. He was bleeding from his nose, and I was about to reach over and help him when the door opened on my side. "Get up." I heard Seans voise say in anger and hate. I couldn't move. "Ellie don't move!" I dind't want Craig to get hurt. Sean reached down and grabbed me, throwing me into the pavement of the empty road. "You left me for emo boy!" I looked up at him, my head bleeding from when it hit the pavement. I looked helplessly at him, "Sean, please, you left me." I was near tears. He reached down and angrily pulled me up, his face inches from mine. "Leave him, or you'll pay for it." He smelled like my mom on a bad day. "Sean you're drunk." In teh background I saw Craig slowly get out of the car, coming towards Sean, I shook my head at him, but he just...snapped. Craig lept ontop of Sean, Punching him over and over. Sean Shoved him and they began to fight. I screamed at them to stop, "Sotp it, STOP!" I ran to the car, for a cell phone, anything.Sean grabbed my hair, and threw me down. Craig grabbed him, but Sean flung him down, and began to kick him, soft packing noises coming from each blow. I stumbled up. Grabbing Sean, "No, Sean you're going to kill him!" I turned around, and smacked me. Craig lay there holding his stomach. Sean had now begun to shove me around, yelling obscenities, calling me a a "slut" and a "cunt". I just sobbed and let him. Craig grabbed his legs, and Sean turned around, "You took her from me!" He flipped open a knife he had. "Sean no!" I screamed. He picked up Craig, and Just...stabbed, and stabbed, and stabbed, over and over, and over. I was screaming, trying to get him to stop. When he was done, he spun around and stabbed me in the shoulder I cried out in pain, and fell to my knees. He walked off the bloody knife to his side. He wiped it on his pants, got in his car, and drove off. I was left there, crying. My mouth was open and I want to scream. I looked over at Craig, he was breathing still. I crawled over to him, gripping my shoulder. I was over him sobbing. "Craig, please, don't leave me." He looked at me with him blue eyes in pain, "El-Ellie, I love you, so much." He gripped my other hand hard, "I-I'm sorry," He said crying, tears falling from his eyes, it was the most painful thing I've ever had to witness. I bowed my head to breath, "Craig, hold on," I heard sirens in the distance. His breathing slowed, I leaned over to kiss him. "Just remember Ellie please...I love you more, than you could dream...I-I always will..." He touched my face, he was bleeding so much, I tried to stop it, do anything to help him. He was in so much pain. "Ellie..." He looked at me, then stopped breathing. His final tears falling from his dead eyes. I stared at him, "Craig," I pushed him to wake him up, anything. "Craig, don't, don't leave me, not now!" I sobbed insanely, the sirens coming closer now. I was sobbing into his chest now, his blood smearing everywhere. I looked up, and screamed so loud that the world could hear my heart break. I was sobbing so much. I didn't even hear the ambulance roll up. Craigs eyes were still staring, dead, lifeless into me. Then he began to shake. I was confused, and someone called by us, and I wasn't sure what to do.