"ENOUGH!" Loudly, I shout grabbing Casandra's arm and twist it, making her cry out as I kick her back from roughhousing Varric.
"You lied to us!" Cassandra glares.
"We did what we had to," I argue as I stand protectively in front of Varric as Varric and I stand glaring down at the fuming mess, across from us, ready to beat the living pulp out of us, I can take it I'm used to it but Varric can't, he isn't the brawler more of a long ranger kind of guy or guy who uses his charisma to escape from a fight.
"You two knew where Hawke was all along!"
"Your damn right we did!"
"You conniving little shit!" Quickly, Varric ducks the punch while I grab it.
"Don't make me break your arm," I warn her darkly as she glares at me.
"You knew too and hid it from us,!" She hisses and pulls back, only for me to release her and smirk as she drops down onto the floor, glaring at me which I happily return.
"You kidnapped me, you interrogated me what did you expect!?" Varric argues.
"Hey enough!" Eve intervenes making me raise a brow impressed by her sudden burst of confidence.
"You're taking their side!?" Cassandra argues angered.
"I said enough!" Eve snaps as I bow my head trying to calm my roaring fiery breathes. Tired, I lean on the table to steady my angered state, my iron grip on the wooden table tightening each and every time Cassandra speaks.
"We needed someone to lead the inquisition. First Leliana and I searched for the hero of Fereldan but he had vanished. Then we looked for Hawke but she was gone too, thanks to that asses connections," She sneers at me as I scowl at her.
"We thought it all connected but no. It was just you two, you both kept her from us!"
"The inquisition has a leader," Varric argues.
"Hawke would have been at the Conclave if anything could have saved most-"
Oh shut up! If Hawke was at the conclave she wouldn't have saved the Divine. The chantry has done enough harm than good to her and all those we know. She would have left that old woman to rot!" I snap. They have no idea what the chantry did, what all of this shit has done to Hawke and asking her to help them Maker's sake, why can't they leave her? They've done enough; they've damaged her and her family enough…
"What's done is done. We need to focus on the now," Eve intervene frowning at them both.
"So I must accept what? That the maker wanted all this to happen? That he…that he…" Casandra trials off, hurt evident in her tone, making me groan and place my gloved hand over my eyes, trying to control the urge to just scream…
"For fuck sake…" I curse muttering under my breathe turning my back to the heartbroken tone of Cassandra, still reeling in grief from the conclave. People die get over it, it happens every day.
"Varric and Fennic are liars Inquisitor, both of them are snakes, even after the conclave when we needed Hawke the most…Varric and Fennic kept her both a secret!" Cassandra exclaims to Eve.
"She had a family," I snap in Hawke's defence, making Cassandra grimace, falter slightly.
"She's with us now! We're on the same side…" Varric sighs.
"We all know the side you two are on. It will never be the inquisition," Cassandra scowls.
"Attacking him now won't help us Cassandra. We need to work together," Eve reasons to her.
"Hah exactly!" Varric agrees.
"And you better not be keeping anything from us, the both of you!" Eve snaps as I frown at her. I can keep what I want to myself; I feel Varric's eyes briefly on me which I shrug off, still refusing to spill…
"I understand," Varric growls glancing at me as I nod and sigh taking a seat, straddling the chair, leaning on the top of the chair as he leaves…
"I must not think about what could have been, we have so much at stake go Varric, just go," Cassandra sighs, fed up, back turned as I raise a brow surprise by my lack of dismissal as Varric eyes me and I shrug.
"You know what I think. If Hawke had been at the temple she'd be dead too. You're people have done enough to her," Varric huffs and descends down the staircase, leaving the tense and saddened atmosphere around us. Exhausted, I lower my head as the two talks.
"I believed him. He spun his story for me and I swallowed it. If I had just explained what was at stake. If I had just made him understand but I didn't did I? I didn't explain why we needed Hawke did I Fen? I'm such a fool," Cassandra sighs sadly looking up at me as the girls take a seat near me.
"You didn't Cassandra but either way we wouldn't have let you have her," I state stoically shocking her.
"What would have happened if you tracked her down?" The two turn to me.
"Hawke would have laughed in your faces and refused. Hawke has sacrificed too much, she deserves a break especially during that time in her life, besides if my brother was there he would have beaten you to a bloodied pulp," I deadpan making Cassandra goes silent and bow her head.
"You may be right. She did support the mage rebellion at that point. She wouldn't have trusted me for a second…"
"You're not wrong but back then there was no real choice. Templar, mages they were both in the wrong in that bloodied chaos," I mutter bitterly.
"…Fennic I never knew…"
"Of course you didn't, why would I tell you this shit…?"
"But this even isn't about Varric nor Hawke not even Fennic, not truly. I should have been more careful, I should have been smarter, I don't deserve t be here…"
"Oh Maker sake, yes you do. You helped out with the fighting and shit, you are still useful…"
"You're too hard on yourself Cassandra," Eve simplifies.
"Not hard enough. I think that," Cassandra grumbles.
"You can't believe that," Eve waves her off.
"I want you to know I have no regrets, maybe if we found Hawke or the hero of Fereldan the maker wouldn't have needed to send you. But you did, you're not what I pictured but if there's one thing. I know it's that I know less than nothing," Cassandra sighs and stands up, the pair leaving as I stand up, joining them and leaving, separating myself from them.
"Fen I'm…"
"Don't. I'm too exhausted to deal with you lot," I grumble and leave the two, tired and exhausted of it all…