"Get me on my feet
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me"
X-Japan (Silent Jealousy)


I Want to Be You

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Stressed

Kagome laid in the darkness of her room with a feeling of weakness. She had not been strong enough to destroy Hate. It pained her to know that she had to rely on others. She was used to being independent, she didn't want others to feel like she useless. As she lay down, she could feel the soul within her growing stronger. When she collected the other souls, she would be back to full power. Kagome glanced out the window and knew that Kuronue was still upset. He had hurt her even if it wasn't his own will. Kagome sighed; she knew he would never purposely hurt her. Her thoughts stirred regret within her soul.

Kagome continued to gaze out the window as she thought about Houjou. The boy had changed into something strange. Kurama had brought her a paper about a local murder. It turned out that the owner of the club had been found dead a few nights after the club incident. No one remembered what happened, it was for the best. Kagome frowned as she wondered if Houjou had a connection to Keiko and Inuyasha. A tear slid down her cheek as she thought about another life ruined. There were times she wished she were brave enough to die. The window opened and cold breeze drifted through the curtains.

Kagome sat up and prepared to fight whatever had interrupted her thoughts. Black hair was held up in a bun with diamonds in it. She wore as dark green skirt with yellow fishnet for a shirt. Kagome could see her black bra. Her green eyes clashed with Kagome's own orbs. A soft smile fleeted against the soul's lips as she sat down on the windowsill.

"What do you want?" Kagome demanded with a scowl.

"I wanted to talk to you," Envy easily admitted.

"Why?" Kagome growled.

"Because I envy you," Envy softly said. "I need to talk to you before I make a choice."

"Then speak quickly," Kagome advised.

"The other souls spoke of how weak you are…but I admire you," Envy explained.

"What do you admire more…my rotten luck or sorrow?" Kagome dryly asked. Envy's green eyes glared at Kagome before they saddened.

"I grieve when I see you happy…yet I admire your happiness," Envy softly said.

"Why tell me this?" Kagome questioned.

"Because I miss feeling that happiness," Envy snapped with a bit of anger. "When I was in you I had everything I wanted! I had love and friends."

"Then why not come back?" Kagome questioned.

"I love and hate you," Envy admitted with a bit of sorrow.

"Then you remember how we envy everyone for being normal," Kagome softly stated with a sad smile.

"We're just like Kikyo," Envy whispered. "All of us are existing when we shouldn't be."

"We all have a will to live," assured Kagome.

"Does it make us evil?" Envy asked.

"If we were evil then we would not strive to do the right thing," Kagome hopefully explained.

"Then am I doing the right thing? Is rejoining with you right?" Envy asked.

"I won't lie…but I don't know," Kagome whispered.

"I want to be you," Envy whispered.

"There are times where I don't want to be me," Kagome whispered with a soft laugh.

"Then you can be me and I'll be you," Envy offered.

"Let's be each other," Kagome offered.

"Maybe I'll get a chance to live," Envy optimistically whispered.

"Maybe we'll realize how lucky we are," Kagome added.

Envy nodded as she turned into a black orb. Kagome reached out and held the soul between her hands. It slowly turned white before it slipped inside her chest. Kagome inhaled as she felt the power seep back into her body. She stood up from her bed and walked outside of the bedroom. She smiled as she felt everything she envied. Kagome ran down the stairs thankful that she had everything she wanted and more. Envy's feeling made her realize something's. Kuronue looked at her and she stopped her descent. She could see the sorrow in his eyes; it was hidden behind that endless pool of indigo. Kagome lunged at him and pressed her lips to his.

"I love you so much," Kagome whispered against his lips.

"I'm sorry for hurting you at that club," Kuronue whispered.

"Shh, it's over and in the past," Kagome assured as she dropped to the floor.

Kurama was looking at her with a grin and Yusuke had a bit of a smile. Kagome hugged Kurama and gave everyone a look of determination.

"I want to find Pride by tomorrow," Kagome announced.

"What about Envy?" Kurama asked.

"I already have that part of my soul back, she came to me," Kagome assured.

"Where would Pride be at?" Yusuke asked.

"We travel to the Western Land of Makai," Kagome happily said. Envy had given her a little hint.

Shippo sighed as he hid within the closet of his guest room. He could hear the thunder clash outside the door. Hiding was his only hope if he ever had a chance to stay alive. Lightening clashed and he winced. The door swung open and he squeaked as crimson eyes glared at him. He scrambled backwards as her hand reached out and pulled him out of his sanctuary.

"Shippo!" The female squealed as she glomped him.

"Souten! Please! No more love!" Shippo pleaded as the lightening youkai continued to squeeze him.

Every time they would kiss, she would shock him with lightening. Or there was the time she got over excited and killed his favorite garden with a lightening bolt. She was too dangerous to be around. Souten kissed him and Shippo jerked when the lightening fried his brain. Souten hugged her prize to her bpdyand took off down the halls. Kagura raised an eyebrow at the scene and softly chuckled. Shippo mouthed a silent plea and Kagura laughed.

Kagura opened the office door and gazed at the Taiyoukai that reclined in his chair. A smirk danced across her face as she approached him. His amber eyes slid open and he watched her hips sway closer to him. Kagura leaned over the desk and winked at him.

"You work to much," she softly said.

"That's what I get for being a ruler," Sesshoumaru calmly answered.

Kagura smiled and looked away from him with a blush. When they were alone, he would add a bit more warmth to his voice. He took her hand and led her around the desk where she sat on the corner. He ran his thumb over her hand and she smiled. Thunder echoed in the sky and they both began to laugh.

"I think Shippo's going be closer to a funeral then a wedding," Kagura joked.

"I wouldn't doubt it," Sesshoumaru seriously agreed.

Kagura scoffed at his serious tone and lightly smacked him on the shoulder. He raised an eyebrow at this and grinned. Her crimson eyes sparkled with mischief as he pulled her to his lap. She let loose a soft girly squeal and his laughter filled the room. It was a moment where they could show a side of themselves that they didn't dare show in public. Kagura brushed a stray piece of silver hair from his eyes and smiled. He leaned forward and rubbed his nose against hers.

"You're tense," Kagura whispered as her arms wrapped around his neck.

"Visitors are coming," Sesshoumaru whispered as his lips came closer to hers.

"Visitors," Kagura repeated as their lips softly met. Sesshoumaru pulled away from the kiss and grinned at her.

"Kagome and a few others are coming," Sesshoumaru clarified.

Kagura nodded as she pulled his face closer to hers. Before their lips could touch her, brain registered who was coming.

"WHAT?"

Souten looked toward the door and temporarily dropped her Shippo. Shippo took this chance to transform and sneak a few feet away. Lightening broke through the roof and zapped the floor in front of him. He tensed and whispered a prayer to any Kami out there. Souten sighed and turned back to Shippo with a huge grin. Shippo remained still in hopes of her overlooking him. She walked up to him and just hugged him. He relaxed and wrapped his arms around her with a soft sigh.

He couldn't understand why he loved this girl so much. Ever since he had met her once more during his travels she clung to him…literally. They had traveled together as children searching for a way to free Kagome. It started off as a simple friendship that led to a weird relationship. His emerald eyes gazed down at the girl who only reached his shoulder. Her jet-black hair was braided down to her ankles much like her deceased brother. Hiten, she looked like him with a more feminine beauty. His past with her deceased brothers sometime put a stain on things. She had told him that she missed her brothers, but they shouldn't have killed for no good reason. It pleased him to know she had more brains then Hiten and Manten.

"What are you thinking about?" Souten softly asked as she looked up at him. Shippo gently smiled at her and then smirked.

"You," he honestly said, and it was true in a way.

"I don't know whether to be pleased or think you're a pervert," Souten teased with a frown.

"Then just be pleased," Shippo sighed.

"You've been around Lord Sesshoumaru too long," Souten laughed as he chuckled.

"That domestic dog?" Shippo asked.

"SHIIPPO! SOUTEN! IN MY OFFICE NOW!" Sesshoumaru yelled.

Shippo tensed and his fur stood on edge. Souten gave him a smile and tugged the stressed appendage.

"It looks like time you blow-dried your tail," Souten thoughtful said as it twitched.

"Do you think he heard?" Shippo whispered.

"You know he hears everything," Souten whispered back.

Shippo nodded and took her hand in his, much to her delight. He pushed open the office door and walked inside the room. The first thing he noticed was Kagura's crimson eyes staring at him from behind Sesshoumaru. He shuddered at the pair; they made an intimidating couple. Kagura smirked at him and placed her hands on Sesshoumaru's chair.

"Yes Lord Sesshoumaru," Shippo said with a bow.

"Hello," Souten cheerfully piped as she waved. Sesshoumaru rolled his eyes and Kagura snickered.

"You are unaware of this, but Kagome is coming with her friends to the castle," Sesshoumaru said as Shippo tensed. "You will be there to greet her at the gates."

"This is wonderful," cheered Souten, she'd finally have a chance to meet the one that raised Shippo.

'She's coming,' Shippo thought.

"Shippo?" Kagura asked.

"When is she coming?" Shippo suddenly asked.

"Tomorrow morning," Sesshoumaru answered.

Shippo nodded and bowed with Souten before they left the room. The doors closed behind him and cheers could be heard in the hallways. Sesshoumaru winced when he heard lightening. His castle would be in ruins at the end of this visit.

Author's Note:

I wasn't going to add that much of Sesshoumaru—he threatened me—but I decided that this story needed some Fluffy.
I'm a bit disappointed about this chapter, I know I could have done much more with Envy, but I didn't like her and wanted to remove her.
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