"My heart is suffering
Why can't I feel love as in a fairy tale?"
Love/Tragedy (Cruxshadows)

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"Talking"

'Thinking'

Stressed
'I remember the pain that I went through with Inuyasha. Many think that I am cold…unfeeling because of my actions. None knows that I feel things differently from them. They forget, just like I try to forget that I am neither human nor youkai. But I still remember the pain…the sorrow…the despair I felt. It still haunts my memories and each memory refreshes those emotions I once felt. I don't know how he will deal, but I know that I will deal,' Kagome thought as she stood on the lookout tower of the castle.

Her shirt had been ruined and she had to borrow a haori from Kagura. It was a simple crimson haori and Kagome dryly chuckled at the irony. She had not seen Kuronue for two nights now, this being the second night. Kagome was fearful, not of his could be anger, but of his rejection. She feared that she would loose him and she knew she deserved it.

"Are you still out here?" Kagura questioned as she stepped off her feather and onto the watchtower.

"Yes," Kagome calmly answered.

"You'll freeze if you stay out here," Kagura warned.

"No I won't," Kagome spoke, "I wish I could, but I won't."

"You still think of that bat," Kagura sighed as her crimson eyes slid to the moon.

"He occupies my mind," Kagome sighed.

"What will you do?" Kagura questioned.

"I don't know," Kagome whispered.

"Apologize," Kagura suggested with a shrug.

"Any apology won't help the pain that I caused. It won't ease me because I know I could have prevented that pain," Kagome explained as she leaned against the wooden rail.

"You just can't avoid him forever," Kagura stated.

"I know…I'm just preparing myself," Kagome simply said.

"For what?" Kagura questioned.

"For any bitter words, words of hate, words spoken out of pain, and words that are true," Kagome listed as she closed her eyes.

"He loves you, but I don't think he'll play a blame game," Kagura assured.

"I just don't want to loose him," Kagome admitted. "This is why I didn't want to love him."

"Love comes with pain, that is the reality," Kagura wisely said.

"I'm just going accept his decisions," Kagome calmly said.

"Don't lie over and die, it doesn't suit you," Kagura firmly said.

"I tried to lie over and die…and it didn't work," Kagome scoffed as she blinked.

"Why would you want to die?" Kagura questioned. In her opinion, the Miko had everything. She was free to wield a never-ending power, the gods didn't dare oppose her, and she had love.

"I have nothing to offer him," Kagome softly answered.

"You have everything," Kagura firmly said.

"Do you think the Tama should be destroyed?" Kagome questioned.

"Of course, it will keep everything safe," Kagura, answered.

"If the Tama is destroyed then I will be destroyed," Kagome stated as her face turned neutral.

"You can't break away from it?" Kagura questioned.

"I have nothing to offer him but sorrow and pain, but if I was to die before he became too attached…then he would have a chance to move on," Kagome explained.

"So you decided to spare him pain and ease Inuyasha's soul at the same time," Kagura assumed.

"Yes, the Tama would have been destroyed and everything would be right."

"You don't understand, everything would be horribly wrong," Kagura growled.

"How so?" Kagome mocked.

"He would have believed that you wanted to die with Inuyasha. Kuronue would go on living wondering if he wasn't good enough. You know that it would hurt him to believe the one you love would rather die with the past then live in the future," Kagura explained.

"I just keep screwing up," Kagome mumbled.

"How will you fix this?" Kagura questioned.

"Duck tape and glue," Kagome joked as Kagura softly chuckled.

"Then you better get to it," Kagura pushed Kagome off the tower.

Kagome yelped as she fell through the air. She focused her power and softly landed on the ground. Her power was slowly rebuilding itself within her. She took off running toward the castle so she could speak to Kuronue. If she had to walk through hell, then she would do it for him.

Kuronue sighed once more as he stared out the window. Kurama scoffed at his friend's mood. He had been silent and lost in thought the whole night. Not once had he joked or smiled since that night with Inuyasha. He hadn't even talked about that night. Kuronue would brush the subject off and lock himself in the room. Hiei raised an eyebrow wondering how he had gotten pulled into this youkai love drama. He for one didn't want to be involved in the drama.

"Are you going to talk to her?" Kurama questioned.

"Maybe," Kuronue answered.

"Are upset?" Kurama questioned.

"Yes," Kuronue shortly said.

"Sad?"

"Yes."

"Troubled?"

"Yes."

"Horny?"

"Yes."

"Baka," Hiei mumbled as Kuronue kept saying yes to every question the fox asked.

"Do you want to a sex change?"

"Ye—what the hell?" Kuronue growled as he turned his angry eyes to Kurama.

"It's good to know you're now listening," Kurama sighed with triumph. That still didn't ease Kuronue's glare.

"Why are you still in my room?" Kuronue tiredly questioned.

"Because you need my wise advice on how to deal with the Miko," Kurama answered with a grin.

"I don't need advice," Kuronue declared.

"Hn," Hiei mumbled as he closed his eyes.

"Even Hiei agrees that you need advice," Kurama pointed out with a smirk.

"Hn?"

"She wants to be with the hanyou," Kuronue sighed as he leaned his head against the wall.

"You two are a perfect match, you both are completely dense," Kurama said with a bit of irritation. "You both can't seem to understand each other."

"I understand that she would rather die then live with me," Kuronue growled as his patience began to thin.

"Baka," Hiei mumbled from his spot.

"Have you ever wondered what would happen to Kagome if the Tama was destroyed?" Kurama questioned with a calm face.

"The hanyou said she would die," Kuronue answered.

"When she made the Tama she sacrificed her soul, so when the Tama is destroyed her soul won't reincarnate," Kurama explained.

"How do you know this?" Kuronue questioned with a suspicious glare.

"I stole her diary," Kurama answered with a grin.

"Pervert," Hiei mumbled.

"Am not," Kurama supplied.

"It was hidden in her underwear drawer," Hiei dryly commented.

"And how do you know?" Kurama slyly asked.

"I saw her put it there," Hiei answered as his cheeks slightly turned pink.

"Anyways," Kurama dramatically said, "she will cease to exist."

"Then why would she want to die now?" Kuronue snapped back.

"She survived his death. Imagine how she felt to watch him die knowing that she could have done something," Kurama softly said as his eyes saddened.

"She didn't want you to feel that pain," Hiei added.

"I think she feels that you aren't that attached to her now. Her thoughts are to die now so you won't feel that pain," Kurama finished.

"I already love her," Kuronue whispered.

"Like I said, you two don't understand each other," Kurama repeated.

"You need to show the Ningen how youkai do things," Hiei added as his crimson eyes darkened.

"But she's human," Kuronue protested.

"She was human, now she is a Kami in training and something beyond human," Kurama reminded.

"Remind her who is the male," Hiei simply said.

"Those traditions are old," Kurama, grumbled.

"Going soft fox?" Hiei calmly questioned.

"Of course not," Kurama said with a smirk.

"Then start the youkai mating rituals, make it so she won't have any doubt," Hiei explained.

"I don't think she would like youkai courtship," Kuronue sighed.

"Do what you think is best, show her you are serious," Kurama said.

"Have the traditions changed over the years?" Kuronue questioned.

"Some things, but I think ancient traditions are best," Kurama answered as Hiei raised an eyebrow.

"Do you still have the pendants?" Kuronue questioned.

"Of course," Kurama answered with a grin.

"Can you get them?" Kuronue questioned.

"I'll go right now," Kurama happily agreed.

He stood up and left the room with Hiei in tow. Hiei stopped the fox once the portal opened. Kurama gave an innocent smirk. Hiei rolled his eyes.

"Are you trying to get him killed?" Hiei questioned.

"The ancient ritual is more intimate, it will bind them closer then today's ritual," Kurama supplied.

"You better hope that the Miko won't purify him," Hiei stated with a scowl.

"If this works then he won't have to fear her ki," Kurama supplied with a gentle laugh.

"What are the pendants for?" Hiei questioned.

"Then pendants are from his family, they are given to the chosen mate," Kurama answered.

"What do they do?"

"Link them in mind, body, and soul."

'Another interesting twist to my boring life,' Hiei thought as he imagined both youkai getting purified.

Enma softly clicked the monitor off from his desk. It had been annoying to watch his creator get separated from her power. He scratched his beard as he thought of how to use this to his advantage. The prospects were endless, yet he could find none. He glared at his desk as he slowly began to grin. It was to perfect to pass up; he would move the paperwork for her to become a Kami to faster. Once that happened, she would then become angry enough to destroy everything. He would then be able to rebuild his own empire of perfection.

"Is this what you want?" A gentle voice questioned.

"Yes, now quickly begin recording this history," Enma demanded.

The man in shadows softly laughed as he stepped into the light. Enma raised an eyebrow at his bold actions.

"What do you find amusing spirit?" Enma growled.

"I do not believe that you will survive this," the man calmly said as his violet eyes sparked with warning.

"She can do nothing to me," Enma declared.

"Kagome-sama is very resourceful," the man warned.

"Miroku, do not advise me," Enma warned.

"I am merely giving her unspoken warning. She will kill you," Miroku darkly said as he vanished back into the shadows.

Enma glared at the spot the spirit had been at. It seemed that Kagome's old acquaintances were up to no good. He shrugged it off because no one could stop him now that he was ready.

Lust sighed as she watched Kagome run toward the room. It seemed that she was the only soul left. Lust rolled her eyes and licked her lips. She wanted to have some fun before she went back into that woman. Lust tackled Kagome to the ground and kissed her. Kagome's eyes shot open as the woman quickly moved and vanished into the air. She sat up and looked for the strange soul. Her eyes flashed and became a darker shade of blue. Kagome grinned and gently stood up. Her hips swayed as she pushed open the doors to her and Kuronue's room.

Kagome could see his form standing in front of the window. Her eyes ran across his back and she grinned. She took in how his wings simply connected to his back. Her eyes strayed to his butt and she bit her lower lip. Kagome glided across the room and ran her hands across his wings. She trailed her fingers across the leather and then reached down and squeezed his cheeks. He spun around and she ducked under the frantic wings. His indigo eyes met her deep blue eyes.

"We need to talk," Kuronue firmly said as he studied her.

Kagome leaned against him and trailed her fingers down his chest. She didn't want to talk and ruin this wonderful moment. All she wanted was to be with him without thinking of the consequences. Kagome reached up and nuzzled his neck.

"Let me give you the short version of my talk," Kagome huskily said.

She reached her hands up and grasped the back of his head. His eyes widened as she pulled him to her. Kagome covered his protesting lips with her own lips and silenced him. Lust grinned as she sat in the corner of the room watching them. Lust's eyes darkened as she waved her hand and increased the feelings within them. Kuronue's eyes glazed over and his left hand tangled in Kagome's hair. His right hand covered the small of her back and pulled her to him. Lust smirked as passion overthrew their senses, it was a wonderful sight.

"Touch me," Kagome whispered as she undid the buttons on his vest.

Kuronue swiftly ripped her haori off of her body. The cold breeze from the window briefly cooled her heated skin. His mouth covered her neck and she felt his fangs graze the skin. Kagome ran her hands over his chest and stomach and felt the muscles underneath his skin. His soft growl sounded and she found herself flung onto the bed. She bounced from the impact and found herself quickly pinned to the soft mattress. He dipped down and roughly kissed her. His mouth moved and hovered above her.

"Be mine," Kuronue whispered.

Kagome arched against him and felt his warmth burn into her skin. Lust watched hoping that this would break the couple. A youkai in lust could do severe damage when not in control. Lust grinned as she watched the scene.

"Always," Kagome whispered. Kagome moved to kiss him and he moved out of her reach.

"Never leave me," Kuronue seriously whispered.

"I'll stay for as long as I can," Kagome replied and he growled.

"I want you forever," Kuronue growled.

"You have my soul," Kagome promised, her body felt like it was on fire.

"Be my mate?" Kuronue questioned.

Lust growled when she felt his love leak through the lust. He wasn't supposed to break her spell. Kuronue was supposed to rip her apart during his lust. Kagome's eyes cleared and she gazed up at him.

"I will be your mate…after we talk," Kagome assured.

Lust cursed as her influence flew out the window. Kagome's body pulsed white and softly began to hum. Kuronue pulled back afraid that he would be purified. Kagome grasped onto him and he relaxed as he felt the warmth of contentment flow through him. He sighed and lay atop of her as her body continued to glow. Lust cussed like a sailor as she felt herself being pulled back into Kagome. Her human form was lost as the darkness in her soul was purified. Kagome sighed as she felt herself become whole once more. The four Sakura petals upon her forehead flashed pink and became prominent once more.

'Finally purified and whole,' Kagome thought.

Author's Note:

Her relationship with Kuronue will get better, I promise
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