Calmly, I enter Cullen's new office, entering to find the conflicted male look down at a box, my eyes narrow at the familiar substances and tool kit similar to the Templars back in the tower, oh no…

"As leader of the inquisition you have the right to know…there is something I must tell you," Cullen confesses making my eyes widen in worry when I see the bloodshot veins in his eyes the bags under his eyes as well as his dishevelled hair. Maker, he looks nearly as bad as Fen does when she over uses her lyrium or refuses to sleep.

"Whatever it is Cullen you can tell me I won't judge you," I reassure the fragile looing man, my heart racing fearful of his words to come.

"Right…thank you. Lyrium grants Templars our ability but it controls us as well. Those cut off suffer. Some go mad others die…we have secured a reliable source of lyrium for the Templars and mages here. I will not take it," Cullen begins.

"You stopped?" I question surprised.

"When I joined the inquisition it's been months now," Cullen confirms.

"Cullen if this can kill you…." I trial off panicked at the thought.

"It hasn't yet. After what happened in Kirkwall I couldn't, I will not be bound to the order or that life any longer. Whatever the suffering I accept it but I would not put the inquisition at risk. I've asked both Cassandra and Fennic to watch me, if my ability to lead is compromised I will be relieved from duty," Cullen informs me.

"But are you okay? Does it hurt, I know it can cause terrible pain I've seen Templars in the tower take it and some go mad," I argue recalling those dark times back at the tower. "I can endure it," Cullen assures me. "I respect your decision but this…you are better than this, I know you can live without it. I trust both Cassandra and Fen but just know if you ever want to talk I'm here," I reassure him, feeling my heartbeat go ecstatic as I gently place my hand on his shoulder, his browns meeting my greens as we stare at one another, trapped in each other eyes as a small blush reaches my cheeks from the awkward silence..

"Thank you, the inquisitions army always takes priority, should anything happen, I will defer to both Cassandra and Fennic's opinions," Cullen tells me as I slowly reluctantly remove my hand from his shoulder, ignoring my beating heartbeat as I nod dumbly.

"Does this mean it could harm Fen?" I question concerned for Fen as Cullen sighs.

"Fen from what I gathered has had those markings for years, the lyrium in her may have made her body adapt and evolve making her unable and instead counter the effects of lyrium, but I have a feeling. Fen's insomnia may link with her lyrium since lyrium can cause paranoia as well as flashes of haunting memories can lead to her insomnia lifestyle," Cullen reports to me.

"So she's safe?" I question intrigued.

"Perhaps, her brother isn't affected either," Cullen ends as I nod deciding to leave him alone to his thoughts…

Fen pov:

Calmly, I stroll through the chantry only for my brow to furrow at the sound of giggling and turn to the source, raising a brow at the woman, a dwarf happily talking to Varric; I raise a brow seeing a familiar look in his eye at her.

"It's rare to see you so giddy Varric," I make my way over to them.

"And who…oh wait you must be Fenris! Mr broody. Varric told me all about you!" She smirks.

"Its Fennic Fenris is my brother," I correct her.

"Fennic huh, I was close, I mean Fen, names Bianca," She introduces herself as my eyes dilate in horror at the name but I remain pokerfaced.

"Your name's Bianca," I glance at Varric and sigh, of course he wouldn't remember he was smashed.

"Yep," She smiles as I quickly glance and internally sigh relieved to see Eve.

"Oi Eve over here," I call out to her making turn to us.

"You guys look nervous," She notes.

"Eve have fun, I got to go," I smile.

"Where?" She questions.

"A place to hide Hawke!" Quickly, I rush to the gardens finding her with Fenris, happily chatting as their child on is on Fenris' lap.

"What is it?" Hawke frowns seeing my distressed look as well as my brother.

"What is it? Are you hurt?" Fenris asks concerned and anger laced in his tone. "I'm fine, I need to talk to Hawke," I reason as the pair frown but Hawke stands passing Robin over to Fenris. I raise a brow to see a dagger in her grasp but ignore it as we talk in a lone hallway.

"What is it?" Hawk questions baffled by my worry.

"She's here!" I hiss urgently.

"Who?" Hawke questions still lost.

"Bianca!" I answer making Hakes bleus widen then narrow.

"What!? Where is that…!?" Hawkes cowls, at the memory of us helping the hopeless, sad mess that was Varric after his confession of Bianca being real and…urgh I don't want to remember that day.

"Hold it! Hawke remember, when Varric told us of his mother and Bianca, you got to remember he was vulnerable from the whole brother fiasco he may not want to reopen wounds," I reason gently to the fuming mess concerned for her best friend, not that I can blame her.

"I know that I'm just concerned he'll get hurt by her again what if…." Hawke trials off panic evident in her facial features.

"You got to trust him Hawke, he trusted you with my brother remember?" I remind her remembering Hawke telling me of Varric's warning and being conflicted.

"I…I don't want Varric to be hurt. He's been hurt enough as it is…" Hawke sighs sadly, a genuine concern evident in her eyes.

"I know and I agree with you but I just wanted to warn you in case he tries to make you meet her and you flip," I reason gently to her.

"I do not flip, not unless it's the bird…" She smirks smugly trying to make the topic humorous.

"Yeah, I know just a heads up," I warn her.

"So why is she here?" Hawke asks.

"No idea…" I respond shrugging.

"Fen there you are come on we're going to Orzamaar…!" Eve's voice startles us as we turn to the Inquisitor.

"Well I think I'm going to find out now…" I smile weakly and take a few steps back…

"Please be careful, the both of you," Solemnly, I nod and leave the worried Hawke as I met up with Eve, Bianca, Varric, Cassandra and Solas. And that's when we head off to the dark dreary depths of some dwarven ruin place to look for some source of red lyrium, great just peachy, bring the girl infused with lyrium and see what happens when she is near red lyrium, great idea….fantastic!