I've been so tired lately. The only time I'm not half asleep is at night when I'm supposed to be sleeping. I guess that's what I get for getting off school for a week.

Disclaimer- I do not own Hana-Kimi, if I did then everyone would be stick people… But cute stick people! (One of my many weird talents ;D)

My very first order of business was to get rid of all the alcohol. I'm not going to risk Nakatsu becoming a drunk. There wasn't much in the house, just a few bottles of sake that were probably meant to be used for celebrations.

It was late night already but I wasn't tired. There was an eerie calm that had claimed the household and I was dragged into the feeling of it. It was times like this I could just sit there and think of nothing for hours but this wasn't the time for something like that.

When I went to check up on Nakatsu I saw that Amane had crawled in bed with her dad and fell asleep. To anyone who saw him they would think my love was sleeping but I know better.

"Do you want me to take her to her room?" I asked whispering. He looks up at me blankly. There was such confusion surrounding him. He never answered but I picked up the child and took her to the room across the hall that was obviously hers.

When I went back in Nakatsu's room he was still in the position I had left him in. I sat down on the bed and placed a hand on his cheek. "It gets easier." I tell him but he just nods. Of course I know he hadn't even heard what I said.

"You should sleep." I got up and headed for the door but he stopped me. "Kayashima," I looked towards him. My words could never describe his beauty at that moment. Confused and depressed in a dark room with the moon light from the window just hitting him so…

"You don't have any luggage do you?" I shake my head. "I'll call someone to send it to me tomorrow." He nods looking away but still looks uneasy. "The room at the end of the hall, it's a guest room so…" I smile at him. "Don't worry about me Nakatsu. I'm the one who's supposed to be taking care of you."

I slept in the clothe that I had had been wearing. Most people find this uncomfortable but I think that the clothe I wear during the day are just as comfortable as anything that should be worn at night.

It was 3:06am when I heard the door open to my room. I didn't need to look to see who it was. Nakatsu tiptoed over to the side of the bed where I was sleeping and kneeled so he was eye level with me.

"C-Can I? I don't want to be alone." I could feel the tears well up his eyes. "Go ahead. Anything that will make you feel better." He fell asleep fast, within the next ten minuets or so.

I turned to face him from where I was laying. "Didn't you mother ever tell you to never cry yourself to sleep Nakatsu? It will give you nightmares" I mumbled wiping tears off his face with my thumb.

Is it strange that I though it Nigmeh then? Maybe I'm regretting leaving her so quickly but I had to come to him. No I don't regret it… she said she would wait for me. Yeah that's it, I'm going to be here a year. What if some other archeologist comes into her bar and falls in love with her? I don't want her to miss out on what could be her soul mate because of me.

I was right about him having bad dreams. It was the first time since high school that I could share his dreams. It was black all around and he stood there in the center alone and scarred. He was afraid of always being alone and… cold.

When I awoke the next morning he was hugging me in his sleep protectively, the way a husband does his. In his sleep he must think that I am Rin. Pain that hasn't come to me on it's own for many years washed over me.

I gently crawled out from his embrace and went to check on Amane. She wasn't in her room but when I went to the kitchen I saw her trying to fix breakfast for everyone. It was a cute sight really to see such a small child trying to reach things in the high cupboards all by herself.

"Would you like some help?" I asked making her aware that I was in the room. She shook her head and turned back towards the counter where a bag of flour was resting. She reached her tiny hands up to reach it, her tongue stuck out of her mouth in concentration and then the bag fell right on her head.

I hurried over to her. "Amane? Are you in there?" I asked trying to wipe the powder from her eyes. She started to feel helpless then. "I'm supposed to cook and clean now because mommy's gone but I can't!"

I looked at the child in shock that I wasn't really feeling. "Who said you have to cook and clean?" She sniffed in hailing some flower causing her to sneeze a bit. "That's what mommy did and I'm the only girl so now I have to."

I smiled at her even though what she said did bother me a bit. Hadn't I made it clear I was going to take care of her and Nakatsu? "You," I started trying to clean her up a bit. "Don't have to do a thing. I'll do all the cleaning and I'll do all the cooking. Go take a bath and get this stuff off you and when you get out I'll have breakfast made."

When she left the room I cleaned up the flour off the floor and got to work. I haven't been in Japan or had Japanese food over the year in which I had learned to cook. I only knew how to made Arabic dishes and hoped that they would be okay with it until I picked up a few normal recipes. I had to stop by the supper market real fast to pick up a few things that they didn't have in the house.

When I was finished the whole table was filled with food. I had made everything from humus to eggs. Not forgetting the tea of course. The moment the water stopped from Amane's bath Nakatsu awoke.

He was content at first, then confused and then finally depressed. He came down to the kitchen in such a sluggish manor that his daughter was already dressed by the time he reached the last step.

He sat down at the table before he noticed all the food before him. I don't think he noticed the food until his elbow landed in some jelly. He blinked twice then looked up at me. "Since when do you cook?"

"Since a few months ago." I answered sitting down. Amane came down the stairs a few minuets later all clean and flour free. She was wearing a bark blue summer dress with the back unzipped all the way because she couldn't reach it.

She asked Nakatsu to help her and he did but I don't think that he was really sure of what was going on around him. He had a constant confusion around him that wouldn't go away.

It wasn't a happy breakfast of course. There was no talking unless one of them asked me what something was or how to eat it. They both missed Rin, and they should. I didn't mind the silence though. As long as I knew I was helping them I would be able to withstand almost everything.

"You should call your work and tell them you won't be able to make it." I told my love as I cleaned up after everyone was done. Amane had gone to her room to… color I think it was? Well something like that.

"Job…?" I starred at him for a moment. "Don't you advertise for sports equipment still?" It took him a long moment for this to register in his head. "I forgot." He looked just like a child that had just been scolded by his mother.

"Go get dressed and I'll call for you, just tell me the number." He shook his head. "It's okay Kayashima, I can do it." For obvious reasons I doubted this but nodded anyways. He slowly made his way up the stairs.

After washing all of the dishes I sat back down at the table. I rested my elbows on the table and rubbed my eyes. This was going to be harder then I expected.

I'm so sorry that I'm taking a lot longer to update then I did with my last story. My sister doesn't let me on the computer now a days because we have new internet…Please tell me what you think and review!