Disclaimer: No $$$ is being made, situations and characters are borrowed.

My ideas of why Dan did what he did. Like it/hate it, let me know, i will be writing more character povs' before next week's eppy.

Does this Darkness have a Name?

Camera flashes to Dan's face upon killing his brother in cold blood.

Is it your name?

I may have used another person's tool of murder to kill you but I have to wonder how long it was in coming. When did it start? This ball of hate burning inside of me. You've always been there like a faithful dog, especially back in high school, always lurking in the background of my life.

I heard your speech about buying the gun and making the plan, but you never used, so I have to wonder why? What stopped you. I was the star in high school, everyone loved me, I was captain of the basketball team, dating the head cheerleader, King of my world.

Then high school ended and I was just another guy. I got my girlfriend pregnant, broke things off with her and left her. Alone. I made a decision that I always regret, I was going to go back to her, but my newest girlfriend told me I was going to be a father, so I decided not to make the same mistake twice. Of course, there were other reasons, but I stuck with Deb and my second son Nathan.

Moving back to Tree Hill, I had to watch you from a distance as you took the role in my first son's life that I wanted to take so badly. I was jealous of you for sixteen years because you were a father to my son. But there was another thing you wanted that you never got. Her.

My first love and she never loved you back until now. It was something constant, she thought of you as a friend, her best friend. I preferred to think of you as her lapdog.

I remember the night she left for Italy, you kissed her, change appeared on the horizon, when she came back, things might have changed. But then fate intervened and a nasty habit you couldn't shirk caught you red handed and she froze you out.

I watched in detached glee as she broke your heart again. But somewhere inside of me, I almost felt for you, but then I reminded myself, you'd always had it so easy.

There was one night that I remember vividly I try to block out with alcohol, the night she came to thank me for acknowledging our son. Having her in my arms brought back so many feelings, it felt like I had gone back seventeen years into the past, where we were together, in love forever.

I remember when you proposed to her and she said No. How do you deal with it? You sleep with my wife, who I was on the verge of divorcing. I have to wonder if I ever really loved Deb or if it was her money. I suppose at some point, I did love her, but you never forget your first love and she was mine.

Revenge is a dish best served cold. I plotted and planned, to twist and break and wreak havoc on your life. I hired Jules to gain entry to your heart and make you love her, she succeeded, but fell in love with you in return. The guilt ate her up inside, I twisted the screws tighter and tighter wanting her to break. Wanting you to be in pain, so I could feel alive.

What kind of person am I? The last year has been kind of a blur, I kept you close in hoping to learn more of how I could hurt you. Brother, blood is thicker than water and yet I always sought ways to make you drown in your own pain.

The last straw was thinking you'd had killed me, the evidence was there, but you mocked me. Your eyes were empty of malicious intent, but something lurked there, secrets that I didn't know and wanted to discover.

Forever and Always, you are my brother, my protector in childhood, but things changed when I grew up and was able to protect myself. I have to wonder when my love for you turned to hate, watered by your acts of betrayal.

I killed you, I pulled the trigger. Watching you finally get everything in your life when I had nothing in mine just triggered something inside of me and I did it. You're dead, your eyes look at me, void of life.

I'm going to hell, I know for sure, I've taken a human life, I'm a murderer, but no one knows and no one will know. The demon inside of me smirks in satisfaction, the humanity inside of me cries for the final loss of innocence. I've finally become the monster that I've been accused of so many times.

I hear students coming down the hallway, almost in sight, wiping my prints off the gun quickly, I place it near Jimmy.

Around the corner, Nathan thank god my son is alive, Haley his wife I use the term loosely and others. They stop and Haley screams, "Keith." Nathan stops her from running over to him.

Looking up at me for a split second frozen in time, she stares and then turns sobbing into Nathan's arms. Police swarm inside, pulling all the survivors outside.

My last look is at Keith, lying on the ground, frozen in death. His usually lively eyes are dull and lifeless.