I only own Desire, Hatred, and Caer so get over the fact that I could possibly own FMA. Why would I write on here instead of make my story real?

chapter three: Who Am I Really?

I sat in bed and noticed Caer and Hatred were sleeping peacefully. I got up and put on some teniis shoes and opened the door and tip-toed out. I left the hotel and walked around town in the middle of the night. The street light's were twinkling and you could hear how hushed it was inside the houses people were sleeping in. Some were up late watching t.v. shows and some were just getting home. I walked a few people living on the street, but didn't feel bad for them. Some had choices for that life and other's were born into. Life didn't happen to be fair, but for some other's it just wanted them dead even though they couldn't die. Life hated me and I hated it. Until I meet Caer and Hatred. Just like me in the same test tube of an experiment goen wrong. Caer still had dreams of the nightmare that happened to us. Memiries forgetten by pain not wanted to be remembered, pain wanted to be forgetten yet still haunting the mind. I stopped as I saw a park and crossed the empty streets of the city quite at night. The tree's looked black yet in day were dark green and seemed to blur away in the darkness. I found a bench under a street light and sat down. I looked up, yet in the city you could never see the stars. I'd never seen the stars yet yearend to be with them staring down on the world from above, hidding secrets waiting to be found. I knew tonight was the night it was my turn to remember, so I wasn't going to close my eyes for one reason. I was scared to close them and remember it, I was scared to close them. Yet I yawned and knew I wouldn't be able to stop it. I felt my eyes getting droopy and starting to close. I fought the sleepy feeling overcoming my sense for awhile, but couldn't fight it any longer and let it win. I closed my eyes as I leaned my head against the back of the bench and it started.

memorie flashback

I was pushed into the car and turned to see Roy running after the car, but it was to fast and stopped and watched as it took me away. I turned and struggled, but they put something smelly under my nose and I began to feel drowsy. Hours later I woke up and noticed I was in some glass jar. I noticed it was filled with water as I saw the bubbles leave my mouth as I tried to say help. I didn't care how or want to know why I could breath in this water. I was trapped and wanted out. I struggled and hit the glass with my shoulder's but ended up just getting soar. I turned and noticed there was a blonde girl in a large tube of water next to mine and another with long dark hair on the other side. A man stepped out and smiled grimly at me.

"ah the sleeping beatuy awakens." he said in a crackly voice.

What does he want with me and who is he!

"I am Proffeser Grim and you my dear are going to be my best creation!" he said again in a crackly voice.

creation! what creation? I'm already created, where's my brother!

"you're brother's in foster care and you my dear are going to be my creation. I was hired to make you just like someone I know, yet you already know how to do alchemy unlike the two girl's next to you. You my dear will be perfect. A unkilliable creation that uses alchemy, shape shifts, nails will grow just as a friend who hired me and will look just like her! you will be the perfect creation that can not die yet can still feel pain." he said and laughed a laugh that sounded like nails on a chalkboard. I pinched my skin and could still feel it.

"oh you're not there yet, I'm waiting for the other's to wake up before the shock." he said

shock? what shock!

"a thousand volts of pure hatred,evil,pain, and nightmares!"he said and laughed that horrible laugh again.

but, wouldn't that kill us?

"yes it will, and after you're dead I shall have two hours to opereate on you're souls then bring you back to life as my perfect creation!" he said

no..no I don't want to die please don't do this to me! I have a life, a brother waiting for me, a but he cut me off

"yes yes all those wonderful things, but you see you won't remember those things after I'm through with you. All you'll think is you're mother is Lust, you're her daughter who looks just like her and that you have always been evil and good at killing. You'll be a natuaral" he said "and they're awake. let's begin then." he said and flipped a switch. A cloud of black started to erupt from the bottom and a tingling sensation filled my toes as it was swalled in the black cloud, the rest of my body started to tingle as it surronded me. Just before it enveloped my body I saw the fear and confusion on the girl's faces and could tell it was on mine. After I was enveloped in nothing but black I could feel my body begen to shake and tremble. A feeling of pain swept over me and I couldn't stop my body from jerking out. Finnaly it stopped and I felt the cloud begin to dissapear and noticed it was entering inside my body. It wasn't being drained like I hoped it was being sucked inside my body and I felt my body begin to fall to the bottom. I landed yet I couldn't feel anything. My body was numb from the pain and still jerking out.

I closed my eyes and woke up hours later again on a bed. I stood up and was in a white operation outfit. where am I and what's going on? The door opened and Lust came over to me. I smiled "mom..where am I? what's going on?" I asked.

"you had an accident but everything's all right now." said Lust. You handed me my black dress and gloves and said she'd wait outside. I put them on and looked in the mirror. This doesn't fell right...something in my mind's telling me that this isn't me. Why do I look like Lust so much... Why doesn't this feel right...I got up and meet her outside. We left and meet up with Envy and Gluttany. They had Caer and Hatred with them. We looked at each other and I knew I'd seen them before, but where...why do they both have a look like they have a lost soul trapped in there eyes? why do I have a lost soul trapped in mine...Who am I?

end of memorie

I jerked awake and was back in the hotel room. Ed was standing above me and looked at me worried. I sat up and realized I was panting and sweating.

"Ed...What am I doing back here?" I gasped.

"I followed you and after you were asleep I kinda just watched you sleep, but then you started jerking around like you were having a heart attack. It's only one right now everyone's still sleeping. What where you dreaming about?" asked Ed still blushing from admitting he watched me sleep on a bench.

"I wasn't dreaming...I was remembering what happened. I don't know who I am Ed. I know my name isn't really Desire and I know this isn't my real body...but I'm trapped in it." I said.

"what..." he said confused.

" you're the only one who can help us Ed. THe stone will make us normal after we touch it once. We'll be normal again. we'll be human. and I won't have to hide secrets." I said.

"what secrets and I'll help you anyway I can." said Ed.

"just some secrets."

"tell me."

"some secrets are meant to be kept in the shadows Ed."

"some secrets are meant to be shed some light on so they can forget by friends. I'm here for you." said Ed.

I smiled and said "thank's Ed." With that settled I went to sleep peacefully and Ed went back to sleep also.