Okay, this is the rewrite of chapter one. It is VERY dark, the worst is in WARNING such area, where it is rated R, aka why the rating went up. The rest of the story should be PG-13. This is basically all of her past, going up to current time.
Enjoy
Disclaimer: I do NOT own ccs… pout
Chapter dedicated to: Elvirna, Sparkling-Ruby Gem, and B0nz-Ein
The Beginning
Fourteen years ago…
Blackness, slowly going away as it slowly concentrates on…
"Momma!" A little girl cried.
This girl, about age four, had black hair, sometimes purplish, no one really knew why, that was about to her shoulders. She had lavender eyes, and was one of the most behaved children in the neighborhood. All the parents were jealous since all their kids only whined and whined…. Then again, this WAS the upper neighborhood, where every kid had basically all the money in the world… Back to the story.
"Momma! Where are you?" As the girl ran through the crowd looking for her, slightly scared.
She ran and ran, wondering where her mom was. She was getting quite scared and ran into a little girl about her age.
"Owie!" she other girl cried.
This girl had auburn hair, and the most dazzling colored green eyes that you couldn't really give it a name… and yet, she didn't belong in this neighborhood.
"Sowwy!" She said
"It's okie! What's your name?" The auburn asked
"Tomoyo!" Yours?"
"Sakura! What are you doing alone?"
"I lost my momma…" as her eyes slowly got tears in them.
"Aw, it's okie! Come with me! My daddy can help!" she said, starting to run towards her dad.
Tomoyo followed, panting since she was a little out of shape, also because was a frail child.
"Sakura! Who's this?" the dad asked
"Tomoyo! She lost her mommy!" Sakura replied, saying it as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"Tomoyo, what's your mommy's name?"
"Sonomi!" She said, happily
"Oh! So you're her daughter! I haven't seen you since you were little…"
Mindless chatter goes on, after awhile Sonomi picks her up, and things go fine as things fade out…
Kindergarten
"Momma! Please don't' make me go!" a teary eyed Tomoyo sobbed.
"Honey… you'll be fine. And you'll see Sakura there!" Sonomi told the distressed child, while comforting her.
"Saku?"
"Yes, now go on"
"Okie! Bai-bai mommy!" Tomoyo said happily as she ran in, wanting to see Sakura, her only friend.
Fade out…
Things went well through kindergarten to fifth grade, I became popular, but everyone was… there was no such thing as peer pressure until…
Fade in to Tomoeda Middle School
Tomoyo walked into the school, not scared, but maybe that was her mistake…
"Move it, Sixth Grader!" Yelled a blonde, who was in eighth grade and was in the stage I have a big ego since I'm the big dog.
Tomoyo fell, devastated about why a girl would do such a thing… little did she know, this was nothing compared to later.
Fade out of sixth grade, fade into eighth grade
"Sakura!" Tomoyo cried happily.
"Tomoyo! Did you know our gang from elementary school will be with us next year?" Sakura said, almost jumping up and down.
"Li and Hiiragizawa too?" They just disappeared after fifth grade.
"Hai!" Said Sakura, with a day dreamy expression.
"You still like him don't you…?"
"HOE?" Sakura screamed on top of her lungs, blushing like a tomato…. As everyone stared… and of course…
Dun dun dun….
Sweat dropped.
Sigh… I knew then… that I would never get her… and I was foolish enough to…
"Sakura…?" Tomoyo asked
"Hai?"
"Um… I…" She stuttered
"What Tomoyo?" Sakura asked, innocently.
"I like you!" Tomoyo said, trying not to scream it, blushing even worse then Sakura did earlier.
"I like you too!" Sakura said, happy like.
"Sakura… I mean…." Tomoyo tried explaining
"HOE?" She screamed again, understanding
"I'm sorry Tomoyo… I don't like you that way…" She said, and everyone in the hall heard… laughing at Tomoyo…
I remember that pain all so well… everyone heard… and laughed. She didn't even seem to care… she just smirked… later on she got over it… that night I wanted to die but… I loved her… I said to myself, before I die, I will die knowing she's happy and will be taken care of…but who will do that? Of course. Li-san. Who else? So…
Fade out of eighth grade…
Fade in freshman year, Tomoeda High School.
"HOEEEEE!" was heard all through the school as Sakura screamed, as Naoko put a ghost picture behind her…
"But… this is the picture of my new book!" she said as everyone fell down anime style.
Everything was normal… everyone was happy except me… I had a fake mask on, I knew li would appear soon… then I would partner up with Hiiragizawa again, get them together… maybe make friends with him… Then I will have no purpose…
About thirty minutes later
"SYAORAN!" Sakura screamed when she was him, glomping him, and cutting off all circulation.
"Sa…ku...ra…I…need…to…breathe..." He struggled to get out
"HOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" she screamed, again, letting go.
"Nice to see you too Sakura" He said, with his famous smile, that made all the girls swoon in China.
"Hello Sakura-Chan" A teenager said who had dark blue hair and his spectacles on.
"Eriol-kun!" She said as she hugged him, not cutting off his circulation.
I thought at that time how happy they were… more like how happy she was… did she even care about me? Of course, I forgot HE could read minds and he gave me a look… which made me think… shit! Exactly that. Shit. Shit shit shit shit. He ignored me other then planning to get them together… and then that faithful night…
(AUTHORS NOTE! This part is written in Tomoyo's POV. I will mark when it ends)
Sakura and Li were walking on the date they made their selves without our help in Penguin park when all the sudden… I could sense the one thing I never wanted to see, but I was video taping it… just for what? To torture myself later with? Then…
"Sakura… I need to ask you something…" He asked nervously
"Hoe?" What else did you expect?
"Sakura…um… wouldyoubemygirlfriend?" he said quickly.
"Eh? I couldn't understand!" she sweat dropped.
"Um… Sakura… I really really like you and um…would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" He said, blushing like a tomato.
"I like you too! Of course I will!" She smiled… a smile I never saw… a smile I never gave her…the smile that made my heart crushed as a tear escaped my eye.
"Yes, it is touching they're going out now isn't it? Our job is now complete."
"Indeed Hiiragizawa." As I ended the tape… and I remembered what I thought of last year… making sure he couldn't read my mind.
"See you tomorrow Hiiragizawa."
"Bye Daidouji."
I forgot about suicide on the way home, too sad and I walked in to my house and…
"Mom! I'm home!" I yelled
"NO! TOMOYO!" She was cut off as she screamed a blood curling one. I went up the stairs; a huge mistake on my part… as this hooded figure grabbed me from behind, throwing me onto the ground, tying my hands together.
He dragged me into my mom's room… which was completely ruined. The whole house was… my mom was tied onto the bed, gagged, with tears coming out, her eyes SCREAMING No! Tomoyo! You can't be here!
WARNINGWARNINGWARNINGWARNING
R rated stuff comes up here!
I was tied to a chair, being forced to watch whatever was about to happen as…
"See this kid? Here's your mom… can you guess what will happen?"
"Are you going to kill her?"
"Not yet. Even better…" both guys dropped their pants... and boxers… I thought no! This can't happen!
They tore her clothes off, and one of them stuck their cocks into her mouth… while saying "SUCK IT! Oh yes... harder! Use your tongue bitch!" making her gives the guy a fucking BLOWJOB! The pervert… the other guy waited then… he stuck his cock… into her… she screamed, you could hear it even though a cock was in her mouth…she didn't want it… and I was screaming too, but they just made it worse, enjoying our screams… All I could think is NO! You can't do this to her! She's my mom! No! This can't be happening…
It only got worse. After the guy getting a blowjob got off, he got hard instantly somehow and then after the guy raping her finished, they waited a couple minutes, then they raped her both, her pussy then… her ass… I remember the screams she made, begging me not to watch, but I had to… I remember perfectly their thrusts, her screams… all the cum… their nasty CUM in my mom… then they took out daggers, slowly making details all over her body, then they slashed her wrists so deeply right away deep dark red, almost black, blood came out and did the same to her neck… she did her best not to… and she said "To-mo-yo… I love you… never forget that…" then she died, which I guess I was glad for. I mean… at least she wasn't in pain anymore, right? She was going to heaven… to be free from these types of men… to be with her lovely Nadeshiko, where they could watch us from the heavens…
I thought they were done… but I was wrong… they brought me to their house, that smelt of blood all over the place… there were blood stains on the walls, everywhere.
They chained me onto the wall…as they played with me, then one quickly thrusted into me… breaking my last of innocence… then the other into my ass… it kept happening on and on… it felt like eternity. After awhile, they just cut me up some, leaving some scars so I could remember… drove me back threw me into my house, left, laughing…
I lost all of my innocence that one night… I mourned over my mom, my lack of innocence… my lost love… then I thought. What's the point of living? No reason came to mind… So I slowly climbed up the stairs, into the bathroom, I took a bottle of sleeping pills, and slashed my wrists enough so I'd fall out cold from blood loss… which the darkness came quickly.
I was in peaceful darkness… nothing to hurt me… just this beautiful darkness comforting me, saying to never leave… I don't wanna leave I said… I love you… it said I love you too... stay here and you'll never be hurt again… I said okay.
So I was in the darkness, when all the sudden this blinding light interrupts it, I was so mad but then I heard a voice…
"Tomoyo…" the voice said…
It sounded like… it couldn't' be… momma?
Yes Tomoyo… its me.
How can I hear you? I wanna see you mommy…
You're close to death honey… you can't see me because you're not dead, but you're closed into your mind which is the darkness…
Mommy… I miss you.
I miss you too…
Why did they come?
Your dad.
What about him?
He pissed off that company… and they found out he died, and took it out on us…
Momma… they did the same to me…
I know… I watched… I mourn for it…
Mommy… Sakura doesn't love me.
She loves you.
Not how I want…
Oh honey…
I felt a hug… my moms' hug… I could feel her perfectly, and I felt her wings…
Mommy you're an angel?
Hai…
Mommy, can I become one too?
No honey… I was sent to help you through this part…
But mommy…
It isn't your time to die yet Tomoyo…
I don't wanna leave you!
I don't want to leave you either… but you have to understand…
I felt her petting my hair and I started crying, clinging to her.
Its okay honey… you'll live…
I'm scared…
It's okay to be…
Momma, if I pray every night, will you visit me?
I'll visit you in your dreams when I'm allowed.
Will you watch over me?
Yes.
Are you my guardian angel?
No. You have your own there.
What are you then?
I am your other one. Until you die, I will be a protector of sorts. Your guardian angel can come with you on earth, but only you will see her. You will see me in your dreams, maybe even her, but you will always see me when you're close to death and it isn't your time… if it is your time, you will have an angel bring you to me.
Momma, when I die, and it's my time, will I be able to see you?
Yes.
Mommy… can we be together forever then?
Yes
Tell aunty I said hi and I love her…
I will…
Mom?
Yes?
I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry…
Mommy?
Yes?
I love you too... I never got to say it… and just incase… I love you so much mommy… I love you…
Tomoyo… I love you so much… which is why you must live. You can take care of yourself, you will have no guardian. Your body guards will take care of you…
I have to go back now, don't I?
Yes.
I love you mommy... please hold me until I have to return…
I love you too… Take care honey...
I felt her hold me, and then this blinding light happened and I felt pain all over…
WARNINGWARNINGWARNINGOVER
(This is still in her POV)
Ugh… this hurts like a bitch!
"She's breathing now!"
"A miracle!"
"Tomoyo… wake up."
Right then my eyes opened and I saw the horrible hospital room, fucking bright for that matter.
"Ow…"
"Tomoyo… what happened?" a doctor asked.
"They raped her… killed her… raped me… sleeping pill…cut…"
"We figured the last part out… they are now arrested…"
"Why did you bring me back?"
"HUH?"
"Why?"
They never answered that. Never. Every night I've seen my mom when she isn't too busy in the heavens, she comforts me and stuff. Sakura and them came, acting all sad. Hiiragizawa also did. He didn't act though. He had true sadness… I wondered. Is THIS my reason to live?
It is now my senior year, I haven't dated one bastard for my lack of trust. I control the companies mom left behind well even if I have school. Sakura is still going out with Li… but something happened recently. I… fell in love again…
Two days ago
Eriol, yes, Eriol, and I were walking together in the park and I was…
"Eriol?"
"Yes?"
"Um… I like you more then a friend and –"
"Don't continue, I don't like you like that… I love Kaho."
"But…"
"Leave me please…"
I was so devastated, again! And no guardian angel…no mom… no comfort. This time, I bought two bottles of sleeping pills, and went home, I downed it all, slashed my wrists so bad like for my mom, and did for the same for my throat. But then I heard a voice 'it isn't your time child… but you will have your peace.'
Peace? Then I realized the blackness… and mommy! I was so happy! But this time it was different… I could see mommy…
Mom? Why can I see you?
Because, I asked permission to stay in your mind as long your like this.
So I can see you?
Correct…
Ever since I've been talking to her… now I have to get back talking to her… if I'm lucky I wont' ever have to go back!
End of Chapter
13 pages. Lmao. If you get confused about the ending, it means she's basically in a coma, not wanting out. If your confused any, let me know and I'll clarify it.
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