Chapter 5 up!
Thanks for the reviews on the last chapters!
And...sooo sorry for the...uhm...total lack of updates for the past three weeks, first i was sick and then I went away for my winterbreak and i just never got to it, promis to get at least 2 maybe thrre chapters up for the next 2 weeks, before i leave again!
Chapter 5
Rain was pouring down, darkness clouded the single truck driving on the wet road. Lois sitting close, leaning on his shoulder, wearing his plaid shirt, since her own had broke in the midst of passion. Thoughts were running through her head, thoughts of confusion, of fear and of……she didn't know, she didn't know what she felt, she'd never done this before, not like that and certainly not with Clark Kent.
Could she be falling for Clark? Oh wait, she'd obviously already fallen for him….otherwise she wouldn't have done what she did only a little while ago, right?
So the question wasn't really if she'd fallen for him, but how she'd fallen for him, was it just a mutual sexual attraction or was it something more, maybe she was falling in lo...she couldn't even think it! That's just great! She was so confused right now...all she knew was that this was really not...right...however it felt right this moment...it was wrong
She leaned closer, closing her eyes, sighing slightly thinking she'd might as well anjoy the few minutes left of the drive back to the Kent farm, before she had to blow him off...she didn't want to... she really didn't, she wanted to make love to Clark Kent like she'd done in the car, over and over again and then fall asleep in his strong arms, never wanting him to let go...
Like that's gonna work out!
She wa not the relationship type, she was the...non-relationship type.
Right Lo that's a great excuse, she thought
She'd have to deal with her mistake sooner or later...God it felt wrong to call it mistake...truth to be told, it was the best thing she'd ever done, so why couldn't she just enjoy it?
They hadn't spoken a word since she'd demanded him to stop the car, he supposed actions spoke louder than words. He still had a hard time beliving what had just happend. Had he really had sex with Lois Lane in the front seat of his dads truck?
He wasn't sure anymore, everything was kind of hazy, all he knew was that Lois had practically jumped him once he's stopped the car...and he's loved it, he'd loved the feel of his skin against hers her desperate kisses and the was she'd looked into his eyes afterwards. He loved the way she was now leaning up against his shoulder on the verge of falling asleep, he loved the way she looked in his blue plaid shirt, it was about 5 sizes to big for her slim, tender figure, but God she looked beautiful, so peaceful and sweet.
He had never in a million years thought he'd think like this of the main annoyance and disturbance in his life. The girl that practically came crashing down in to Smallville a few years ago (not like him who had literally done that), in search for the truth about her "dead" cousin, the girl who never seemd to leave his house until just a about six months ago, the girl who just a while ago had taken him by storm and completely blown his mind away...
He had in the last hour fallen head over heals for the girl next to him in the truck. He shot her a look, she was asleep, at least he thought she was, maybe she was just resting, her face was peaceful, her eyes twitching a little, maybe she was dreaming, pleasant dreams he hoped...
He suddenly felt such an urge to protect her, she seemed so innocent and fragile as she clung closer to him. He pulled his arm around her, never wanting to let her go, he knew he'd have to eventually as they were cloing in on the farm...she'd been staying there for the last few weeks as her apartment above the Talon had gotten waterdamages, he didn't mind though, the occasional quarrels and the screaming and fighting was something he actually enjoyed, maybe this could be something good.
He had to stop his line of thoughts as he pulled up on the driveway outside the house.
-Lois, he said softly
-Hm, she said drowzily
- We're home, you need to wake up.
He gently stroke her cheek, as she opened her eyes.
-Oh...right, she said still sleepy pulling herself away from his shoulder opening the truckdoor slowly getting out.
She had to this now, if she didn't it would just make it harder later on.
-Clark, she said quietly
- Yeah, he looked at her.
God, why did he have to look at her like that, like he was...in love or something…….she averted her eyes, not wanting to look at him, as she let him down….
-I….., she couldn't find the words
-What, he asked walking towards her with a concerned look on his face, she looked so scared he just wanted to hold her.
She turned away.
-Lois, you okay?
He walked up to her putting a hand gently on her shoulder, restraining himself as he wanted to take her in his arms and never let go. But she moved away, wrapping her arms around herself looking at him.
-I…I can't do this………we can't……..let's just….not do this okay…….
-Lois what are you saying?
-As nice as it was…….it can't happen again….
She stared to walk away, but he wouldn't let her, he quickly grabbed her arm making her stop.
-You can't do this, not after what we did, not after that, you can't just walk away like this and pretend it didn't happen…
- Watch me, she said in a low voice as she tried to get her arm back
- No! you're not doing this Lois….I know that that ment something to you cause it did to me!
- It was sex, Smallville for Gods sake! Get over it!
He was hurt, she could se it, she didn't like it, in fact she just wanted to run over there and kiss him, hold him and tell him that she'd just ad the best night of her life and she never wanted it to end, but she didn't, she just walked away, into the empty house, Clarks parent were gone for the week.
-Lois, he yelled after her
She didn't answer, she just wanted to get as far away from him as possible right now, as soon as she got inside she ran up the stairs and into the bathroom. She turned the water on and sat down on the shower floor letting the warm water pour over her, mixing with the tears falling down her face.
-I'm sorry, she whispered
TBC, tell me what you think1
Update sometime next week!