Harry didn't have any night mares that night, even though that Sirius' didn't sleep at all. He didn't know why but he still didn't feel safe with leaving Harry unprotected with out some one there he trusted awake over him. Sirius didn't know when he was going to be able to get the sleep he lost watching over his god son, but he would find a way. He wasn't going to let any one hurt his little boy.
At six in the morning when Sirius' eyes started to drupe the door of the hospital wing opened quietly. Sirius stayed in his position of fake sleeping on the side of Harry's bed. Sliding his hand un noticeable into his robes grasping his wand ready to act. The intruder stopped by the bed side and brushed a few locks away from Sirius' eyes, Sirius' with all his might didn't move.
"I'm sorry Padfoot. When can you forgive me?" Sirius recognized the speaker as Remus. Deciding his old friend could do with a nice shock Sirius jumped up instantly.
"It'll take a damn long while." Sirius growled out taking a little pleasure of the startled look on Remus' face. "Get out. I told you already you aren't welcomed here. Defiantly when Harry is asleep."
Remus held up his hands, "Sirius we need to talk about this-"
Sirius shook his head. "We did that earlier today remember." Remus sighed ignoring the murderous looks coming from Sirius whom he considered to be his last friend.
"I'm sorry." Remus said quietly reaching forward to brush strands of hair away from Harry's angelic face. He was stopped by Sirius grabbing his wrists pulling it roughly away from Harry.
"Don't touch him." Sirius threatened; "He doesn't like you. He can sense your darkness. Now leave before we're both going to regret that you ever came in here."
Remus glared at his friend, for a second time that day he felt his anger rise. "Sirius' you are so stubborn! Why can't you just forgive-" He was once again interrupted by Sirius.
"Forgive you for leaving me in that hell hole? You knew me." He raved. "You knew how close I was to James and Lilly. Yet you still believed the ministry. What ever happened to the smart Remus? The Remus who would find all the answers then make his judgment?" He questioned. "What ever happened to the friend that I grew up with? I wouldn't have turned my back on you like you did me. Never would I do that. You betrayed me Remus. I thought for sure when they took me in you would come and help me out." Remus looked a little shocked to hear that. "Yes that's right I hoped that you would see through there lies. Yet you didn't. You let them take me away telling me that you hated me. That you wished that I had died. That you would rather be burned alive than betray your friends. That you would see me dead before I was let out of Prison. You left me in that, that PLACE to rot, you never wanted to see me again. The worst thing about it was that I only knew the truth, no one else did and you didn't even try and find it.
Remus' face paled. He had completely forgotten that he had said all of those hateful words. "Sirius†I was consumed by grief†three of my friends were killed in a matter of days of each other. You were the only one†and then the finger†The ministry saying all these things about you†what did you expect me to think?"
Sirius threw his hands up, "Well I expected you to try and find the true answers not the bull shit that the ministry was force feeding you."
Sirius felt his anger reach his peek when Harry whimpered from the bed. His body twitching, he tried to curl up into a little ball but it seemed as if something was stopping him. Remus was about to try and wake the little boy when once again Sirius stopped him shaking him madly. Sirius pushed Remus away and sat back down next to the bed resting his fore head on Harry's.
"Don't touch either of us." Sirius ordered.
Um†inside Harry's head
Sirius once again found himself in Harry's mind following the events that Harry was reliving.
"Harry?" Sirius asked the little boy who was trying to claw his way out of the basement where he was locked in with another fat boy.
"Potter? I have another little treat for you" The blond boy, who Sirius recognized as Harry's cousin Dudley. They looked about 6 years old. Dudley held up a jar filled with centipedes. Harry whimpered from the top of the stairs as Dudley put down the jar, and advanced on him. Dudley waddled up the stairs and clutched the littler boys shirt dragged him back down the stairs. "Now" Dudley began shoving Harry to the floor. "My favorite ring is in there." He pointed at the jar with all of the centipedes in it. "I want you to get it out."
Harry shook his head. "Wwhy ddon't you jjust dump iit out?" Harry stuttered madly as Dudley agonizingly slowly unscrewed the lid.
"Because Mummy would have a fit if she knew I let them out any where near our property." Dudley relished the fear in his cousins eyes as he finally unscrewed the lid of the jar and put it down on the floor.
Sirius shook his head madly trying to find his godson. "Harry? You don't have to relive this! Where are you?" Sirius called out dreading what the scene was going to show him next. Yet Sirius couldn't take his eyes away from the sight before him, the level of cruelness the Dursley's put Harry through amazed him beyond belief.
Dudley handed the jar to Harry who was trembling so bad that he almost dropped it. "Well what are you waiting for? Get it out." Harry had tears already forming in his eyes as he slid his hand into the jar. He bit his lip as the centipedes stung his little hand.
By the time that Harry finally pulled the ring out his whole right hand was covered in bite marks, and it had already started to swell. Dudley smiled and took the ring laughing as Harry hurriedly screwed the top back on the jar. Then nursing his hand looked up fearfully at his cousin.
"C..can..can†iâ€i†go backâ€to mmmy cupboard?" Harry asked pleadingly. Dudley nodded his head as he walked up the stairs first farting in Harry's face who was following him up.
End Harry's mind thing
Sirius suddenly found himself at the opposite end of the hospital wing with Harry nowhere in site. "Pronglet?" Sirius called standing shakily to his feet. Remus was nowhere to be found. Sirius looked quickly around the room before spotting Harry in the middle of the floor nursing his right hand to his chest, his body shaking in silent tears. "Harry†my poor baby" Sirius murmured scooping the quivering boy into his arms. "God Harry†Oh my god." Sirius felt tears come to his eyes at the things that Harry had to go through. "My poor baby" Sirius rocked the crying little boy in his arms.
"It's okay now†It's going to be okay now." Sirius said stroking Harry's jet black hair only to see it poof right back up, just like his father's hair Sirius mused shedding a new tear for his best friends death. The little boy started hiccupping. "It's okay now." Sirius repeated. "There never going to hurt you again." He soothed. "You're safe now."
"Padfoot" Harry clutched Sirius' robes in his fists holding his godfather close. "Why won't they leave me alone?" He cried into Sirius' shirt.
"I don't know Pronglet. I don't know. You're a good kid. Remember that okay? You're a good kid."
One of Sirius' tears splashed down onto Harry's cheek. He looked up suddenly ceasing his crying immediately. "Padfoot†you're cwying" Harry said reaching up and wiping tears away from Sirius' face.
"I'm so sorry Harry." Sirius said quietly Harry was utterly confused. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you." He cried hugging Harry close to him. At first Harry didn't know how to react, but he slowly wrapped his arms around Sirius' chest, the closes part of the body that he could reach and hug.
"You were there when I needed you Padfoot. You came when I finally called for you." Harry said quietly with such knowing voice that it frightened Sirius slightly. 'I always hoped for some one to come get me, and then I finally called for you and you came.' Harry said into Sirius' head finding it easier to talk like that. "I love you Sirius."
Sirius chocked on his sobs feeling nothing but undiluted love flooding into him from Harry. He was still sure that on certain levels that Harry was still frightened of him, but at this moment he did know that Harry was finally slightly opening up to him. This was a big leap for the little boy. For him to finally confess that he loved some one.
"I love you to Harry." Returning the warmth that he was feeling back to Harry. He felt the boy shiver at the power of love that Sirius sent at him. It felt like something from a dream that he had once had. That his mother was giving him the same thing, making all him feel all better. Now he felt it in real life not a dream.