A/N: I know this is a modern song but it seems to fit this story, don't ya think. Let me know how y'all think.
Disclaimer: Own nothin' and the song is "What Hurts the Most" by Rascall Flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
He was alone. He had tried to stop him but the kid wouldn't listen. He'd gone off and joined. Yeah Vietnam was over but he had a feeling another war was going to come or something. He was almost positive the kid would be a writer or professor or something with his brains and how he had always had his nose in a book. It was one thing when the Army had come by the house telling him and Pony that their brother Sodapop was dead. It had almost killed him. Then he was afraid to cry in front of Ponyboy but now he's gone, yeah he was still alive, but he was gone now and he hadn't been drafted like Soda he had gone volunteered.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken
Steve stopped by once and a while to say 'hey' but it wasn't like it used to be and Two-Bit well he was actually off in college and would only come back once in a blue moon. It was thought that they blamed it somewhat on him the reason Ponyboy signed up.He and Pony had gotten into an arguement over Soda actually and that night Ponyboy had said something about being old enough to join and that he would the next day and he hadn't quite believed him and he regretted that. He should have taken Ponyboy more seriously.
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
not seein that lovin you
that's what I was tryin to do…
Ponyboy never had really seen how much he had loved him. 'I probably was too hard on him. Always knew I should've lightened up, but I just wanted to do what was best for him. Wasn't like I'd been left a how ta take care of your youngest brother manual.' he thought to himself as he layed on the couch just listening to rain fall down.
El Fine(Finish)