A/N: Suddenly feeling a little generous today...

"I talked to Adam today."

"About me?" Oliver had been quiet all evening. He had played in the backyard with Daisy, which made his sister happy as he just let her do what she wanted. Kim knew he was stewing over things, and why wouldn't he be? He had always been a bit of an over thinker, that he got from her. Thankfully he didn't get her impulsiveness though. He just thought about things, stewed over them and then buried them.

"Yes about you." Kim had asked him to come sit with her once Daisy was asleep. She slipped an arm around his shoulder and kissed the top of his head as she pulled him in closer. Sometimes he fought it, being cuddled by his mother but his whole world had been turned upside down and he was scared. His mother's arms felt safe. "I know this is all confusing for you and scary but Ollie please don't think you can't ask me anything, anything at all. I want to know how you feel about all this. What do you want to know?"

"Is he really my Dad?"

"He is."

"Was he happy?"

"Yes he is. He is confused like you and he is sad that he missed out on your whole life. Adam never would have left on that job if he'd known about you. He wants to get to know you. Yes Ollie, he is happy." Kim didn't want Oliver to have any doubts about that. "He's really happy."

"What do I call him?"

"How about we start with Adam, hey?" He snuggled tighter into his mother's arms. "There is no rush. Take as much time as you want. We do this at your pace, okay?"

"Is he angry at you? Like Dad is angry at you and me?" It saddened Kim that Oliver was concerned about all the anger that surrounded them. She wanted to keep this from him, all the tension and anger between her and her husband but Oliver's questions obviously meant that she had failed.

"No, he's not. He's upset at the people who took him away from us for so long but he is not angry at you or me." He had seen enough of people's anger lately so Kim chose her words carefully. Adam was angry at the whole situation she knew that, not that he talked about it much yet but especially now the stakes had been raised way higher. Ollie didn't need to see that.

He was silent for a while, mulling it over in his mind. It was all he had thought about all day, even getting in trouble from the teacher for not paying attention. Luckily she had cut him some slack though because his teacher knew the last few months had been rough at home and promised not to tell his mother this time. "Do you think he would like to come to my game on Saturday?"

"Do you want me to ask him? I can ask him if that's what you really want, but remember Ollie there is no rush. He's not going anywhere." Kim wasn't sure that it needed to happen quite this quickly, although Adam was. As she suspected he was jumping in with both feet, before he left he told Kim he wanted to meet him properly and soon, he didn't want to wait and so it seemed either did Oliver. She also needed to sit down with her husband and break the news to him. That was a conversation she was not looking forward to.

He nodded his head. "Can you?" Kim promised to call him later. Ollie would have liked her to call him right away but Kim was worried that she would have to talk him into it. What if he said No and Ollie heard it? She couldn't do that to her son although she was fairly certain Adam wouldn't take any convincing at all.

Ollie looked at her expectantly first thing the next morning. "What did he say?"

"He said he is looking forward to seeing you on Saturday." For the first time in weeks she saw a smile on her son's face. This was all happening way faster than she hoped and all she could do was pray that everything went the way that he wanted it to. She had to have faith in Adam.

Adam had been ecstatic; she could hear it in his voice when she called him. Kim had barely got her question out before Adam answered. "Yes." He did not even hesitate. He had a job interview lined up but he would cancel. There was no way he was bailing on his son. If he wanted to have any sort of a relationship with him he needed to take every single opportunity that came his way. He'd missed enough already.

"What did who say?" Daisy piped up as she wandered in and caught the end of the conversation. "Daddy?"

"No Darling, just a friend of Mommy and Uncle Al's" she ruffled her daughter's hair as she leant on her legs like she did most mornings until she woke up properly.

The conversation with her husband did not go quite so smoothly. He had been surprised when she sent him a message asking to meet and talk over lunch. There was always the hope that she was going to change her mind although that had certainly started to wane over the past couple of weeks and she was pushing him further and further away.

"Is Daisy ready for the weekend?"

"She is, I packed her bag and left it with her at school. What have you got planned?" Kim was determined to keep things civil between them for Daisy's sake. Ollie would pull further away from him than he already had knowing that he didn't have to pretend anymore. He had already asked if he still had to call him 'Dad'. Kim had no idea how to answer that. It was far too early to be having these conversations. She had told Ollie just to do what he felt was right and reminded him that Daisy didn't know about Adam yet. They decided to leave things how they were for now.

"The zoo tomorrow, she keeps nagging me about it."

"She does love those animals."

Kim could see his hand creeping closer to hers and she pulled it away and grabbed her coffee cup with both hands. "Why don't you come?"

"I've got Ollie's game tomorrow morning." Kim nervously took a mouthful of coffee, which was a little too hot and she spluttered a little. "Speaking of Ollie."

"What now?" He didn't want to talk about her son again. That had been done to death.

"A couple of weeks ago I found out that his father was alive. He's back in Chicago."

"So that's what this is about?" The look he gave her made her shift a little uncomfortably in her seat. She had chosen a public place to have this conversation hoping to keep it under control. Their arguments at home had the tendency to get a little out of control. Not that he had ever been violent or aggressive towards her but some pretty nasty words could be thrown around. Being in public would hopefully negate that.

"What?"

"You're stubbornness about this separation. Are you fucking him?"

Kim wasn't at all surprised by his accusation and that was disappointing. It was sad that her husband thought that she was capable of that; he'd always had a small jealous streak. It had reared its ugly head when she had to go undercover with Jay as her husband a few months ago and it wasn't helpful. "Well thank you for your faith in me. I can tell you one thing for nothing, fucking anyone, as you so eloquently put it is the last thing on my mind right now."

"So the sperm donor lives and now let me guess, he wants to suddenly be a father. I didn't think you were quite so gullible."

"Gullible?"

"You really think he is suddenly back from the dead? Seems a little suss to me."

"Think what you want, I am telling you the truth. I had no idea he was still alive."

"Doesn't surprise me that you are running back to him, he was always some untouchable god like figure."

"How dare you? How dare you?" Kim screwed up her napkin and threw it on her plate and hissed. "You have no idea how hard this has been for me. I thought he was dead, for nine years I thought Oliver's father was dead and the out of the blue I find out he's not."

"Does Oliver know?"

"Yes he does, he dropped into see Al a couple of days ago and he met him. I had to tell him, he's a smart kid. He figured it out." Kim laid her hands flat on the table. "I didn't want either of them to find out like that. Adam had no idea either until then."

"You didn't think to call me, don't you think I had a right to an opinion?"

"I told you it wasn't supposed to happen yet. And I am telling you now."

"Yes, you are telling me. Not asking me what I think, not asking my opinion but you probably don't care what I think, you never did concerning Oliver." God he needed a drink. If she was going to continue down this path, what the hell was he trying to stay on the straight and narrow for? "I don't want him anywhere near my daughter."

"This has nothing to do with Daisy." Kim countered instantly. "She does not know anything."

"This is all some fucking joke right? Suddenly I am supposed to believe that your ex is back from the dead and it has nothing to do with the fact that you want to end our marriage."

"You ended our marriage when you abused Oliver."

"Once, and I apologised. How many times do I have to say it? Huh? I raised him, I fed him and clothed him and I treated him like he was my own, but that was never good enough for him or you. Where was he?" He slammed his fist into the table. "God damn it Kim." Now they had the attention of the whole café, she felt every set on eyes on them and she looked around nervously.

Kim lowered her voice, trying to take the sting out of the conversation in the vain hope that the rest of the patrons would go back to their own business. "I swear to you, I had no idea that Adam was alive until a few weeks ago. That is the god honest truth."

"I want to meet him."

"Can I ask why?" Kim didn't understand why but she knew that he could make things even more difficult for her. Not only was she trying to protect Oliver and navigate the fact his real father was suddenly back and what that meant for Oliver and for her, she was also tyring to protect her daughter.

"You've got no idea who this guy is, he's been gone what nearly ten years? People change. Are you sure he is really who he says he is?" His voice had suddenly softened. The way he swung from one extreme emotion to another did little to ease Kim's concerns. "Despite what you think, I do care about Oliver."

"Trust me, don't you think we looked into it and I think I would know the father of my child."

"I guess you never forget a dick hey?" That smirk got her hackles up.

Kim snatched the bill off the table and then threw down some money; she wanted to slap him so fucking hard it wasn't funny. "I will see you Sunday night, have a good weekend with Daisy. I will call her tomorrow."

"Do you think he will still come?" Oliver had asked her nervously as they got in the car the next morning. He had been up since the crack of dawn; Kim could hear him moving around the house. The only day he got a wriggle on was game day, his energy was boundless when it came to Baseball, he loved it but she also knew that he was nervous about Adam coming to his game. He had been let down too many times to count by Steve not turning up when he said he would.

Long after Steve had turned his back on Oliver he still looked for him at games and still got a small skip in his step when he said he would come. He never did but Oliver was desperate for Steve to throw him a bone and kept trying until he just couldn't anymore, it had taken two years but Steve had broken her son. Kim was dreading what would happen if Adam did the same, it would break her son's heart and it would break hers.

"He will. He just sent me a message, checking the time and the place. For the fourth time." Kim chuckled. Adam was a bundle of nervous energy as well. Oliver couldn't help but watch the stands during warm up and kept one eye on his mother until he saw him arrive. He couldn't really remember what he looked like and especially from a distance but when he sat down beside his mother, he knew.

"Hey." Adam slipped into the seat beside her on the bleachers and handed her a cup of coffee. He'd taken a punt and grabbed her one on the way, he needed one himself to steady himself and it seemed that old habits did die hard. He always was picking her up a coffee back in those days; she had a serious addiction to the stuff. "I'm not late am I?"

"No, not at all. They are just warming up." She pointed Oliver out to him. "He loves first base. I should have told you." flicking the peak of his cubs hat. "He's a White Sox fan."

"Atwater?" Adam shook his head. "Bloody Atwater and his Sox obsession."

"Are you okay with this?"

"What?" He nudged her with his shoulder. "Watching my son play Baseball? Or sitting here with you?"

Kim ignored the flirting, that was the Adam she remembered and surprisingly she really liked it. It had been a long time since someone had made her feel good about herself, she would only get a compliment when her husband wanted sex and that hadn't happened for quite a while. "That Ollie wants this. He wants to know you." She reassured him.

"I want to know him too. He's my son Kim. I feel like I've let him down."

"Adam you didn't let him down. Not turning up today would have been letting him down."

"I blew off a job interview this morning." He added a little sheepishly. He was torn between letting her know how happy he was and playing it a little cool. Suddenly he had a reason not to leave, he wanted to stay but without Oliver he wasn't sure he had any reason to hang around.

"Adam, you shouldn't have done that. Ollie would have understood."

"Yes I should have. This is far more important. Kim, this is about my son. No job is going to keep me from that." The words all came out in a rush.

"He appreciates it." Kim squeezed his hand quickly. "Don't be nervous."

"You know I have no idea how to be a Dad?"

"You are off to a good start." He caught Kim smiling from the corner of his eye as she took a mouthful of her coffee. "He knows you're here and I can tell he's pretty jazzed."

"Really?" Adam leant forward and watched him as he jogged back to the dug out ready for the game to start.

"He kept looking up here and then once he saw you arrive he relaxed and got this little bounce in his step. I am not saying it's father of the year kinda stuff but it's good Adam."

"You were worried that I would bail?"

"No." Looking out across the field Kim took a moment just to appreciate the blueness of the sky, the cool breeze on her face and just being here sharing this moment. "This is just happening really fast and I am trying to get my head around it."

"You can say that again. A little more than a month ago I was just hoping to see you one more time to apologise. Now here we are, sitting at a Ball game watching our son play. It's surreal. I keep pinching myself."

"So do I." Adam was surprised when she leant her head on his shoulder for just a moment. He had to steady himself. Being close to her was intoxicating and painful.

Kim probably missed half the game because she was watching Adam. He was transfixed, not only did she know he loved Baseball but it was also because she felt like she was watching him fall in love with his son and that was beautiful to see.

Once the game was over Adam hopped from foot to foot while they waited for Oliver to join them once they had packed their gear up. Adam had wiped his hands on his jeans several times and Kim put a hand on his arm and he jumped a little. "Just relax Adam."

"Hi." Oliver stood close to his mother. She slipped at comforting arm around his shoulders.

"You remember Adam? Right?" Of course he'd remember him, it was his long dead father returning from the grave. There was no forgetting that.

"Good game." Adam shoved his hands in his pockets, unsure what else to do with them. "That win was awesome, you've got to be happy with that."

"They haven't lost a game all season so we really want to beat them."

"But you've only lost two games haven't you? You're Mom told me you were a good team." Oliver beamed at both of them. The fact that Adam seemed to care was all he wanted. "A couple of RBI's too. I'm very impressed." Kim wasn't at all surprised to see Oliver continuing to smile. Steve would have no idea what Oliver had done through the game, if he did turn up he spend most of his time on his phone so the fact that Adam had paid attention was enough for her and judging by the look on her son's face for him too.

"That's my best game, isn't it Mom?" He looked up his mother who nodded.

"I used to grab a burger after a game when I played. Should we do that?" Adam looked at Kim for approval. "All of us."

"Can we?" Again he looked at his Mother.

"Sure."

Lunch was sweet and Adam didn't want it to end. Adam and Oliver talked about the game, the season so far and segue into hockey. Kim just sat back and let them go, they would pull her into their conversation every so often but she was content to watch, it was everything she was hoping it would be. He walked them back to their car and promised to see them again soon.

Driving home she heard her phone beep with a message and without looking she knew it would be from Adam. 'He's a great kid Kim, I'm proud of you. He's lucky he's got you as his mother.'

"Did he like me?" Kim was saddened that Oliver seemed so insecure lately. That was never Oliver; how had she not noticed how much his family life lately had beat him down? She had put a lot on his tiny shoulders and it wasn't fair.

"He really did. We will see him again soon I promise."

Kim rang him later that night. For the last week, since he had been back in Chicago they had long conversations once the kids had gone to bed, this was there routine now. At times Adam found it easier to talk to her when he couldn't see her. He was distracted by his desire for her when they were together. Just as Oliver had been worried if Adam liked him, Adam had the same concerns and Kim reassured him that Oliver was happy and had loved meeting him and had talked about him all the way home and right through dinner.

He would suddenly jump from one conversation to another. "Did you think about not keeping the baby?"

Kim responded instantly, she was getting used to it. He was trying to fit everything in and make sense of it all so when a thought or a question came to mind he asked it. "Not once."

"Really?" he sounded surprised.

"Not even for a second."

"You'd just made it into Intelligence and you were doing well. I know how important that was to you." From the moment he met her that was what she wanted, to be in Intelligence. It was also when he started to worry about the effect Roman was having on her when she suddenly gave up on her dream. That disappointed him, that she would give up on her dream not because it was her choice but because someone convinced her to. He never would have asked her to do that; he would have never let her do that no matter how painful it was to have to work alongside her again.

"My career was, and still is important but being a mother trumps all that."

"But you were pregnant and alone. Pregnant to someone I am not sure you even liked."

Kim hated his insecurities; perhaps that's where Oliver got his from. "Oh I liked him, sure we weren't in a good place but I'd like to think that the love was still there. I know it was on my side. That night, it was wild and we were probably stupid but that was us wasn't it? Young and stupid."

"I took that job because I couldn't just be your friend and I thought or felt that was all you were offering. I wanted you to miss me, I wanted you to love me."

"You got your wish."

"Not just because you were pregnant?"

"No, Adam loving you was never the issue, I had a lot of regrets about us but I never regretted that night or what it bought me. I never regretted having Oliver."

"I'm glad." Adam smiled, Kim couldn't see it but somehow she knew he was smiling. "Did you know he was a boy?"

"No, I didn't want to find out. I knew it was going to be a rough day so I wanted a surprise, something to look forward to. I always had a feeling it was a boy though."

"Why?"

"I'd convinced myself that you left me with a piece of you to help me through. That you'd created another you to fill the hole in the universe that you'd left. It never did though. Only you could fill that hole."

"Oliver helped though?"

"Oliver saved me." She whispered. "And Adam, he can save you to if you let him."