Heaven.

It was the first thought that popped into his mind when he opened his eyes. Lying next to him, her head tucked into his shoulder, dark hair splayed out over his arm was the one woman who had held his heart for almost thirteen years.

He had dreamt of this moment more times than he could count, sometimes he would wake up content to have dreamt about her and sometimes he would wake up in a cold sweat. The one and only time he woke up with another brunette beside him was like a nightmare. Paul Benson had a type; all his girlfriends had been blond or red haired.

Adam Ruzek had a type too. The woman in his arms was his type and she was here. Finally she was where she needed to be, where he could love her, adore her, laugh with her, touch her and keep her safe. She was in his arms again and he was in heaven.

He liked the weight of her arm across his chest and he brushed a stray strand of hair from her cheek and she stirred just a little. He wanted to wake her but he also wanted to lie here and watch her for a few minutes more, just to make sure it was real. He felt something shift in him, something he couldn't quite put his finger on. He tried to focus on it but eventually just decided to let it go, whatever it was he wasn't scared of it, not anymore.

The memories of the night came flooding back, perfect memories. He'd paid the bill while Kim was literally hopping from foot to foot. As they waited outside for the Uber she had attacked his lips ferociously and it took all his willpower to hold her at bay. Even as he tried to unlock the door she had her hands in his pocket and he dropped the keys. "Hurry up Adam." She had muttered.

Kicking the door shut Adam pushed her up against it, perhaps a little roughly but Kim didn't even blink. She was clawing at his clothes and she ripped the buttons from his shirt as she yanked at it. It didn't take him long to have her dress up around her waist and against the door it was hot and heavy and fast. Kim wrapped one leg around his waist and Adam's fingers were biting in the flesh of her thigh and he loved to watch her eyes widen just a little in anticipation and then glaze over at the initial sensation.

"Gotta love those Gummy Bears." His breath laboured against her neck as he held her steady for a moment and when he lowered her down she stumbled a little and Adam caught her. He would never let her fall, not again.

"Oh God, wow."

"Wow indeed." He pressed his lips against hers, not willing to lose any contact with her just yet. Give him a minute or two and he could have gone for round two. How many times had they had sex today? He'd lost count. "You wrecked my shirt. Not for the first time."

"It was worth it."

"It is always been worth it."

It must have been nearly three am before they finally fell asleep, exhausted and blissfully happy. Now he had watched her for long enough. "Darlin' wake up." His hands were starting to roam all over her body. "Come on Darlin' wake up." Some things had never changed; she slept hard and had never been easy to wake up.

"Adam?" She sat up suddenly, turning to look at him before smiling and lying back down. He chuckled. "I thought I was dreaming again."

"You dreamt about me?"

"Dreamt, lusted, fantasized you name it." Stretching her legs Kim slipped one down in between his two legs and rolled closer into his side. "Some of them were pretty vivid."

"Tell me more." He had started kissing her neck, his hands making sure she was not going anywhere.

"Hmmm, nope. It was just my own little piece of heaven."

"When was the last one?"

"Yesterday morning." He wasn't the only one with roaming hands. "We were in the shower and I've got to say what you did with your mouth…" she went to kiss him but ran her tongue over his lips instead. "..Wow."

Adam dragged her out of bed and into the shower. "Yep, something like that." Kim was barely able to speak when he was done.

"Okay." They were both now almost satisfied, momentarily at least. Adam made them a coffee and bought it back into bed. He had given her a t-shirt to wear and pulled on a shirt and pair of shorts himself. They couldn't have this conversation if they were both naked. That would not get them anywhere in a hurry. "Now, we need to sort this out."

"Our complicated life once we leave this place?"

"Yep that." He took a sip of his coffee, whistling as it burnt his tongue so he set it down. "I love you, I always have and this is what I want more than anything. I know we can make it work."

"So do I."

"But it's not going to be easy, then again we've never been easy."

"Actually we were. It was easy being with you, you know that." That was the thing and probably why it was such a shock to everyone when she called it off, they never really fought. They would have the occasional tiff or argument when they were tired and cranky but they were always pretty happy with each other. Kim's irrational fear and willingness to look for trouble when there wasn't any had ruined a pretty bloody good relationship.

He held up his hand. Adam needed to get this out. "Oliver? He's our priority right?"

"Yes. And Daisy."

"And Daisy." He nodded. "My relationship with Oliver is important and I don't want to ruin it but I am ready for this." He waved his hand between them both. "I couldn't do this if I wasn't sure about being Oliver's Dad."

"You have amazed me with that, with what you are like with Oliver. I love watching you two together. Adam you are a beautiful father to our boy." Kim touched his cheek softly. "You have no idea how happy that makes me."

"I hope so." The way his smile crinkled up the corners of his eyes always told her how happy he was. There was no faking it. "Also, Baby I know I am no walk in the park, I know I have days that are tough and I can see that it scares you. It scares me but I want to fight and I want you to help me. I want you to know that I won't give up and that's because of you and Oliver and Daisy."

While the conversation was heavy they were both happy. Being comfortable enough to honestly talk about the battle they had ahead of them was a huge step forward. Sure they had talked about it several times but it was usually when Adam was at rock bottom and he was trying to explain what was going on in his head at that moment, they never really talked about it when he was feeling good so to talk about it now was monumental. "And I want you to know that I won't let you give up and I won't walk away from you, ever. I've lived a life without you, I won't do it again." The quiet moment they shared, just looking at each other said more than a thousands words could have.

Kim broke the silence. "How upset would you be if we decided not to tell anyone for a while?"

"Not upset at all. I think we should keep it casual." Kim's eyes narrowed and Adam added quickly. "I meant when we are around other people. This is not going to change." He leant forward and left a trail of kisses up her bare thigh. "There is nothing casual about you and me. Trust me."

"Well Erin and Jay are going to know. I mean Erin told me to come here and sleep with you; they took Ollie for the weekend for that exact reason. And she's gonna know just by looking at me."

"By looking at you, what? Do you think you look like you've just spent a whole day in bed having sex?"

Kim rested both her hands on her cheeks, tilted her head to the side and gave him a lopsided grin. "This goofy look."

"Your sex face. I like it." Kim slapped his arm away playfully as he hooked a finger under her chin. "Obviously they know and that might be nice that we don't have to pretend around them."

"Just our kids and my work colleagues and our friends and your parents and my ex- husband."

"Impressive list." He whistled. "That's a lot of sneaking around."

"So…." A small sigh escaped Kim's mouth and she furrowed her brow slightly. "..is it too hard?"

Cheekily pulling on the waistband of his shorts he peered down at himself and declared that it was 'not hard at all'. Kim pushed him lightly and he fell back against the pillows and she crawled over towards him, not wanting to be too far away from him at the moment. "We can do this? A few weeks, that's all."

"So how exactly do we do this?"

"Well, I don't know. Like we have been now. You can still come over and hang out and once the kids go to bed maybe we can be together."

"It sounds a little sleazy?" Adam screwed up his nose.

'Well what do you suggest?"

"I didn't say I didn't like that plan just that it sounds sleazy." He sat up again. "But I will do anything to be with you. And now for the big question, what about Steve?"

Kim sat back on her haunches and the tone of her voice changed. "He doesn't need to know. We barely talk at the moment as long as we keep things normal with Daisy I don't think he'll notice. He's accepted that you are around with Daisy, begrudgingly I will admit but it's none of his business. You know my marriage is over, a long time over right?"

"I do. I wouldn't be here if I didn't. You and I wouldn't be having this conversation."

"I am glad that we are."

"Just one more thing." Adam crept a little closer. "Oliver, I remember the day I first met Ollie, well properly anyway you told me later that night that he saved you and that he could save me too. He did, but so did you. I want you to know that. I love you so much. You and Oliver and Daisy, you are my world."

Kim held his face in her hands, letting her fingers play with the hair on his temples. "We made something beautiful didn't we?"

"We did and this is our time to live this beautiful life with our son and Daisy." This kiss was long and slow and deep. They were no longer in a rush.

Adam finally made it to the Halstead's after dropping Kim off at home. She only had the dress she had on last night and didn't think it was appropriate for a lunch date with her eight-year-old son. "Where's Kim?" Erin asked, a little hopefully when she opened the door.

"At home I guess." He shrugged. "How's Ollie been? I hear he beat your ass yesterday." He teased Halstead and ignoring Erin's frustrated groan.

"What did you do?" Erin was obviously disappointed with him judging by how snippy she sounded.

"Nothing. We talked, sorted out what was best for the kids, that's all."

"And what about what is best for you and Kim?"

"What is best for Oliver and Daisy is what is best for us." Ollie thankfully bounded down the stairs. "Hey Bud. You ready to go? Let's go grab some lunch, okay? You guys want to join us?"

"I swear to God Ruzek, you are fucking useless some times."

"Well thanks for that ringing endorsement." Erin snatched up her phone and stormed from the room and Adam guessed that she was trying to ring Kim. She came back a minute later and threw it on the bench obviously having had no luck in reaching her.

Begrudgingly Erin agreed to come out for lunch. Grace was pretty much besotted with Ollie and would go wherever he went and at least then Erin felt she would have the chance to chew him out some more. She had a long list of things she wanted to point out to this half-wit. He had one job, not to break Kim's heart again and he couldn't even do that properly. Had he learnt nothing? Did he know how much she loved him? Did he know how much he loved her? Perhaps he needed someone to point that out to him again.

Erin punched Adam hard in the chest when Kim rocked up to lunch and she saw the look on both their faces as he reached for her hand. "You sneaky little shit."

"What?" Adam tried to look shocked. "You asked what we talked about and I said we decided to do what was best for Oliver and Daisy. You didn't ask what that was, did you? You just jumped to conclusions."

"You could have elaborated a bit on that?"

"Why? And ruin this moment?" The kids had disappeared to the Play Gym, Oliver somewhat reluctantly but Gracie was nagging him relentlessly and it left the adults alone for a while. Kim slipped her hand into Adam's and smiled shyly when Erin just sat back on folded her arms.

"All that we ask is that we are keeping it low-key for a bit. From everyone, even Ollie. We just want a little bit of space and time." Kim jumped in "So only you two know for now."

"You know you were never good at keeping this a secret the first time round, what makes you think you can do it this time?"

"Good Point." Adam nodded, reaching for his beer and looking at Kim for an answer.

"Yes, well last time was different. People expect us to spend time together because of Oliver so nothing is going to change."

"Except your sex face, that's changed." Adam didn't even look at her when he dropped that gem and Halstead spat out the mouthful of beer he had just taken.

"You sure you want to go down that path? We could always go back to the way things were two days ago?"

"Nah, I'm good." He nodded in the direction of the kids who were heading back towards them; Oliver was holding Gracie's hand. "Look how smooth that boy is, like father, like son."

"That's the closet I am ever letting a Ruzek get to my daughter." Halstead finally chimed into the conversation.

"Ruzek men have many charms, they make the ladies weak at the knees." Without drawing breath he added, "Just ask Kim how many times I just made her buckle at the knees." When Oliver and Grace arrived back at the table Kim dropped his hand. He had timed that perfectly and it gave her no chance to answer.

Erin just clapped her hands, she was so damn happy for them. It was about bloody time. This was always how it was meant to be.