Stained
By MidnightReverie
I had ignored your presence. Acted as if you have never existed for me.
Haphazardly you had seized my wrist to get answers out of me. Afterward I realized more than ever that it made no sense to hide my thoughts from you. You aren't blind, are you? However, I have recoiled more than I hid, by rejecting you, so that my eyes could not see the pain anymore. Now I refuse to say anything. I see you have refused so as well. Now you firmly grasp my wrist. I feel no pain when you do that.
I have wounded myself, because both of you started to suffer. Why have I made him do that? Would it not be fairer if I carried his guilt? Now you let go. It hurts so much.
Your eyes shimmer as they look in mine. Astonished. Yes, it is true. He... He had to do it for me. What did you see in the mirror? You stared without any emotion to the inside. Guilt. Shame. Contrition. I am not heartless. Everything doubled. More so than him. You did not hit me. You did not anger. Perhaps too nice? Haven't I lost you in him already...? Has all of our affection resolved into nothing?
The silence includes everything, because now nothing can be said anymore. Have we underestimated each other? I am nor heartless or spotless.
You take two steps backwards, into your room. Eyes widened. Your hand goes from your mouth to the control panel, before I could even say anything.
The door closed.