Untouched Memories

By: Tifa's Cloud

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of its characters, sadly. This story is inspired by an RPG-ing site I participate in as Lord Voldemort.

Summary: A series of events before Voldemort became entirely evil. The things he did not know and the things he had to let go. The pre-Dark Lord days of Tom Marvolo Riddle.

Chapter 3: Instincts

He opened his eyes.He didn't understand himself at all. It was the first time in many decades he talked like this.

"Everything" finished Voldemort. He found himself locked around Bellatrix. They bathed beautifully under the moonlight.

Bellatrix looked up and saw the moonlight shining down on her. She smiled and then shivered under Voldemort's gaze.

His breathing went back to normal. He had his attacks again but good thing it didn't last long. His hands grew tighter around Bella. Yes, he did feel comfortable... very.

"This thing called 'love' can do many strange things.." He muttered. "Tougher.., than lord Voldemort." He snickered in a very handsome tone.

She smiled as he squeezed her harder and she wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him closer.

"But I thought you didn't know of love, master!" she teased playfully

Tom closed one eye and winced. "Watch it. Even with that petite body, you can still hide those extra pounds?" He joked. He was laughing... Not an evil laughter but a laughter one can hear in Hogsmeade.

Instincts took over. His lips softly touched hers.

Instincts can be dangerous too.

Bellatrix closed her eyes as her lips took over and returned her master's kiss, letting her body relax in his arms. She couldn't believe it.

For him it seemed to last only a few seconds. He parted with Bellatrix and began to cough madly. He fell to his knees as the same from his previous attacks.

"Dammit..." He cursed, looking away from his prized Death Eater.

"Master!" she said cautiously. "Is it the polyjuice potion?" she said on hand if he needed her.

Voldemort hissed again. Curses ran through his mind. He felt his body hurt so much.

"Turn around and Close your eyes Bella! I order you!" He shouted lifting his hood.

Bellatrix quickly did as she was told, closing her eyes and turned around.

The Dark Lord writhed in pain. A sound of someone collapsing was heard. Then silence. A sound of glass breaking then followed.
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Tom riddle stood up heaving...'that was the worst' He realized. He took of his dark cloak and threw it aside. He had the white Hogwarts polo-shirt on him. He was tie less and his milky white skinned camouflaged with his clothes.

"Master, can I open my eyes?"

"Depends..." Voldemort scanned himself.

"Would you like to look?" His voice was normal and the heavy breaths stopped.

Bellatrix turned round and almost swooned at the sight of her master she smiled and couldn't disguise her admiration.

"That was my worst" Voldemort reported. "And you seeing that.. I don't know what to think." He grunted and took the robes he threw to the ground a while ago. "I should've taken a better dosage..." It was as if he was talking to himself. Clearly he was alone for such a very long time.

"Are you okay?" He went near her. "You seem...flushed."

Bellatrix blushed.

"I'm fine." she said with a smile looking down at her feet.

Riddle smirked. "I'm always like this, so better get used to it... " He ran a hand through his hair.

"Now you see why it is not easy to be Lord Voldemort"

Bellatrix nodded and looked into his eyes without emotion.

"You are thinking about something...May I know?" He asked permission. It was the night of firsts for him. He wanted to see what Bella was thinking but he's rather ask her first.

He folded his robes in his arms so they won't dangle to the ground. He slowly walked towards Bella and placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "You don't have to tell me... if you don't want to" And he sat on a random tree trunk and basked in the moonlight. He waited for Bella's remark.

Bellatrix looked down at her feet and then back up at Voldemort as she sat on the floor opposite him.

"That kiss..." she said still dazed by it all.

"What?" He pondered as if he forgot about it.

Bellatrix was crushed but she did her best to hide it.

"It doesn't matter." she said looking down at her feet. "I'm just being silly."

"Asking about what happened a while ago is not silly." tom looked at her. "There's something wrong about it?"

"Don't you like it?" He asked with the most innocent face he could make.

"I know I did." said Bellatrix looking into his eyes "But I'm getting the feeling you wish it had never happened."

"Let me make just one thing clear" He raised his index finger as if to scold her.

"Imagine, the Dark Lord did something like that. It's hard to picture isn't it? But, here I am aren't I. I DID it. I may be Lord Voldemort but those feelinga, those thoughts ... aren't they real to you? Even I can't picture myself doing that... but, I did. Now, do you find significance to what I have said Bella?"

He smiled again just as he did when his lips touched hers.

Bellatrix turned away unsure of everything.

"I don't understand any of this. I understand a lot of concepts but this I don't."

"You're perplexed?" Tom stared deeper. He waited but, the few moments of no answer dampened him.

He stood up and bruches off the dirt stuck to him and swung his robe over his shoulder. "I will not force you... like I promised. It's your choice. But,... it felt great to hear you laugh like that." He confessed and bent over trying to clean up the mess on his shoes. "You wee happy... I was happy."

Then he turned to Bellatrix Black smiling with infatuation. "I don't want anything to happen to you. If you do not accept this companionship then I will not force you. But, just remember that I stooped so low tonight just to let you know what I am feeling for you."

"No I am not rejecting it, I thought you were that is why I am confused." Bellatrix explained softly turning round and smiling. "I like it that you don't force me to do anything and let me do it of my own free will. That I have to admire."

"Well, sometimes even the master will step a little lower. " He went near Bella for his conclusion. "Also, I do intend you to take serious your studies. You're a Death Eater and talent is very important. No matter what happens in these meetings we have we should keep this secret. "He planted another sweet smack on her forehead.

"The women who were after me before might turn jealous of what's happening since the Dark Lord never took notice of them." He joked.

Lord Voldemort took her in his arms again. There, he realized, this is the only time and place Bellatrix would be very safe. He did not know what might happen in the walls of Hogwarts.

He loathed the thought deeply.

Bellatrix closed her eyes and rested her head on her master's chest wondering about the outcome of her studies and how everything would turn out after this twist of events.

She hated the thought of an arranged marriage - even worse to Rodolphus Lestrange.

Okay, Done with Chapter 3 and it won't be long when chapter 4 is up. Thanks for the reviews, I enjoy and need them.

Okay trying to answer people's queries. Of course, I have read the sixth book but just letting you know, this was his Pre-Dark Lord days. So, he's not entirely evil BUT, in the midst of having eternal life. His taking over the Wizarding world comes after that. I'm writing about what happened before he went completely bonkers. Thank You. And for the Reviews, I am very grateful. you'll eventually read what drove him to evil in the later chapters. Thank you again. (I'm sticking to short chapters so people wouldn't get bored.)

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