Summary: Kagome has been hesitating on what to do. Naraku is dead, the jewel is gone, and the well is still open. There are worse problems than just that, though. These new problems about the man that she truely loves. Getting around to realize the emotions is tougher than anything else...

Rating: T (Oh my gosh! My lowest rating ever!)

So, what do you all think so far? I'm hoping that this will be a good story. At least better than my "About to Break" story is (not yet posted). I'm having a lot of problems typing in the second-person. First chapter was good, but I don't know how good this one will be...

Hey, sorry that the last chapter was so short. This one is extra long to make up for it. Hopefully this one is good enough to make ya'll forgive me...

PAY ATTENTION! When I have things posted before and after chapters, they're there for a reason. Please read them, I didn't put them there just to be silly... Sometimes it's just me babbling, but I have things to babble about. Also, if I am lazy or the person didn't sign in, then I will be putting review replies at the end of the chapters.

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Chapter Two: Indecisive

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"I have nothing to wish for. The man who kidnapped Rin has paid." He said regally. He dropped the jewel in front of him, and it started to glow. Everyone was startled as Midoriko's spirit made an appearance.

"Thank you, for putting the jewel back together. I want to thank you even more for ending this battle that I have held for too long. In turn, I will grant all of your wishes..." She said. She vanished, and the jewel began to shine. Everyone was somewhat startled. They didn't want to use the jewel, since they believed there to be better wishes. Now they were using it, but no one knew what would come out. They hadn't wished aloud, and they hadn't been aware of their own desires.

"For the demon lord, I will give you an arm. Using this, you shall be able to weild the Tetsaiga." Midoriko's voice echoed. Kagome caught the surprised look on Sesshoumaru's face. He looked at his arm then lifted the long sleeve. There was an arm there, the arm that the Tetsaiga had cut off ages ago.

"For the fox child, I will give life back to your parents. You have suffered greatly with their loss." She said. Shippo's eyes grew wide as he saw his father and mother appear before him. He leaped off of Kagome's shoulder then hugged them both. A look of pure happiness was on his face as his father licked his head.

"For the demon huntress, I grant you your brother. He shall recognize you as his sister..." Sango's eyes grew wide as her brother appeared before her. Tears started to fill her eyes as her brother blinked. The look of Naraku's possession was no longer on him. He looked like he was free of Naraku's grasp. Sango hugged him tightly, and he hugged her back.

"Sister!" Kohaku cried.

"Kohaku, I'm so happy you're alive!" Sango said. She looked at him as more tears escaped from her eyes. She hugged him once more, as if he would vanish any second.

"For the time traveling girl, I will let your means of travel remain open." The voice said. Kagome smiled and picked up the useless pink marble. Her wish wasn't as important, but she did appreciate it. She would be able to go home and visit here, or visit home and stay here.

Kagome's eyes narrowed at the realization that things couldn't be the same. She loved the feudal era for being so pure and untouched. It was nature's work, and not man's proof of dominance. She wanted to stay here, but she wanted her family. She had little time for her mother and brother since she started the hunt for the jewel shards.

It was hard to decide. Return home and finish school. She didn't like the sound of doing geometry, but she did enjoy the thought of being with her family again. Or she could stay here. She'd avoid the math, but she would have less time to spend with her family.

"Sango, are you and Miroku going to get married like you said?" Kagome found herself asking. She didn't want to be rude, but Sango was her best friend. Perhaps she would stay with Sango until she made up her mind.

"Mm hmm. We're going to start a small family, not a big one like Miroku wants. Even though his wind tunnel is gone, he still wants a son. He says he'll even settle on a daughter." Sango said. Kohaku looked from her to Kagome. He had a lost look on his face, and that made Kagome feel bad. Sango would have to explain everything to Kohaku.

Kagome looked at Shippo as he left. She couldn't ask him. He just got his family back, and it would be wrong to ask to be a part of it. That left the demon lord to her left. She looked at him.

He had started to show a soft side, but Kagome couldn't bring herself to ask him. He was the demon who hated humans more than anything else. He hated her for being foolish enough to be with his worthless hanyou of a brother. Kagome was unable to get over the Sesshoumaru she first met. The Sesshoumaru that tried to kill her and put a hole through Inuyasha's stomach.

Thoughts of Inuyasha started coming back into her mind. She would miss him more than she thought. He was unable to come back. But, he was able to be with the woman he loved. Kagome tried to convince herself that Inuyasha's death was good. It gave him the chance to be with Kikyou.

No matter how much Kagome tried to force the idea on herself, it was no use. She missed Inuyasha, and she wanted him back. She wanted to be selfish and take him away from Kikyou. But, she couldn't do it, even if the want was strong. It would be unfair to Inuyasha. He was fine, and she wouldn't disturb him.

Kagome started walking back to the well, her mind swirling with thoughts. She wanted to stay in the feudal era and be in clean air all the time. Not to mention that there was nothing to bore you there. She would meet a new demon that wanted to eat her every day. Even though she'd be scared, it would always be something new.

But, back home, she didn't have that luxury. She couldn't see any demons, and life was so... monotonous. They did the same things every day and lived lives by a schedule. Kagome liked that sometimes, but not anymore. She just wanted to be home to see her family.

Kagome would be perfectly content if she could be with her family in the feudal era. That'd be the best of both worlds. But, no. She'd have to choose which one she'd want. There was no way she'd be able to go through the two times as normally as she had done before.

Kagome groaned then sat at the edge of the well. She was going home, and she'd stay or she'd come back after she told them she was staying in the feudal era. She'd have to decide when she was there. With that thought, she let herself fall foward into the blue light.

Kagome pulled herself out of the well and slowly walked inside. Just going through the well had started reminding her of Inuyasha. It reminded her of how she failed to keep him safe. Knowing that she'd never see him again, that she'd never be able to apologize to him, ate her.

"Mom, I'm home." Kagome mumbled. She doubted her mother would hear it, but she didn't mind. She didn't think that she'd be worthy of recognition for letting someone down.

"Oh, hello dear. How long are you staying?" Her mother instantly asked.

"Until I decide." She murmured.

"Decide what, dear?" She asked.

"Nevermind." Kagome began to walk up to her room. Her feet ran into the steps constantly, but she didn't notice.

"Hey, sis! Is Inuyasha with you today?" Souta asked. Kagome flinched at the mention of Inuyasha. She didn't want to remember her broken promise anymore than she had to.

"Inuyasha's never coming again." She told her little brother.

"Why? Did you two get in another fight?" He asked. Kagome looked at him for a while before sighing. Her little brother looked up to Inuaysha. She wouldn't want to be the one to tell him about what happened.

"Inuyasha's gone far away, and I doubt he'll be back in time for you to see him." She simply told him. Souta nodded, having no clue what his sister was implying, then returned to his video games.

Kagome walked into her room and closed the door. She didn't want to think about Inuaysha. Thinking about him got her so upset, that she couldn't breathe. Kagome placed a pillow over her head then let out a cry of pain into it.

"I don't want to leave my friends here, but... I feel like I should stay with the others. Inuyasha would have wanted it, but I don't know... I don't want to be reminded of him each time I see demons and the others..." Kagome told herself.

"But... I feel like it's the least I can do for him. We had agreed that after the final battle, I would stay there... With him and the others. The least I can do for letting him down on that one promise is keep up as if he just left me for Kikyou..." Kagome argued. She took a deep breath then peeked her head out of the door.

"Mom, has anyone called for me?" She inquired.

"Yes, Ami called. She was curious if you were healthy enough to meet them tonight at WacDonalds. Are you?" Her mother replied.

"Yah." Kagome said. She turned back into her closet then looked at her clothes. She didn't want to wear any of them. They all reminded her, somehow, of Inuyasha. After a few tears fell from her eyes, she grabbed jeans and a green shirt.

She was at WacDonalds by six. Her friends usually met there around that time, perhaps a bit later. She sipped on a soda dully as she watched the door.

In truth, she wasn't watching the door. She was staring off into space as Inuyasha talked to her in her mind. She could only imagine his reaction if she had used the Shikon jewel to bring him to life. He would be angry and yell at her for letting him down. Then he would be kind and caring when his words caused her to cry.

Kagome snapped out of her thoughts as someone stood over her. She looked up to see Hojo, and nearly screamed. He was nice to her, but he always ran into her at the wrong times. She was on the verge of calling him Hojo the Stalker, but thought not to. That'd be the last thing that she should call him before leaving for good.

"Hello, Kagome. I'm glad that you're doing better. Your grandfather said that your warts were so bad, that you couldn't even eat." Hojo said.

"Warts?" Kagome asked stupidly. She was curious what disease the warts were a part of.

"You know..." He promted.

"No, I don't." She said. "Because I've been sick, I've been forgetting everything quickly." She quickly added.

"Oh... Well, he said that you were covered in sexual warts, which was interesting because I didn't think--"

"I'm still a virgin, thank you." Kagome interrupted him. Hojo sat at her table, even though she really wished he would just leave. He reminded her of Inuyasha. The way Inuyasha would get jealous over Hojo was funny at the time. Now it was just a painful memory that she wished she wouldn't carry.

Hell, every memory of Inuyasha she didn't want to have.

"Oh... Well, I'm glad to see you this healthy. I was worried, since it sounded like you were in really bad condition." Hojo said. Kagome nodded her head as she began to drift off into another land.

Her mind replayed the school's play. Inuyasha had really ruined that one when he came in. Kagome had been panicked at the time, but she laughed at it now. She laughed at everything, except Inuyasha's face. She wouldn't allow her memory to look at it. She wouldn't let herself to see him in the eye after she had let him down.

"Kagome! I didn't think that you were good enough to come! You brought Hojo, too!" Eri automatically squeeled. Kagome winced then looked at Hojo. He was half way out the door, and giving her a sympathetic look. A look that said he wanted to stay, but her friends intimidated him. Inuyasha always had that look. But her friends pissed him off, not intimidated him.

"So, your warts are okay?" Ami asked.

"They're fine." Kagome replied boredly. She took a loud sip of her soda then looked at the cup. She'd have to get more, but she wasn't in the position to get up. Yumi took the cup from her and filled it up without even being asked.

"How did you even get them? I didn't think that you'd be the type to do 'it' before getting married." Yumi gossiped. Kagome's face turned red as she took her cup back.

"I don't know how I got them. It's just one of those weird, unexplainable epidemics, you know?" She asked.

"Whatever... So, how's your two-timing, stubborn, bastard of a boyfriend doing? You're not still going out with him, are you?" Ami asked. Kagome's heart jumped up into her throat, stopped, and then settled into the pit of her stomach. How could she explain this to them without lying, or making it obvious that he was dead?

"He... Well... That's a long story." She tried to get them to stop asking.

"We have an evening." Yumi explained shortly. Kagome mentally cursed Yumi for saying that before racking her brain for a reasonable explanation.

"I'm not going out with him anymore." She said simply. Hopefully they wouldn't ask anymore quesitons.

"He wasn't good for you anyway. So, why'd you two stop going out?" Eri asked. That was the one question Kagome dreaded answering. It wouldn't be easy to just tell them that he was blown up bya demon.

"Well... Inuyasha visited his other girlfriend a few times recently." Very recently. Yesterday, even. "And, he wasn't able to get back to see me for our dinner date because there was a roadblock on the only road back here." Yes, there was. It's called the border between life and death. "And I just let him stay with her since I don't want to take him away from what he loves more; and that's obviously her." Kagome finished.

"Wow, Kagome. You have guts." Yumi said.

"Amazing..." Ami said.

"He deserved it." Eri said. It took all of Kagome's restriant to keep from yelling at Eri for that. It wasn't Inuyasha's fault, but they wouldn't know why. They didn't know that Inuyasha had died and his girlfriend was dead too.

"So, anything else?" Yumi asked.

"Yes... There is one more thing. I came tonight to tell you that I will be moving. I decided to live with another relative, and she doesn't live anywhere close. I can visit on occasion, but I don't know how often. You can tell Hojo, if you see him at school. Sorry." Kagome said. With that, she got up and went back home. There was no need to talk to them and answer their questions. She couldn't tell them where she was going, anyway. They wouldn't believe her if she had even tried.

Kagome could imagine their confused faces as she walked to her house. She could also imagine what they'd do if they found out what happened to Inuyasha. What would happen if they knew he was a half demon and another half demon had killed him? Not killed him, blown in into pieces. Naraku had dismembered Inuyasha into a million bloody pieces.

Kagome snapped out of her thoughts just in time to see death come at her. A car, going through his green light, was leaning on the horn. Kagome's eyes were the size of dinner plates. Her mind screamed at her to move, but her legs stayed put. At the last second, the car swerved out of the way. Kagome, breathless, went back and waited for her turn to walk across the street.

Kagome almost wished that the car hadn't missed her. She would have died and, hopefully, gone to see Inuyasha. That was something she desired. Just to see him smile and be kind, even if it was to Kikyou and her. That was a result of her great care for Inuyaha.

The sign changed, and Kagome began to walk across. Nothing to hit her this time, much to her dismay. She dragged her feet all the way to the shrine steps. Then she fell on them and began sobbing. In her eyes, she was a horrible person. She had let Inuyasha down and she would never forgive herself.

The dark of the night came on her, and she felt cold. She sniffled then walked into the house, her feet narrowly missing each step. She got inside and took off her shoes.

"I'm home." She murmured. "And I have to talk to everyone." She added. Soon, the entire family was gathered around the kitchen table and waiting for Kagome to spill her news to the rest of them. Kagome took in a deep breath and looked over each of their faces. Grandpa looked bored, mom looked half-interested, and Souta looked very interested.

Souta must have thought that the news was concerning Inuyasha. Her mother must have thought that it was just about her schooling and that she would drop out. That was true, but she wasn't going to stay home like her mother probably thought. Grandpa just looked like he saw no point in the gathering of the family.

"Mom, Souta, Grandpa... I'm going to live in the feudal era from now on. I will visit sometimes to get supplies and see how you guys are doing, but I don't think I'll be doing it that frequently." Kagome said formally. Her mind wanted her to tell them the reason that she wouldn't be doing it often. The well reminded her of Inuyasha and all the memories - good and bad - that they had built.

"Okay, dear." Kagome's mother said simply. Grandpa got up and left without another word. He must've been relieved to hear the news, since that meant no more excuses for Kagome's school. He'd simply tell them that she moved to live with another relative. Souta's eyes got wide then a smile grew on his face.

"Can I get your room?" Souta asked eagerly.

"No!" Kagome replied quickly. "I may not come back that often, but I want it for when I do come..." She explained to him. Souta's face fell, but he still looked happy.

"Are you going to live with Inuyasha?" Souta asked. Kagome's heart jerked in pain as she tried to think of an excuse. She couldn't just tell her brother that his hero was slain into a bunch of bloody chunks.

"I wish I could, but he had to live somewhere else. Somewhere I can't get to... So, no." Kagome lied. Souta nodded then trotted off.

"When are you leaving, dear?" Kagome's mother inquired lovingly. Kagome looked at her mom then took a deep breath.

"Late tonight. I'll help make dinner." Kagome offered. Her mother smiled then shook her head.

"I won't have it. You're going away, so we'll give you a wonderful dinner. You can go ahead and pack, dear." Kagome's mother said. Kagome kissed her cheek then went up to her room, her feet hitting every single stair on the way up.

The dinner was good, and Kagome cried. She didn't want to be leaving her family, but she had to. She had made up her mind. Besides, she was a little eager to see all the little kids that Sango and Miroku planned on having.

Kagome loaded the last thing into her big, yellow backpack. She checked everything on her list then nodded her head in approval. She had brought as much as she possibly could. Even if it took her a lot of effort or help, she would make sure that this stuff got there. She went out to the well house and took a deep breath.

Kagome jumped into the well, closing her eyes to keep out the blue light. She knew that, along with the blue light, memories of the person she cared for would come. She had let him down, and didn't want to be reminded of that anymore than she had to be.

Kagome got out of the well, her backpack in hand, and walked to Kaede's hut. Home. She knew that things would get hectic there, since she would be under training for her priestess powers, but she didn't mind. She didn't want her mind on Inuyasha. It hurt to think of him and to think of how she had let him down.

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Next Chapter...
Kagome gets sent on an errand; pick herbs from a specific spot. Sounds boring at first, but Kouga insists on helping her. As they reach the spot, Kagome decides something. Kouga is shocked at her words, and even Kagome is somewhat surprised. After things are settled, Kagome runds into something... hard...

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So, what do you think? I feel the same way that Kagome does, when it comes to thinking you let someone down...

I got a lot of questions on why she didn't with Inuyasha back. I thought I pointed that reason out, but I guess not. Here's the answer; Kagome felt horrible for not being able to protect Inuyasha, since he was always doing that for her. She knew that he'd be upset with her when he came alive, because that's just Inuyasha's nature. She also knew that he was in hell with Kikyou. Kagome knew how much Inuyasha cared for Kikyou, so she didn't want to be the one to take him away from her. That make sense? She cared for Inuyasha and knew he cared for Kikyou. So, she gave Inuyasha what she felt like he wanted more; to stay with Kikyou.

- Lonely Bird