Burn, a csi fanfic | FanFiction

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Summary: Greg's tired of being "burned" and it hurts every time. Greg/Sara/Nick. Greg/Sara angst.

Authors Note: I wrote this a loooong time ago. So bear with me people. Thanks.

Story: Burn

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

They've been apart for 2 weeks, but it fells like 5 years to him. Every second he thought about her and why he let her go. Then he remembered how he caught her with someone else in his bed.

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

It was hard to see her at work and pretend that he was okay. Inside he just wanted to breakdown and forgive her. He couldn't do that, she hurt him too bad. She checked on him now and then, to see if he was okay. He ignored her and she would just walk away with a hurt expression on her face.

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
but you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

He picked up the phone more than once, ready to talk to her. He lost his courage and hung it up. He would just lay on the couch, feeling sorry for himself and drowning his problems in alochol.

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn

Then he started going out during the mornings, sometimes missing his shift. He's been late for the past week. Nobody took any notice to him before, but now they watched him closely. They were afraid he would take drastic measures.

Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

He resolved his problems with getting drunk and bringing a one night stand home instead. They always gave him their numbers, but he never called. They were just a way to get over her.

But he never would

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

She tried to apologize to him, and so did Nick. It was a mistake they both told him. It didn't mean anything. If it was a mistake then why did they suddenly start going out? Nick was probably waiting for an opportunity to jump her.

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gotta let it burn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

He hated Nick for doing this to him, he hated Sara for breaking his heart, he hated Catherine for trying to comfort him, he hated Warrick for trying to talk to him and most of all he hated Grissom for not allowing him to move to dayshift.

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through

Ever since he was little, bad things have always happened to him

Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

He worked hard on his grades and got a scholarship to Berkley. But it was just another heartbreak. He started dating Reagan, but she cheated on him with a professor at school. She ended up getting pregnant by him and moved away. He never heard from her again.

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

He finished college and got the job at the crime lab. He was told that he wouldn't get a chance to go out in the field. That changed. He proved to be an efficient and eager worker. He just passed to CSI 1. He was very proud of himself. He got to work with his girlfriend and his best friend

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

He couldn't forgive them. Maybe later, just not right now. He was hurting too much, and he knew he would never be able to trust them both again.

All he needed was her and now she was gone. She was never coming back,to him at least. He was tired of being pitied and people being concerned about him. He wanted to go back before all this stuff happened.

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

But like they said, you can't turn back time, no matter how hard you try.