Disclaimer: I do not own Pokémon and I do not own "Goodbye to You" … Michelle Branch owns that.
Author Note: Hi everyone! I know that Pokémon is not my usual thing to write for. Don't worry, I've not lost my mind. Anyone who reads my Invader Zim fanfics, I can feel them almost wondering what I'm doing. Well, I used to be into Rocketshipping and lately I've started reading those types of fanfics again and I just got into it again. This is going to be a songfic with the song "Goodbye to You" by Michelle Branch. If by some random chance of fate this site decides to take it off, you'll be able to find this fic at my deviantART account, the link on my profile. So, I'm done rambling… and I'll get on with the fic.
Summary: Sometimes you say goodbye before you're really ready to. Rocketshippy.
/Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by/
Jessie took in a deep breath, thinking about what she was about to do. All she wanted to do was to get it over with, why prolong the inevitable? She began to walk swiftly down the sidewalk, before pausing in front of a door. Behind that door sat a room full of people she'd never met before. They wouldn't care if she walked in or not. However, there was one person she knew would be sitting in that room waiting for her and she wasn't sure she could handle it. She shook her head at her stupidity and pushed the door open. She walked inside.
Her gaze swept across the room, searching for one person. When she saw him, tears immediately began to form in her eyes. She forced them back, she would not cry. No. It would only show how she really felt and she could not have that. Especially now. She glanced at her watch, just to see if she had enough time to take another breath before she was supposed to meet her partner. There were only a couple of minutes, so she decided she couldn't wait any longer. Enough days had passed. It was time to get it over.
/I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,/
Jessie walked up to the table, still trying to fight back her tears. She was afraid she would lose the war with them.
"Jessie. I'm glad you made it," her partner, James, said. He stood up to pull out a chair for her. She wanted to ignore the gesture but she slowly sat down anyway.
"I need to talk to you… and it's serious," she said. James' expression grew more serious, as he could sense she really wanted to be serious.
"What's wrong?" he asked. Jessie tried to look away but knew that doing that might make her seem unsure.
"You know, it's been a few months since we were fired from Team Rocket," she paused for a moment, "I feel like I need to leave."
"What?" James asked.
"I've really been thinking about it, James. What is left here for me? I just want to go out into the world and make a life for myself. The three years we've been together seem fake now, now that I think back about it. I need to start a new life. I just thought I should tell you before I just disappeared," Jessie said.
James sat there, obviously shocked. Jessie took the silence as disappointment and so she stood up, getting ready to leave.
"No! You can't leave! I thought there was something special between us?" James asked, feeling his voice betray the emotion he was trying to hide.
"I have to, James. This is it. Goodbye." Jessie said, turning away from the table. She left the building as fast as she could.
/Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to/
After Jessie had gotten a few blocks away from the building, she began to slow her pace. Finally she paused, looking back in the direction of the building she'd left.
"There was something very special between us, James. You were and you are the one I love but to continue staying here would be wrong. I tried to hold on to you and I tried to forget that I always dreamed of having a bigger life. When were just part of Team Rocket, I thought it would be okay to love you. Now that we no longer have to live that life, I need to get out on my own." Jessie whispered, finally letting a few tears escape from her eyes.
/I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right/
Two weeks later, Jessie lay in bed, staring at a picture of James. She'd traveled quite a distance to stay with an old friend, since she didn't have much money of her own. Even though all she had was a picture, she got lost in the thoughts of them. Sometimes she would just try to imagine he was there with her. She closed her eyes, sitting the picture on the stand next to the bed.
"Just sleep," she muttered to herself, "you made your decision and now you just have to live with it."
/And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time/
It was late in the morning when Jessie finally surfaced from sleep. Months had gone by. She had gotten a job and she was beginning to feel like she was going to be able to make something of her life. She rolled over, seeing the picture sitting next to the alarm clock. There were so many times she'd almost gathered everything and almost went searching for James. She decided it was stupid though, she'd made her choice. She was going to become successful and she was going to live her life. Lately, she'd been feeling the same strong feeling to go after James.
"No." she said, sitting up in bed. "I'm not going to give up already. He's probably already gone his own way, maybe even already found someone else to make him happy. I will not mess that up!"
She slowly slid out of bed, letting the thoughts of what she needed to do that day go through her mind, drowning out the other thoughts she had had just a few moments before.
/And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star/
A year had gone by. Jessie lay outside on her deck, just staring at the stars in the sky. She had finally saved up enough money to get her own place, even though it was small, and she often would lay outside to look at the stars when she couldn't sleep. The more she stayed alone in the house, the more she couldn't sleep. She watched two stars falling, side-by-side, across the sky above her. She closed her eyes, wanting to wish but not knowing what to wish for. A sudden memory took over her mind.
"See those falling stars?" a soft voice came from next to her.
"Yes, I do. So what?" she asked, not sure why it mattered.
"Whenever you see a falling star, you're supposed to wish for something." James said.
"That's stupid. A falling star can't grant my wishes," she said. James laughed softly.
"Just do it. It's not going to kill you!" he replied.
Jessie closed her eyes, softly whispering, "I wish I could find true happiness."
Jessie opened her eyes, watching the two stars about to fade from her sight.
"I wish I could find the only one who ever brought me true happiness," she whispered. She slowly pulled herself up off the deck. Suddenly she realized she had made a terrible mistake, a horrible decision. She stood, turning back to the back door of the house.
"I have to go find him, I have to let him know that I'm sorry for what I've done," she said, going back into the house.
Author Note: What have I done? I have just committed myself to a multi-chapter fic, I think. I shouldn't have done this… but I can't help it. I heard the song and this fic just popped into my head. I don't know if there's any chance that anyone will like this and I'm really hoping this isn't the exact idea someone else has gone with before because I hate taking other people's ideas. It might change as I go through more chapters. If anyone actually likes this, I might want to mention that I probably won't get another chapter out for weeks. College is evil! OH! And probably a couple more things I should mention, I know I didn't actually use any pokémon… but you have to understand, it's been years since I've really been into pokémon and I don't remember many of them. Perhaps in other chapter, I might add them. And the part with the "three years" thing up there, I know they've probably been in Team Rocket for many more than three years, I just went with that because of the song. So.. I'm ending this ridiculously long author note, please read and review if you wish.