A/N- Yeah, another update this soon. Yes, clutch your hearts...LOL! I have written the next update for Like We Never Loved At All I just have to type it. Hope you enjoy!

-SGH-Derek's POV-

Why didn't I just tell her the truth? Why didn't I say "Yes, stop seeing him."? Because she deserves to be happy, and I can't give that to her. I don't think I ever could. I mean I am the reason she cheated, the reason she had to be a single mother, the reason she is hurting right now. I am looking at my daughter and wondering how I could ever leave her. If Addison does stay with this Brian guy then she will probably move back to New York, and I know she will take Georgie with her. I may lose Addison, but I refuse to lose Georgie. Addison is getting her dressed, well attempting to. Georgie is not making it easy by squirming. I swear I think that kid has ADD. I chuckle at my diagnoses. Addison looks so helpless, maybe I should help her. "Georgie why are you not letting mommy put your clothes on?" I ask in a fatherly tone. I didn't know I had a fatherly tone, well guess I do now.

"Because I don't wanna leave daddy." she said sticking her bottom lip out.

I sit down on the bed and put her in my lap. "Why do you not want to leave?"

"Because I won't get to see Isthe, and George, and Christina, and..." now she is beginning to cry, and I really feel bad.

I pull her to me and try to comfort her. "I promise they can all visit you at home, and you can come and visit them. Okay?" She sniffles and nods her head. "Now will you let mommy get you dressed?" she nods and leans over to Addison. "I am going to go get her papers for you to sign, and then once she is discharged I will drive you two home. I wish I could stay this afternoon, but I have to work."

"That's fine we will probably both take a nap this afternoon, so you won't miss much." Addison says while she yawns. I hope she didn't notice me staring at her stomach when her shirt rose up. I think to myself, then chuckle at the image of her face if she found out.

"Well I will be right back." I say then turn to leave.

"Daddy."

I turn to see a very upset Georgie sitting half dressed on her bed. "What is it pumpkin?"

"Why didn't you kiss mommy? Chief always kisses Del, so you need to kiss mommy."

I wish I could explain to her that it is not that easy. Slowly I walk towards Addi, hoping she won't kill me for doing this. I gently slid my arm around her waist and lean in placing my lips softly on hers. To my surprise she kisses me back. We pull away and look at each other. There is so much history between us, and all of the unanswered questions are lying in her eyes. One day I will give her the answers, and hopefully she will answer mine.

"That was much better." Georgie says as if she approves.

"Well I am glad that my four year old approves of the way I kiss." I say as I tousle her hair. "Bye pumpkin." I kiss her forehead lightly, then turn to Addison. "I will be back in a few minutes."

"We will be right here. Hopefully fully dressed and packed." She says as she rolls her eyes.

I just smile and leave to go finish up the papers.

-Sheppard Residence-

Derek pulled up to the house and stopped the car. "Here we are, home sweet home."

Georgie jumped out of her car seat and ran to the front door. "Can we go in mommy?"

"Yes, just give daddy a minute to open the door." she says watching her overly excited daughter almost knock Derek over trying to get in.

Georgie ran in and stood amazed in the foyer. "Wow!" she whispered. "Where is my room?" she asked with big eyes. Derek pointed up the stairs. Before she could get exact directions she was halfway up the stairs.

"I hope she can find it." Derek said looking at Addison as they slowly climbed the stairs.

"Derek it is the only one with toys, trust me she will find it before you could." She smiles as she hears her daughter squealing about all her toys. "Told ya."

They walked in and watched as Georgie ran from toy to toy not knowing which one to play with first. "Well I have to get back to the hospital, but will you guys be okay?"

"Yeah, we'll be fine. I am going to give her a few minutes to calm down, and then she is going to take a nap." Addison said smiling at Georgie playing with her baby doll. They had left it in New York on accident, and boy did Addison hear about it. Georgie had cried all the way from the airport to the hospital, wanting her "Sara".

"I will see you this evening then. I should be home by seven."

"Okay I am going to try and make dinner, I don't know what though."

Derek stood at the front door and turned back to look at her. "You know I always liked your chicken fettuccini, if I have the ingredients do you think you could make that?" He asked with a child like smile.

"How long have you been planning this?"

"Planning what?" he asked innocently.

"Planning on asking me to make that." she placed one hand on her hip, and the other on the door face.

He looked down at his feet then back up at her. "I went and bought the ingredients four days ago."

"Ha! I knew it, you little..."

Derek kissed her quickly on the lips and then turned to run to his car, before she could cause any bodily harm.

-3 Hours Later-

Addison sat on her bed reading over some medical journals that she had on her laptop. She sighed and looked across the hall into Derek's open bedroom. Closing the laptop, she stood and walked across to his room. She felt bad for snooping, but she wanted to know what he was like now. She sat on his messy bed and looked around the room. Lying on the floor by his dresser was a large white book that looked familiar. She walked over and picked it up. That's when she recognized it; it was the scrapbook she had made of their wedding photos. She crawled onto the bed and crossed her legs. As she flipped through the pages of her past she began to cry. Why did life have to be so complicated? Why did she do what she did? She hated herself more than anyone could have ever understood. She flipped the last page and was surprised to find a picture of her and Derek loose in the back. She flipped it over and saw his hand writing. "To be like that once again, would be like heaven to my heart." It was dated only about a week ago, so she knew that he had to have gotten it from Gigi. Right at that moment she felt like the worst person in the world. She had felt this way before, but right now it was the worst. She unplugged the phone and slid down in between the blankets and the bed. Holding the picture close she began to cry. She cried the hardest she had in a long time. She cried for Derek, she cried for Georgie, and she cried for the pain she had caused both of them. Soon she was asleep, left alone with onlyher pain and guilt to keepher company.

-2 Hours Later- SGH-

Derek hung up his cell phone once again. He had been trying to get a hold of Addi for the past hour, but she never picked up, not her cell, not even the house phone. He was beginning to panic. What if something happened to her or Georgie? What if they were hurt? What if... was all he could think about. He checked his schedule to see if he had anymore cases left, and was relieved to see that he didn't. Quickly he left the hospital and sped home. When he pulled into the driveway he barely had the car in park before he got out. "Addison! Addison!" he yelled as he walked in.

"Shhhh." she scolded coming from the kitchen. "Gigi is asleep."

He grabbed both of her shoulders and pulled her close to him. "Are you crazy? Why didn't you answer any of my calls? Did you know how worried I was? I thought that you were hurt, or something had happened to Gigi. I thought that you could be dead! Do you understand how worried I was?" He was yelling so loud that there was no way he could have not awaken Georgie. His eyes were furious, but they softened when they saw the fear in Addison's. He was scaring her. She looked at him with tears in her eyes.

"I'm sorry." she whispered. "I laid down to take a nap and unplugged the phone, and I guess I just forgot to plug it back in." She looked down at her feet.

He released his grip on her shoulders, and then wrapped her in his arms. "No, I am sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you, I was just so worried." He pushed her gently away, so he could see her face. "You have no idea how concerned I was. I mean I left the car running."

She chuckled lightly. "Did you put it in park?"

He smiled. "Yeah, I did do that." He stood staring in her eyes. He could lose himself in those eyes, except that every time he almost lost himself he would always see what he saw that fateful day so long ago; his wife with another man. He looked away and then back at her. "Something smells good."

"Yep, it's what you asked for. You should probably go turn the car off."

"Good idea. I will be right back."

Addison watched him leave and thought to when he was staring at her. She often wondered what he saw when he looked at her like that. He would always get this painful look in his eyes when he did, which made her hurt even more.

-That evening-

Dinner had gone well, in fact it was one of the best times Addison and Derek had spent together in a long time. AsAddison was getting ready for bed Georgie toddled in. "Mommy." she said meekly.

"What are you doing up? I thought daddy tucked you in a while ago."

"Why don't you and daddy share a bed? Del and Chief share one. I know 'cause I slept in it with them one time 'cause I was scared. So why don't you and daddy?"

Addison sighed. Why did life have to be so complicated? "Well, sweetie that is a hard question to answer. Mommy and daddy have a problem."

Georgie stood and thought for a moment then smiled. "I fix it mommy." She grabbed Addi's hand and pulled her towards Derek's room. He was just getting under the blankets and looked up at them in surprise. Georgie pulled Addi to the bed and urged her to sit down. Addison complied and put her feet under the blankets that Georgie was trying to pull up. "There I fixed it. Night mommy, night daddy." She ran giddily out of the room and back to her bed.

Derek and Addison both lay there uncomfortably. "So...what do we do?" he asked quietly.

"Well, I can't just go back to my room, or she will ask more questions. How about I just stay here until we are sure she is asleep, and then I can go back to my room."

"Okay sounds like a good plan." He reached over and turned the lamp out. They both lay sill, neither one wanting to move. Derek sighed and turned to face Addi. "Okay so if you are going to be here for a while we might as well get comfortable."

Addison breathed a sigh of relief and turned on her right side. She came face to face with Derek and smiled. "Hi." she said softly.

"Hi back."

They both just stared at each other, then Addison asked him a deep question. "When you look at me, what do you see?"

Derek was taken aback. "What?"

"When you look at me like you did today at the door, what do you see? I know it is not good, and that it hurts you to see it, butwhat is it?" She looked at him with the innocence of a child asking their parent a simple question.

"I see a lot of things Addi."

"Derek don't do that, don't run away. Just answer the question." she said frustrated.

"Fine, you want the truth? I see you with Mark, okay that is what I see."

Addison closed her eyes and rolled away from him. She knew that she brought this upon herself, but it still hurt. Derek sighed and ran his hand through his hair. Then he looked over to her still form. "But before I see that I see a woman who I loved with all me heart. Someone who I vowed to never stop loving no matter what. Someone who has held my heart for as long as I have lived. Someone who gave me a beautiful daughter. Someone I still love." he paused for a moment and just looked at her. "But that is when I start to see someone who hurt me, who...who cheated on me."

Addison lay silent on the bed. "I don't blame you for hating me." she said softly.

"Addi I don't hate you, I was angry, now all I am is hurt. I hate myself for letting you slip away when all we had to do was talk, and Mark would have never happened."

She turned to face him and cupped his face in her hand. "Don't hate yourself, if anyone hate me."

Derek mimicked her hand with his own on her face. "How could I ever hate you?"

She gave him a sweet smile. "How did we get here Derek?"

"We just drifted, I guess." He placed his hand on her hip and pulled her closer to him.

She draped her arm on his waist and placed the other one directly on his chest. "Do you think we can ever get back to where we were?"

He laid in thought for a moment. "No, because we have so much history, but I think we could feel the same again."

Addi laid her head on his chest and sighed. "Derek I..."

"No, don't say anything. Let's just enjoy the moment okay?"

"Okay. Goodnight Derek." she whispered.

"Goodnight Addison."

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