Chapter Nine
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AN: Whew! Chapter Nine Is ready to read. Sorry it took me long to update. I know you are anxious to see what is happening. Let me know what you think. Please R & R.
I do not own X-Men, I am just borrowing the characters to make this story.
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Logan thoughts kept on straying to Roe as he sat there listening to the Professor and Jean tell him what the medical tests and scans had revealed. It had been almost a week since the night of Xavier's help. It had also been that long since the dream stopped coming, almost as if it had been a dream and not the memory of a past that he had been told.
However nothing was going to change his mind again. He knew now he had been married to that dark angel in his dreams, the one with the chocolate eyes. He knew her as he knew his own name, however he could not recall where they had met, when she had been killed and all of the important things he should be remembering. Still this newfound knowledge helped him fill part of his heart and he was going to make sure he never lost it.
"Logan, are you listening to what I am saying?" The Professor asked all of a sudden as his voice broke through Logan's thoughts.
"Er, no sorry Professor. Can you say that again?" Logan whispered.
The Professor frowned slightly. Logan had been like this since he was told the dreams had stopped. For awhile he had thought Logan might go a little crazy reverting to his Wolverine persona, however instead Logan became quieter and even more distant to the other X-Men. Even Rogue had come to him asking why Logan was keeping his distance. He no longer picked a fight with Scott over Jean and even as he did now, he did not call him by his nickname, wheels.
"I said and I will repeat that whatever prompted the memories from breaking through the barrier in your mind; it seems that the wall holding it all in has strengthened. Jean believes we can use a chemical compound mixed in with your DNA, we may be able to break it down. However, she recommends that the doses be small and dilute so that hopefully it will lessen the chances of killing the other brain cells surrounding the barrier." He said stated again.
Logan looked up from his seat and nodded in acceptance without so much as a word.
Jean and the Professor sighed as Xavier continued.
"These diluted doses will crumble the wall a little at a time, however it may take another couple of weeks to come up with the right balance and maybe several years for it to be removed. Any stronger a dosage and the memories behind the wall as well as the memories you have now will be destroyed to the point you may become a child once more. So do you understand the risks involved? If you want we can let it alone and hopefully the wall will crumble naturally or we can start as soon as it's prepared. Logan?"
Logan sighed deeply and looked at each of his hands that held the anamantium claws.
The risks involved.what a laugh! He thought.
He had been through a lot worse as his claws lay witness. However to even gain even a small fraction of his memories now he knew he had to take the risk. He knew the others thought he didn't know all of the risks, besides the medical ones. He was talking about the fabled Pandora's box and how it loosened all of the evils in the world.
Would his memories consume him? Would the pain be too much for him? Would he become an Axe Murderer?
Logan slightly chuckled under his breath at this last thought. Maybe not an axe Murderer but maybe the Wolverine in him might become over powerful and take over his body.
"Let me know when the potion is ready, Merlin." He said attempting some humour.
With that he rose from his chair and was about to leave when Xavier called out to him.
"Where are you going?" he asked with a concerned voice.
"I don't know. Anywhere would be okay." He mumbled under his breath.
Xavier heard him and replied, "I have a small place in San Francisco that I and the other X-Men use when we are in the area. Why don't you go there for the next couple of weeks while we prepare the potion, as you like to call it. It will be a fresh place to unwind and kick back. Explore the city, go on the beach, anything."
"Yeah, whatever." Logan stated as he turned the handle and walked out of Xavier's office.
"Do you think he will go, Professor?" Jean asked after they were alone.
"I think he has already gone to pack. Make sure the Scott's Motorcycle is on the X-Jet. I don't think Scott will mind."
"Of course he won't Professor. I will make sure of that." She said with a little knowing smile.
Xavier saw that and began to chuckle.
The Power of a Woman. Xavier thought as he remembered a time in his life so long ago.
The sun was setting in the western sky as an ebony haired figure stood looking out of her sky rise office window overlooking the city. She was dressed in an elegant business suit that flattered her already small waist as the colour brought out the darkness in both her eyes and hair. Her arms were folded close to her chest as she leaned heavily on the window almost wishing she could take off.
Where are you? Her mind thought.
The dream had not come to her in about a week ever since the night she had felt the other familiar presence. Was this presence the reason why her dream had stopped? When the dreams had begun she would have given anything for the agony she went through night after night to be finally be put at an end. However it was the figure of the man that made her bare the nightmare she had dreamed. He was the only one who was important to her. Now they had ended she felt her heart break in two.
"Logan. Where are you my Wolverine?" she whispered out loud.
She had not heard the knock on her door or the door opening revealing the handsome man in the doorway.
"Whose Logan?" the figure asked.
The ebony haired girl twirled in her spot and came to face with the voice.
"Damn it! Jason you know better than to sneak up on me." She said angrily.
"Sorry 'Liv. I did knock but it seemed you didn't hear me. In your own little world again?" Jason asked, winking at her. "So who is Logan?"
The girl's face turned a bright red as she turned away so that he wouldn't see. "Logan is no one. A figment of my imagination from working all of theses hours." She said tiredly.
At that Jason came up behind her and held her shoulders to turn her around. His face was full of concern as he looked into tired eyes.
Frowning slightly he said, "I thought you were going to lessen up here at work. That was why you hired me.remember?"
The girl smiled slightly and nodded. "I know but it seems I can't let it go. After all this is my Father's Company. I would hate it if it crumbled into dust."
"What don't you trust me? After all aren't I suppose to be your Assistant?" he mocked in horror.
She smiled at that and patted his shoulder. "Of course I do Jason. My Father trusted you and you are more than just an assistant. You have been the one thing that has kept me sane all these years."
"Thanks 'Liv. Now why don't you beat it? Scram! It's 6 PM and you are still at work. As a matter of fact why don't you take a couple of weeks off? I am serious 'Liv." He said, as she was about to interrupt him.
"I am sure this company won't crumble into dust if you are not here. You know your father trained me well and I know every aspect of this company as well as the new assignments that are currently being worked on."
The figure frowned slightly and was about to object again when Jason snapped. "Look 'Liv. You are 22 years of age. You teach part time at the university, you also go to many charity events and fundraisers while overseeing your own Charity Foundation. YOU HAVE NO LIFE! Go out, meet a guy, have sex and have fun and leave this all to me. I promise I will call if something drastic happens. Is that a deal?"
She thought about it and she knew Jason was correct. She worked almost 24 7 and had very few friends. There were a few things that she worked on that even Jason didn't know. All of the work was wearing her out. She did need a break.
"Okay you win. I promise not to do ANYTHING for a couple of weeks. However if any trouble comes up, let me know. I will be staying within the city district but maybe a nice drive up the coast will do me some good." She finally caved in.
Jason smiled and nodded. "Good. Your vacation starts now. Now get!"
"All right already. Thanks Jason. You know Sarah is lucky to have you. If it weren't for her.I would probably snatch you up in a moment."
Jason laughed slightly. "I know. However don't let Sarah hear you say that. She thinks I have enough of an ego now. If she heard what you said I would never hear the end of it."
"Bye Jason. Thanks again."
"Sure. You know 'Liv. I do hope you find this Logan persona of yours."
Smiling she shrugged her shoulders and grabbed her briefcase and made her way to the door.
Jason you don't know how much I wish I could find him too. Perhaps then I will feel whole again. She thought as she turned the handle and left her office.
To be continued.
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AN: Whew! Chapter Nine Is ready to read. Sorry it took me long to update. I know you are anxious to see what is happening. Let me know what you think. Please R & R.
I do not own X-Men, I am just borrowing the characters to make this story.
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Logan thoughts kept on straying to Roe as he sat there listening to the Professor and Jean tell him what the medical tests and scans had revealed. It had been almost a week since the night of Xavier's help. It had also been that long since the dream stopped coming, almost as if it had been a dream and not the memory of a past that he had been told.
However nothing was going to change his mind again. He knew now he had been married to that dark angel in his dreams, the one with the chocolate eyes. He knew her as he knew his own name, however he could not recall where they had met, when she had been killed and all of the important things he should be remembering. Still this newfound knowledge helped him fill part of his heart and he was going to make sure he never lost it.
"Logan, are you listening to what I am saying?" The Professor asked all of a sudden as his voice broke through Logan's thoughts.
"Er, no sorry Professor. Can you say that again?" Logan whispered.
The Professor frowned slightly. Logan had been like this since he was told the dreams had stopped. For awhile he had thought Logan might go a little crazy reverting to his Wolverine persona, however instead Logan became quieter and even more distant to the other X-Men. Even Rogue had come to him asking why Logan was keeping his distance. He no longer picked a fight with Scott over Jean and even as he did now, he did not call him by his nickname, wheels.
"I said and I will repeat that whatever prompted the memories from breaking through the barrier in your mind; it seems that the wall holding it all in has strengthened. Jean believes we can use a chemical compound mixed in with your DNA, we may be able to break it down. However, she recommends that the doses be small and dilute so that hopefully it will lessen the chances of killing the other brain cells surrounding the barrier." He said stated again.
Logan looked up from his seat and nodded in acceptance without so much as a word.
Jean and the Professor sighed as Xavier continued.
"These diluted doses will crumble the wall a little at a time, however it may take another couple of weeks to come up with the right balance and maybe several years for it to be removed. Any stronger a dosage and the memories behind the wall as well as the memories you have now will be destroyed to the point you may become a child once more. So do you understand the risks involved? If you want we can let it alone and hopefully the wall will crumble naturally or we can start as soon as it's prepared. Logan?"
Logan sighed deeply and looked at each of his hands that held the anamantium claws.
The risks involved.what a laugh! He thought.
He had been through a lot worse as his claws lay witness. However to even gain even a small fraction of his memories now he knew he had to take the risk. He knew the others thought he didn't know all of the risks, besides the medical ones. He was talking about the fabled Pandora's box and how it loosened all of the evils in the world.
Would his memories consume him? Would the pain be too much for him? Would he become an Axe Murderer?
Logan slightly chuckled under his breath at this last thought. Maybe not an axe Murderer but maybe the Wolverine in him might become over powerful and take over his body.
"Let me know when the potion is ready, Merlin." He said attempting some humour.
With that he rose from his chair and was about to leave when Xavier called out to him.
"Where are you going?" he asked with a concerned voice.
"I don't know. Anywhere would be okay." He mumbled under his breath.
Xavier heard him and replied, "I have a small place in San Francisco that I and the other X-Men use when we are in the area. Why don't you go there for the next couple of weeks while we prepare the potion, as you like to call it. It will be a fresh place to unwind and kick back. Explore the city, go on the beach, anything."
"Yeah, whatever." Logan stated as he turned the handle and walked out of Xavier's office.
"Do you think he will go, Professor?" Jean asked after they were alone.
"I think he has already gone to pack. Make sure the Scott's Motorcycle is on the X-Jet. I don't think Scott will mind."
"Of course he won't Professor. I will make sure of that." She said with a little knowing smile.
Xavier saw that and began to chuckle.
The Power of a Woman. Xavier thought as he remembered a time in his life so long ago.
The sun was setting in the western sky as an ebony haired figure stood looking out of her sky rise office window overlooking the city. She was dressed in an elegant business suit that flattered her already small waist as the colour brought out the darkness in both her eyes and hair. Her arms were folded close to her chest as she leaned heavily on the window almost wishing she could take off.
Where are you? Her mind thought.
The dream had not come to her in about a week ever since the night she had felt the other familiar presence. Was this presence the reason why her dream had stopped? When the dreams had begun she would have given anything for the agony she went through night after night to be finally be put at an end. However it was the figure of the man that made her bare the nightmare she had dreamed. He was the only one who was important to her. Now they had ended she felt her heart break in two.
"Logan. Where are you my Wolverine?" she whispered out loud.
She had not heard the knock on her door or the door opening revealing the handsome man in the doorway.
"Whose Logan?" the figure asked.
The ebony haired girl twirled in her spot and came to face with the voice.
"Damn it! Jason you know better than to sneak up on me." She said angrily.
"Sorry 'Liv. I did knock but it seemed you didn't hear me. In your own little world again?" Jason asked, winking at her. "So who is Logan?"
The girl's face turned a bright red as she turned away so that he wouldn't see. "Logan is no one. A figment of my imagination from working all of theses hours." She said tiredly.
At that Jason came up behind her and held her shoulders to turn her around. His face was full of concern as he looked into tired eyes.
Frowning slightly he said, "I thought you were going to lessen up here at work. That was why you hired me.remember?"
The girl smiled slightly and nodded. "I know but it seems I can't let it go. After all this is my Father's Company. I would hate it if it crumbled into dust."
"What don't you trust me? After all aren't I suppose to be your Assistant?" he mocked in horror.
She smiled at that and patted his shoulder. "Of course I do Jason. My Father trusted you and you are more than just an assistant. You have been the one thing that has kept me sane all these years."
"Thanks 'Liv. Now why don't you beat it? Scram! It's 6 PM and you are still at work. As a matter of fact why don't you take a couple of weeks off? I am serious 'Liv." He said, as she was about to interrupt him.
"I am sure this company won't crumble into dust if you are not here. You know your father trained me well and I know every aspect of this company as well as the new assignments that are currently being worked on."
The figure frowned slightly and was about to object again when Jason snapped. "Look 'Liv. You are 22 years of age. You teach part time at the university, you also go to many charity events and fundraisers while overseeing your own Charity Foundation. YOU HAVE NO LIFE! Go out, meet a guy, have sex and have fun and leave this all to me. I promise I will call if something drastic happens. Is that a deal?"
She thought about it and she knew Jason was correct. She worked almost 24 7 and had very few friends. There were a few things that she worked on that even Jason didn't know. All of the work was wearing her out. She did need a break.
"Okay you win. I promise not to do ANYTHING for a couple of weeks. However if any trouble comes up, let me know. I will be staying within the city district but maybe a nice drive up the coast will do me some good." She finally caved in.
Jason smiled and nodded. "Good. Your vacation starts now. Now get!"
"All right already. Thanks Jason. You know Sarah is lucky to have you. If it weren't for her.I would probably snatch you up in a moment."
Jason laughed slightly. "I know. However don't let Sarah hear you say that. She thinks I have enough of an ego now. If she heard what you said I would never hear the end of it."
"Bye Jason. Thanks again."
"Sure. You know 'Liv. I do hope you find this Logan persona of yours."
Smiling she shrugged her shoulders and grabbed her briefcase and made her way to the door.
Jason you don't know how much I wish I could find him too. Perhaps then I will feel whole again. She thought as she turned the handle and left her office.
To be continued.