A Memory… Nothing More Than A Memory

By: MacchiNightmares

Disclaimer: I DON"T OWN BEYBLADE!

Chapter 9: The Date

The limo ride was silent, except for the music that was playing. Suddenly one of my favorite songs came on, "Missing" by Evanescence. Being used to singing the song, the words just came naturally out of my mouth.

"Please, please forgive me, but I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up and, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
'Isn't something missing?'
You won't cry for my absence, I know - You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...? Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me
but I won't be home again. I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out, 'Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?'
Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?And if I bleed, I'll bleed - Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you- I'll wake without you there
Isn't something missing? Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice, You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone.

Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?"

As I finished the song, I closed my eyes to stop the tears that were forming in them. I was able to stop them, but not before one tear escaped. Kai was shocked, for two reasons, 1) that was the first time he'd ever seen a tear on my face and 2) thatI was singing. Since my eyes were closed, I didn't see when Kai came towards me.

"Hey, Serenity. Are you okay? What's wrong?" Kai asked in a soft voice as he wiped away the tear with his thumb. I slowly opened my eyes, and I met Kai's eye's staring right into mine. I got lost in his cold red- brown eyes. The moonlight from outside made me snap out of my trance. For the rest of the ride, I just stared out the window. I wish I could tell Kai. But if I do… he won't be able to help me. I'll just lose him and everyone else too. But all that's gonna happen tomorrow anyway. Damn father… it's all his fault. He's the reason for all of this… but I can't do anything… I can't stop him… I can't stop anything from happening… I looked at the moon and saw how full it was. Meanwhile Kai was wondering why I was so depressed. Why is she so sad? I wonder if I can do anything to help… Hmm, even if I could help her, she's too stubborn to let me help her. And that's what I love about her. And that's what's bugging me, she's too strong to just cry over nothing. I just hope she'll tell me… As Kai wondering what was bugging me, we arrived at a restaurant. The driver opened up the door for us and we got out. I waited as Kai told something to the driver, then we went inside. I saw that it was an elegant restaurant, and I felt really out of place. Kai saw this and he chuckled.

"Kai, why are we in a fancy restaurant?" I asked him.

"You wanted me to act like a gentleman, then I'll act like one, including taking you out to a fancy restaurant." I gave him a mild glare as I continued walking with him. Soon we arrived at our table. I gasped when I saw a dozen red roses on the table. "Surprise…" Kai whispered in my ear, and as always, I froze. Kai walked to the roses and picked one up. He then walked back to me and handed me the rose. It was black. "I noticed black was your favorite color." He whispered again as he led me to my seat, which of course was the one with the roses.

"Wow… the might Kai acting like a gentleman… Never thought I'd see the day." I said as Kai took his seat across from he.

"Yeah, and I thought I'd never see the day that the strong Serenity would dare wear a dress." Kai countered.

"I'm only wearing a dress because you made me."

"Yeah, whatever."

We had an okay dinner, but the whole time I felt uncomfortable. I sighed in relief when we left. As I was walking through the restaurant, I felt watched, but also wanted… No… they can't be following me… can they? Nah.. I'm just being paranoid… I thought as Kai walked me out of the door.

"Serenity, you wanna go in the limo or you wanna walk?" Kai asked as we reached the limo.

"Limo." I said blankly as I got in. Kai got in after me. I closed my eyes and listened to the music in the background. A few minutes later the limo stopped. I opened my eyes and looked outside, I saw a park. I looked at Kai questioningly, he chuckled and said, "I thought we could walk in the park and then I'd walk you home."

"Oh, alright. Sounds good to me." I got out of the limo and followed Kai. The walk was quiet, I didn't wanna talk, but I could tell Kai did. After about 10 minutes, he finally broke the silence,

"S-Serenity, you sing really good, you know?" Even though it was night, I could see that Kai was blushing. And I decided to tease him about it,

"My, my my. The might Kai Hiwatari, blushing? What could've brought that?" I gave him a small smile.

"Finally. I was beginning to think you had forgotten how to smile, Serenity."

"I hadn't forgotten… I just didn't have a reason to smile."

"Aren't you having fun?"

"Yeah, but… the thought in my head didn't really want to make me smile."

"But couldn't you think of what was going on right now?"

"My thought were too deep. I couldn't think of anything else."

"Can you tell me what's on your mind? Maybe I can help. Hopefully…"

"You can't help Kai. No one can…"

"But I could try! Please tell me!"

"I can't tell you! All that'll do is…"

"She's acting too weak… I can't take much more of this… Is what! What happened to you! Did you get weak while you were away!"

"You wanna know?"

"Yes!"

"You really wanna know?"

"YES!"

"All I can tell you is that I became 'weak' because of hanging out with you and everyone else."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah, it's true."

"How?

"You'll see. Tomorrow, you'll see."

"Hn."

The rest of the walk was silent, how I originally wanted it. I stared in to the night sky, that always calmed me. I started thinking about what Kai said, Did I really become weak? Come to think of it: I have. A year ago, I would've been able to do it, no sweat. But everything's changed now. I'm not as cold anymore. the thick layer of ice that surrounds my heart became thin, almost gone. Damn… What am I going to do?

M.N.: Hmm, what is Serenity going to do? Can she bring herself to tell Kai and risk losing him sooner? Only I know! hehe! Well, Laters!