It has been nearly 60 years since it happened… Since she left me. No… No I shouldn't say that, she didn't leave me. I let her go. I let my Angel go. I loved her. I always have, and I always will. All I wanted was for her… to be happy I suppose and… if being happy meant I had to be out of the picture, then… I would get out of the picture. It's what she wanted. If she wanted to leave me for Raul, that's fine…
What am I saying… that's not fine. No, not at all. I fell into a pit of darkness that night, into the dungeon of my black despair, into the prison of my mind. I don't think I ever really came out of it either… I haven't been able to write a single thing. I can't play a single note on the organ. I have fallen into this rift, and I cannot climb out. It's far far too deep.
It was that kiss. It was the kiss that killed me. Those lips were poisoned. If she had just left, if she had just made a choice. Either leave me and let him die, or stay… She never would have stayed though. She wouldn't have been happy that way. Living with me… It… It's a miserable and degrading life, living down here. No one can love a monster… no one… my mother couldn't… Christine couldn't… I couldn't…
It has been 60 years… and I have been cursed with immortality… I am the same as I was back then. Nothing about me has changed. Christine died a year ago. I am going to visit her grave today. I will head out as soon as the auction upstairs ends.
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