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well... im bored, tired, and i have no clue what i am going to write.
but here it goes...
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disclaimer: i dont own anything that Miyazaki wrote, or illustrated,
i create things from my own point of view, only borrowing the
characters that i admired in his movie. -smile-
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As i soar above the sky, i cant help but close my eyes, and not give a damn where i end up. All i want is to open my eyes and find myself back at home. Even if i were to have no family. I would just keep my good memmories, and that would be enough. I miss Lin, and all the other people at the bathhouse. I miss my friends, Ekiyuu and Metsuki. Mom and dad, how are they really? So many things swarmed through my mind. Why had i ever come here in the first place. What made me come? Did Yubaba make me think the train was calling me? Did some lousy spirit do this just to watch me suffer for entertainment? Or was it Kohaku? I dont know, but for some reason, now i regret ever even keeping that little pony tail that i'd treasured since i was ten. Now i'm fifteen, i should have just thrown the small thing away. It cant hold up half of my hair now, and there are plenty of other ponytails that look so much nicer that a string tied at the ends. But for some reason, i fealt as if i ever let it go, i would loose my soul with it.
I fealt a huge gust of wind blow against my back, and suddenly fealt weight drop on me. I turned my head, eyes wide, to find kohaku sitting with his legs and arms crossed on my back. My wings began to strain to hold him up.
His eyes were closed and he seemed like a stubborn little six year old again.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" I cried, getting used to the weight, and flying back up the ten feet that i fell.
"Im thinking."He replied.
"COULD YOU THINK SOMEWHERE ELSE OTHER THAN MY BACK?" I screamed.
I saw the side of his mouth turn up to a smirk. "But you're way too comfortable. No, no i think ill stay right here, thanks for your concern though."
"HOW THE HELL DID YOU GET UP HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE?"
"I can fly too dont forget." He said. "NOW HUSH! Thinking."
Fury filled my whole body. I began to jirkily fly from side to side,
then up and down, then i began to fly upside-down. He wouldnt
fall even then! He wasnt even holding on!
Then i got an idea. I began to fly straight and calm again, and did for a minute or two. Then he got suspicious.
"Change of heart?" he called.
I smirked then, and with a swift second, smothered him with my wings, holding him to my back as we started to fall.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" he cried.
We began to fall even faster. "I'm not a taxi cab. Fly for yourself."
"WHAT THE HELL IS A CAB?" I could feel him ripping at my wings, and for the first time he was giving me pain as each feather was plucked from my wings.
I yelped for every feather, and only then did he stop. I let my wings fall open only a foot away from the sharp edges of the forest trees.
I flew my way over to an opening, and then roughly dropped myself to the ground, and finally he fell. But i didnt care, i ran and sat down and then hugged the defeathered wing.
He got up and dusted himself off, and stood there like he was in shock. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
"Dont be. It's my fault, i shouldnt have scared you." I said. I stood up when the pain was gone, and opened the wings up to take flight again. "Fly for yourself this time?" I asked. I took off before he could answere.
While i was up there, i saw Kohaku meet me at my side. He was in his dragon form, and his eyes looked like a wounded puppy.
"Dont be sad Kohaku, but when you said you were thinking, made me want to do some for myself."
He nodded, and then sped away in front of me, leaving me to think of myself. My selfish, undependable self.
"What am i doing? Why cant i go back?" I thought. "Damn this world
for ever BRINGING ME HERE!" I cried in my head. I swooped down
near a stream and sat on a rock just above the water. Little tears
fell from my eyes, and i watched them blend perfectly with the
clear blue water. 'Soon they will be dark and sad.' i thought.
I splashed my reflection from view with my wing, and then
wrapped myself inside them to block myself from any contact.
"Little girl! Who are you?" Called a grown mans voice.
I looked up quikly and peaked through the feathers of my wing.
A man not older than forty with his white horse beside him were standing
before me on the land, staring at me with sorrow. Him and the horse.
"Your name?" He asked.
"Chihiro." I said no louder than a whisper through my scratchy throat.
"Chihiro... and why do you cry? What has happened? Are you wounded?"
I moved my wings from my face, and layed them on my back, and shook my head.
"well that is good, but if you dont mind me asking, why are you alone?''
I looked up and wondered who in the world this man was.
"First... what's your name?" I asked.
He smiled warmly, just like my father used to do. "My name is Kokoro." He said boldly.
'Kokoro... kokoro... why so familiar?" I thought.
"I am alone because i wanted to think." i said.
"Oh, well then i will leave you to your thoughts." he said.
I did not stop him. He was kind to just leave, and let me continue
my thinking. Only when he was truly away from sight did it dawn on me.
KING KOKORO!
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"Are you sure you havent seen her yet?" Metsuki asked my mom.
He had come to my aunts home the last few days wondering
so much about when i was to return.
"No. She isnt back yet." she said." Sorry." And then she closed the door.
"Wow. her moms really messed up because of this." Ekiyuu said, turning from the porch and hopping down the steps.
"Yeah."
"I just cant stop hoping Chihiro's alright and not dead in a ditch somewhere." Ekiyuu sighed.
"I hope she's having some sort of adventure!" Metsuki laughed.
"What? And letting her family sit here and fight and worry?" Ekiyuu shreiked. " That doesnt sound like the Chihiro I know."
" I guess your right. But it was a thought that at least lifted my hopes.
Better than her laying in some ditch."
"yeah."
"yeah."
They both sighed in unison walking along the sidewalk.
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