A/N: I have rewritten Chapter 2 (it's much better now) so you might want to go back a re-read it. Also you may or may not have noticed that the chapters and stuff are song titles (Just like the show!) So if you are curious...

Title - Miniature Disasters by KT Tunstall

Chapter 1 - Love is a Battlefield by Pat Benatar

Chapter 2 - Heart of Glass by Blondie

Chapter 3 - Communication by The Cardigans

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November

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Addison

8:47am

"How do you feel thing are coming?"

"They aren't. We never talk about anything that matters and we barely spend anytime together outside of work." Addison was not in the mood to sugar coat things.

"Have you told him that you want to spend more time with him."

"Yes," Not that he ever listens to me.

"Addison," the doctor leaned forward, "Is there something else going on?"

Oh, you mean why am I being a bitch? "I am just getting frustrated with the situation."

"Have you done anything to fix the situation?"

"I moved across the country."

"I meant about spending time with your husband. You need to tell him exactly what you need for this to work."

"I want us to get back what we lost. I need us to live under the same roof, sleep in the same bed and I need him to love me again."

"What can you do to get that?"

"I don't know."

10:32pm

He is not going to like this. But at this point I don't care. "I bought us an apartment today Derek. It doesn't make sense for me to keep staying at a hotel."

"Us? You bought an apartment for us? To live in together? You could have talked to me about it first."

Tell you so you could give me the brush off, disappear into surgery for 3 days. I don't think so, "Every time I even mention the thought of us moving back in together you blow me off and rush into surgery."

"It's too soon."

What? Idiot, that is the worst excuse I have ever heard. "To soon? Derek we have been back together for 8 weeks and nothing has really changed."

"Plenty has changed."

AAAGGGGHHHHH "Nothing Derek. Nothing has changed. We still don't talk. We go out to eat and then go back to our separate homes, separate beds."

"Addison it is too soon. We are not ready to have that... intimate of a relationship."

Oh Jesus. I am not going to fight about our sex life in the middle of the hospital, "You think that this is about sex Derek? Do you think that I moved all the way across the country for SEX? We don't have to have sex. If you don't want to have sex that's fine." Or maybe I will fight about this here.

"Addison you are being ridiculous."

You are not serious. I don't even know what to say to that,"WHAT? I AM BEING RIDICULOUS?"

"YES YOU ARE BEING RIDICULOUS. You expect me to just drop everything and move in with you just because you ask."

I moved across the goddamn country because you asked, I am asking you to move across town,"We need to start living together again Derek. Do you have a better solution?"

"If you are so eager to cohabitant move into the trailer with me."

"Now who is being ridiculous Derek." Seriously.

"Why not?"

"Can you picture me in the wilderness?" There are spiders in the woods. I hate spiders.

"Yes, and you look beautiful."

True... "Flattery will only get you so far Derek."

"I'm counting on it getting me as far as I need to go."

I am not staying here if he is going to be a stubborn ass. "I'm leaving, I have to work. But I am not moving into that trailer."

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Derek

10:32pm

"I bought us an apartment today Derek. It doesn't make sense for me to keep staying at a hotel."

She what? She bought US WHAT? "Us? You bought an apartment for us? To live in together? Jesus. You could have talked to me about it first."

"Every time I even mention the thought of us moving back in together you blow me off and rush into surgery."

We cannot live together right now. We would kill each other,"It's too soon,"

"To soon? Derek we have been back together for 8 weeks and nothing has really changed."

"Plenty has changed." I've left Meredith, you've moved to Seattle, We spend half our waking hours fighting or in therapy talking about why we are fighting...

"Nothing Derek. Nothing has changed. We still don't talk. We go out to eat and then go back to our separate homes, separate lives, separate beds."

Sex? We are not ready for sex, at least not sex with any emotion, other then anger and resentment. "Addison it is too soon. We are not ready to have that... intimate of a relationship."

"You think that this is about sex Derek? Do you think that I moved all the way across the country for SEX? Addison it would not be the first time that one of us moved across the country because of YOUR sex life. We don't have to have sex. If you don't want to have sex that's fine."

This is to much. I am not having this fight anymore. "Addison you are being ridiculous."

"WHAT? I AM BEING RIDICULOUS?"

AGH this woman is infuriating, "YES YOU ARE BEING RIDICULOUS. You expect me to just drop everything and move in with you just because you ask."

"We need to start living together again Derek. Do you have a better solution?"

I do but your not going to like it. And right now that makes me like it more. "If you are so eager to cohabitate, move into the trailer with me."

"Now who is being ridiculous Derek."

"Why not?" Because there are no restaurants, no coffee shops, no signs of civilization for 20 minutes in any direction. And spiders.

"Can you picture me in the wilderness?"

That's actually kinda... hot... "Yes and you look beautiful."

"Flattery will only get you so far Derek."

Darling flattery will get me anywhere with you,"I'm counting on it getting me as far as I need to go."

"I'm leaving, I have to work. But I am not moving into that trailer." We'll see about that.

2:45am

"So?" Richard questioned as he joined Derek in the elevator.

"So." Derek repeated.

"How is the therapy going?"

"Slowly."

"What's holding you back?" Richard pushed.

"Your really nosey."

"Yes, yes I am. Addison gave up a lot for you, I don't want to see you mess it up."

"She gave up a lot? I..."

"She worked extremely hard to get her practice where it is, and she gave it all up because you asked her too. And how do you thank her? You follow around Meredith Grey looking for retribution. How do you think that makes her feel?"

"She is being unreasonable. She wants us to move in together. And she still get jealous every time I work with Meredith."

"Is that anymore unreasonable then asking her to drop everything and move here? As for Meredith, that is not unreasonable at all."

"Yes it," Derek replied "I work with her Meredith."

Richard raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything.

"I know, I know." Derek continued. "I know what she means. I just don't understand why it is so important to her."

"You don't? Derek did you ever think that it bothers her that you were apart less then 2 months and you had a relationship with a woman 10 years younger then her? A relationship Derek. It wasn't a one time thing. You have feeling for Meredith and Addison knows it."

"Are you taking her side?"

"No," Richard paused, "But can you think of anything that you could have done to hurt Addison more?"

Derek was silent,"No."

"Do you really want to work this out?" Richard pushed again, determined to get to the bottom of the issue.

"I'm afraid that things still won't work out," Derek replied honestly, "I can't destroy her like that, and I can't handle loosing her again."

"Then don't loose her," Richard advised, "She is just asking you to try."

3:59am

Derek walked through the halls of the neonatal unit looking for his wife.

He found her in an empty on-call room. Deja-vu. She sat backwards on a chair her head resting on her arms. Oh Addison, He thought as he left the room to find something to take away her pain, what are you doing to yourself.

Addison sighed from her chair and squeezed her eyes tightly shut. She had always hated this part. She looked up as someone placed a glass of water and some aspirin in front of her.

"Why are you still doing this to yourself Addy?" Derek asked as he rolled a chair behind her, and putting his hands gently around her waist, began using his thumbs to massage her lower back.

"Wasn't ready to give up," she replied swallowing the pills.

They sat in silence for awhile. Derek couldn't help but remember the endless disappointment. Waiting hand in hand for the good news that never came. Coming home from work so many times to find her curled up in pain, or worse in tears.

"What is it this time?" he asked finally.

"Experimental," she sighed and lay her head back down, "With this one I had up to a 10 chance."

"Had..." he breathed.

"It's not working."

"There is nothing..."

"No."

Derek sat silently trying to absorb the information, "We can move in tomorrow." He said finally, "But we are spending weekends in the trailer. I like the trailer."

Addison laughed, "Ok"

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Meredith

9:18pm

"Meredith?"

"Dr. Shepherd?"

"I need to talk to you."

"Ok..."

"About us."

"There is no us," I don't like where this is going. HELP!

"Meredith," Derek continued. "I want to explain."

"There is nothing to explain Dr. Shepherd." Did no one hear me when I said HELP!

"Dr. Grey," Tyler cut in, "I need you to check on this patient."

"Thank you," Meredith shrugged slightly at Derek and left to follow Tyler. "You are my guardian angel."

1:13am

"I hate overnight shifts. I am SO tired." Cristina sighed as she, Meredith and Tyler collapsed in the cafeteria.

"At least you have someone to go home to." Meredith pointed out.

"Don't remind me, he always wants to talk. About nothing, like childhood pets. The man has issues." Cristina sighed, "But he does make a good breakfast."

"Hey, why don't we ever hang out with Izzie, Alex and George." Tyler asked.

Cristina and Meredith turned and watched the other interns sit at a nearby table laughing.

"They're to happy," they said in unison.

"We like to be depressed and angry on our own." Meredith continued.

"It's a shame they had to pull Alex over to the side of happiness and rainbows. He used to be so bitter." Cristina said almost regretfully.

"Besides, who asked you to hang out with us," Meredith teased, Tyler had been spending more and more time with them lately. Not that I mind.

Tyler laughed, "You think that those three are too happy. Try hanging out with the nurses. Some of them will push you over the edge."

Meredith laughed briefly, "Derek tried to talk to me."

"And?" Cristina asked.

"And I sent out a telepathic SOS to Tyler and he saved me."

"I'm like superman."

"You idiot you should have talk to him." Cristina said shaking her head.

"Why?"

"Ok so I am working with McDreamy right, and I was also talking to Izzie. They are having a major fight."

"About what?" Meredith asked almost eagerly.

"I don't know."

"You need to take lessons from the nurses" Tyler advised, "You suck at getting gossip."

4:13am

"OK." Cristina said sitting next to Meredith in the stairwell. "I may have overheard something."

"Something what?"

"Something about McDreamy."

"Just McDreamy?"

"No," Cristina glanced at Meredith, "I think that are moving back in together."

Meredith leaned against the stairwell. "This sucks."

"Well if it makes you feel better, I think that she is sick or something, she looks horrible. And miserable," Cristina offered. "And their sex life... non-exsistant."

Meredith laughed. That actually makes me really happy.

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There is another chapter. I'm sorry if the story is not going where you want it to, but lately I haven't been feeling the Meredith/Derek vibe.

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