Juhani saw Carth enter the galley and immediately knew his conversation with Revan had gone bad. He looked completely, utterly miserable.
Still, he managed to smile at the children as he took a seat across from them. "Are you two almost finished?"
They nodded at him.
"Well, I need to fly this ship and I could sure use some help. What do you think, care to help me out?"
Juhani spoke up when the children remained silent, "I think that is a great idea. I am sure your Mother would approve too." Their faces brightened and excitement showed in their eyes.
"Good." Carth rose and moved to the small viewport. He stood there, a faraway glaze in his eyes, while he waited for the children to finish.
Juhani moved to stand silently beside him. They both stood staring out the viewport as they talked. His voice was quiet, defeated. "Talk to her Juhani, I can't. I feel like I don't even know her anymore, maybe I never did."
"Just give her some time Carth. She has been through a lot."
"So have I, Juhani. So have I." He paused before he continued. "I am worried about her. She's remembering. She told me she loved Malak, that they were lovers. She said some awful things to me back there."
He plastered a smile on his face as he turned around and looked at the kids, "Ready?"
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The cargo door slip open and he slipped quietly inside. She was sitting in the corner, head resting in between her bent knees, while her arms wrapped around them. He moved over to her quietly, feeling the great turmoil surrounding her.
"Lord Revan" He spoke as his hand moved to rest on her shoulder.
The words jolted Revan and she immediately tried to rise, grabbing for her lightsaber. But the feeling of his hand made her stop. She felt the waves of energy flowing from it, from him. It was filling her with a calmness that she longed for. So instead she just looked up at him.
"Who are you? What do you want from me?"
"I want to help you."
Confusion surrounded her but she felt no urge to strike at him. Force, what is wrong with me? Why am I not fighting back?
She just sat there, feeling his power flow into her body. "You are a Dark Jedi?"
"Among other things. More importantly, I am the one who can help you remember, just as Lord Malak wanted to. It was his last gift to you."
She could feel the slow change as the power and calmness he had been sending turned and twisted within her. She felt it reaching into every corner, wrapping itself around everything it touched. And then ... another memory came flashing into her mind.
Malak stood watching her as she stared out at the massive fleet.
"What do you want now?" she asked, irritation flowing undisguised.
"Are you not pleased with the progress of the Star Forge?" He asked.
She glared at him as she gave her biting reply, "The Star Forge?" she sighed as she moved closer to him, "When Malak, when will you realize that the Star Forge is not our ultimate goal? It is merely a means to acquire our ultimate power against the Jedi, against the Republic, against the galaxy."
She dismissed him with a wave of her hand, "I grow tired of how small you think!"
He remained in the room, moving towards her "Perhaps if you would tell me more, let us know what you are planning."
"Oh, you are a foolish one Malak. The knowledge I hold is not to be shared with anyone. Not even you."
"But Revan, we are in this together. WE decided this together…" he stopped as he felt the pain course through his body.
"We? WE?" She enjoyed watching him writhe on the floor before she continued, "Do not EVER think that just because we are lovers it gives you the right to question or make demands on me!"
She let him go, sending him flying with a final force push. "Think upon your words more carefully next time, or they may be the last ones that come from your mouth!"
The calmness and power he had been giving her quietly stopped. It coursed through her as it turned into a leech. She felt his force swirl within her body as it slowly began to wrap around her mind.
"Now, I shall see what you have already remembered." He smiled to himself, And how much longer we will have to wait to find out your secrets.
By the time she realized what was happening it was too late.
He slowly started pulling his energy back. Little by little it left her body, surging into his. It sucked everything it could from her. Everything it had wrapped itself around came with it. It flowed back, bringing all her memories to him, along with some of her essence, as he stood there grinning.
He could feel the anger and hatred swirling around her now. And surprisingly it was stronger than ever. He watched, reaching out to feed off of and feel every sensation until she finally collapsed.
"Interesting" he said, as he slowly turned around and exited the cargo hold.