Michelle returned home after another week, but
alone. Josh was working overtime on his movie and didn't see the
point of coming back to New York only to leave again in another
couple of weeks.
"Now you know how I felt when Orli was
filming," Jenn commented over the telephone while munching a
mint Oreo.
Michelle sighed. "Did I ever not know how
you felt?" Jenn couldn't decide if her tone was dejected or
teasing, or perhaps a little of both.
"True," Jenn
reflected, finishing her Oreo and reaching for another. "Why
don't you come on over? We'll have some of that girl talk our
husbands love so much." She sneered at Orli, who had just walked
into the room and pulled a face at the mere words. He subtly worked
the cookies away from their spot on the end table beside Jenn, who,
not noticing, didn't even blink.
Michelle's voice brightened.
"Really?"
"Yeah!" Jenn declared. "That's
what I'm here for, your entertainment!"
Michelle snickered.
"I think you do a little more than just entertain me."
"Yeah,
well," Jenn said, faking modesty. "Come on over
anytime."
"How about in a few minutes?" Michelle
suggested. "I have to eat something for lunch."
Jenn
grinned, even though she knew Michelle couldn't see her. "Sounds
perfect."
"What sounds perfect, me coming over or
lunch?" Michelle questioned amusedly, knowing full well about
Jenn's wild cravings for food, especially now at the end of her
pregnancy.
"Yes," Jenn answered, a trick she had picked
up from Michelle herself.
"Bye, Jen!" Michelle laughed,
raising her voice in false irritation. "I'll be over in a
few."
"See you then!" Jenn hung up and reached for
her Oreos. "Hey," she yelled upon discovering their
absence. "Orlando Bloom, GET BACK HERE WITH MY COOKIES!"
She sprinted off to find him as, the next block over, Michelle calmly
spread mayonnaise on a piece of bread; as Orli ran from Jenn, unable
to contain his laughter, Michelle gazed around her empty kitchen with
a smile as she thought of the news she couldn't wait to share with
Jenn.
Jenn expected Michelle to show up looking
lonely and in desperate need of company, as she herself had shown up
at Josh and Michelle's doorstep so many times before, but Michelle
was absolutely glowing. Her skin was faintly tan, presumably
from spending so much time outdoors with Josh, filming; her gleaming
brown hair was illuminated with natural red highlights. In short, she
looked great. Rumor held that she was a photographer on the set,
though she hadn't mentioned it to Jenn and Orli, and obviously wasn't
a main photographer, as she'd left in the middle of filming. Michelle
walked inside without waiting for an invite and tossed her car keys
on the end table by the door. "Jenn!" she exclaimed, and
gave her a big hug.
Orli came up behind Jen. "Michelle!"
he cried, and embraced her warmly. There was a faint sound of
crinkling plastic as his body pressed briefly against hers.
Michelle
pulled back, frowning. "Why is there a package of- something-
stuffed under your shirt?"
Orli winced almost imperceptibly,
while Jenn yelled, "So that's where you hid them, you…
you-"
Orli placed a hand firmly over Jenn's mouth. "Here
you go, Michelle," he said, tossing her the package. A
bewildered Michelle caught it, looked at the package, and popped the
very last mint Oreo in her mouth. "Fanks," she answered,
voice garbled. Swallowing, she added, "Do you have some
milk?"
Jenn stared on in absolute horror.
Five minutes later, Jenn plopped herself behind
the wheel of her Mustang as Michelle slid into the passenger's seat,
on their way to the grocery store to buy some more mint Oreos. "So,
Michelle…" she started, not knowing exactly how to begin, not
knowing exactly what she was trying to say.
Michelle waited.
"Yes?" she prompted when she realized Jenn wasn't about to
say anything else.
"I don't quite know how to say this…"
Jenn fumbled.
Michelle glanced over, eyebrows drawn together.
"Jenn, is there a problem?"
Jenn shifted into reverse
and slowly backed the car out of the driveway. "I don't know,
you look so… so happy, and I thought you'd be more upset
about Josh being out and you being on your own for a few weeks. I
know that's how I felt when Orli was always away, and it's worse for
you since Josh is across the country and can't even come home to
dinner."
Michelle took a deep breath. "Do you really
want to know?"
Jenn fought off the urge to sneer and bit back
a sarcastic remark, sensing that neither was appropriate for the
moment. "Of course!"
Michelle stared steadily out the
side window. "After the car wreck, when I was still in the
hospital, something weird happened."
"What?" Jenn
interrupted quickly.
Michelle gave her a look. "I'm getting
to it! Anyway, they ran a few tests on me, and… I had a
miscarriage."
"That's why you're happy?"
Jenn exclaimed in disbelief. "That's why you're
happy?"
Michelle, frowning, put a finger to her lips,
indicating she'd appreciate silence, and Jenn, thinking about it,
realized just what was so good about Michelle's miscarriage. Her eyes
widened.
"I had to have some minor surgery to complete the
miscarriage, which is why I was in the hospital for an entire week,
but Josh asked everyone not to tell you just yet. To be honest, I was
beginning to realize I was pregnant right before the accident, but I
hadn't told even Josh yet. I didn't want to get his hopes up for what
could be no reason. It was the same feeling when I miscarried, and
why we didn't want you to hear about it yet, especially not from some
strange doctor or nurse. We wanted to know what would happen next
before we got all excited."
"And?" Jenn prompted,
feeling excitement building within her even though this was her
friend's news and not hers.
"And… and… maybe I'm pregnant
again?" Michelle sounded unsure.
Jenn reached over to give
her a hug. "Michelle, that's so great!"
Michelle didn't
return the hug; instead, she tensed up. "Jenn?" she asked,
voice strained.
"Yes?"
"You might want to drive
right now, and hug me in the parking lot or something," Michelle
suggested.
"Ah," Jenn muttered, and steered the car back
over to its proper lane. "Right. Sorry about that."
"But
listen," Michelle continued, returning to the previous topic.
"You cannot tell anyone about this yet. Not until
I know for sure. Not Orli, and especially not Josh."
Jenn
pulled into the parking lot and stopped to give Michelle a wide-eyed,
disbelieving stare. "You haven't told Josh?"
Michelle
held her gaze, her voice steady. "Not until I know for sure,"
she repeated. "I know how badly he wants kids, and I don't want
him to get all hopeful if this is a false alarm. Besides, he has
enough to think about right now." She shrugged. "Who ever
knows, these days. I'm just stressed out, as likely as not."
Jenn
smiled, a small smile, no teeth involved, afraid to feel happy just
yet. "I'm still glad for you. Can I tell Orli about the
miscarriage, at least? He'll probably be happier than I am."
Michelle
nodded. "Just not that I might be pregnant again. I don't want
to hope for too much."
Jenn nodded also, and pulled into a
parking space. There, she gave Michelle the big hug she'd tried to
give her in the middle of the road, and this time, Michelle returned
it.
The heat was unusually formidable for early June. Michelle was
clad in a form-fitting, bright pink halter and short, dark denim
shorts with flip-flops. She'd pulled her hair up, but the loose
tendrils clung to the back of her neck, sweaty in the abnormally high
temperatures. Jenn's dark green, oversized tee-shirt felt plastered
to her back; her fuzzy white slippers, which she wore everywhere
these days, since her feet occasionally swelled up without warning,
had definitely been a mistake for going out, she decided. Her long,
reddish brown hair seemed too heavy to be fully dry, weighted down as
it was with moisture, and her tan skin felt as though it were on
fire. Entering the air-conditioned store was a relief.
"What
do you mean, there are no more mint Oreos?" Jenn half-yelled at
a sales associate down the cookie aisle. Michelle covered her face
with her hands.
"I'm sorry," Jenn apologized moments
later. "It's these raging hormones; you know how that goes,
huh?"
The sales associate, whose nametag read "John,"
muttered his way through "No, not exactly," and went to see
if there were any mint Oreos in storage, probably glad for an excuse
to escape from the two women and recover some dignity.
He returned
moments later, arms weighted down with mint Oreos, and handed one to
Jenn before turning to stack the rest on the shelf. Michelle rushed
to help him. Jenn stopped her, declaring, "We'll take them
all."
"Jenn," Michelle tried to reason, "this
poor man must have twenty packages of Oreos."
"So?"
Jenn shrugged, then paused to consider. "Well, anyway," she
decided, "we'll take five packs." John handed them over
with a smile, barely concealing an undignified snort. "That just
made my day," he told her, unable to resist laughter once he'd
opened his mouth.
Michelle grinned maliciously, but Jenn clamped a
hand over her mouth before she could open it, and went off to pay for
the Oreos.
"Orli?" Jenn asked tentatively two
weeks later, lying on the couch in pain, overheated despite the
hurricane fan that perched on top of the coffee table right in front
of her, sending constant blasts of cold air into her sweaty face.
"I'm not feeling so- oooooh," she groaned as another spasm
of pain shot through her.
Orli looked alarmed. "Do you think
maybe this is it?"
Jenn rolled around, clutching her stomach in mortal agony. "Maybe."
Orli seized the suitcase he'd had sitting by
the door for weeks ("Orli, I'm not due for almost two months!")
and rushed out to the car. Jenn hobbled after him, breathing
heavily.
"Orli," she muttered. Her voice barely
registered and came out in a dry whisper. "Orli, what if it's
just a false alarm? Most first babies are usually late, not
early."
Despite his efforts to retain control, Orli looked
panicked. "What if it's not?"
And then Jenn couldn't
argue, though not sure she wanted to anyway. She laid down across the
backseat of Orli's four-door car and fought off pain as he rushed
through traffic.
"I think maybe yelling at officers is not
a good idea, Orli," Jenn murmured twenty minutes later,
after Orli had been pulled over for speeding. He'd been going roughly
fifteen miles over the forty-five mile per hour speed limit, and had
insisted that his wife was in labor and he needed to reach the
hospital when the officer coldly informed him of this. Never mind
that she might not be. None of the pregnancy books Jenn had read
offered advice on distinguishing false alarms from genuine labor.
The
officer was not impressed by Orli's story, and said that if he killed
his wife through his "reckless driving," being in labor
wouldn't matter so much anymore, now would it?
Orli had lost it
and started yelling at him, demanding to know whether he had a wife
and had ever had to drive her through rush-hour traffic so that her
baby could be properly brought into the world and thus given a better
chance for survival. Jenn, in her half-delirious state, found this
speech very cute and touching, but the officer had simply asked for
Orli's driver's license and written him a ticket, whereupon he'd
wished Jenn, curled up and sweating in the backseat, the best of luck
with her new baby (Jenn didn't bother to tell him there would be more
than one). If the man hadn't walked away, he would have heard Orli
swearing heatedly at him, and would probably have ended up writing
yet another ticket, for being disrespectful to a cop or whatever.
"I'm sorry, Orli," Jenn apologized
four hours later. "It felt real."
Orli waved a
hand at her dismissively. "Don't worry about it. It's what I'm
here for."
"No," Jenn insisted. "If I could
tell the difference between false alarms and real labor, I would have
saved you a crazy drive to the hospital and a ticket."
Orli
shrugged. "I think I can afford a hundred and fifty dollars. Our
babies are worth it." Hi demeanor changed from detached to
fatherly. "I want these babies to have the best." He leaned
close to Jenn's huge stomach. "Do you hear me in there?" he
called. "You're going to have the best of everything. Even if
that means a dozen unnecessary trips to take your mommy to the
hospital just in case you're ready to be born. Even if I get two
dozen speeding tickets for those dozen trips. You will have the best!
And nothing less than that!"
Jenn, lying on the couch as
before, laughed and pushed him gently away.
"So why exactly did Josh decide to pick up
filming again?" Jenn asked Michelle over lunch the next day.
Michelle had listened to Jenn's story of the false alarm from the
previous night, and Jenn had taken her time telling it. Michelle was
a very good audience, laughing during the right parts and gasping or
commenting knowledgably at all the appropriate moments. Jenn was
tired of talking and ready to be an appreciative audience
herself.
Michelle shrugged and rolled her eyes, indication of what
she considered her husband's fathomless stupidity. "His passion
is acting; he's not in it for the fame," she started, sounding
as though she were quoting. "He doesn't like the idea of being
famous or thought of as a teen icon, but he doesn't want to let what
other people think of him get in the way of his doing what he loves."
With a dramatic sigh, she continued, "It doesn't matter to him
if all these crazy people he's never met are wild about him, and he
doesn't care if his acting means that crazy teenage girls who've
never met him in their lives will write crazy delusional stories
about how they're married to him and have kids with him, including
gory details about the sex…"
"I get it, Michelle,"
Jenn interrupted.
Michelle stopped abruptly. "Sorry. It sort
of reminds me of us before all of this happened."
"All
of what happened?" Jenn questioned, not understanding.
Michelle
waved her hand in the air, taking in their expensive clothes and
brand name purses, as well as the large, genuine diamond necklace
that glittered around Jenn's neck, a long-ago birthday present that
Josh, Orli and Michelle had all pooled their money to buy. "All
of… this. The money, the fame. Remember when we were just
crazy kids and loved to imagine that we'd someday be married to
celebrities, and never dared to hope that someday we'd be
celebrities, in our own unique sense, when we just loved to write and
sing and did it all for fun and never expected anything more out of
it than the sheer pleasure and passion we got out of doing it?"
Jenn
was impressed. "That was quite a speech." Her look changed
to one of surprise. "You're pretty deep and philosophical today.
What's gotten into you?"
Michelle shrugged. "Crazy
hormones."
"Crazy hormones," Jenn repeated. "Is
it that time of the month?"
Michelle raised her eyebrows.
"You could just ask if I have my period," she
responded, emphasizing the word, which tended to make Jenn as
uncomfortable as if Michelle had informed her of the doings of her
last trip to the restroom.
"All right then," Jenn began,
determined. "So do you?"
"Do I what?" Michelle
asked, eyes widening, the picture of innocence.
Jenn glared. "Do
you have your period?" she asked, speaking loudly to
prove she wasn't afraid of the word. The elderly woman at the next
table gave her a queer look and hustled her grandson away.
"No."
Michelle answered Jenn's question rather matter-of-factly.
"Then
what's up with the wild hormones?" Jenn demanded, confused. Her
eyes glazed over as she thought about it. "You don't… then…
what…"
Michelle looked at her, a frown battling a smile for
control of her mouth. "I went to the doctor's yesterday,"
she began.
Jenn looked up in alarm. "Is something
wrong?"
Michelle stared at her. The frown won out over the
smile. "Jen…."
"Yes?"
"I worry about
you sometimes. I can tell you know exactly what I'm talking about.
Why must you be so difficult?"
"You said
you went to the doctor! What else was I supposed to think?"
Michelle
rolled her eyes Heavenward. "Dear God," she intoned. Jenn
wondered how she managed to make her tone melodramatic and reverent
at the same time. "Why didst thou smite me with this thy…"
Jenn
cut her off with, "Oh! I've got it!"
Michelle looked at
her expectantly. "Go for it."
"You've finally
gotten sick, for the first time all year."
Michelle sneered.
"That's part of it."
Jenn relented with a smile. "So
you really are pregnant." It was not a question.
Michelle's
smile lit up the whole room. "Yeah. I am."
"Have
fun with that morning sickness thing!" Jenn cried.
Michelle
tilted her head to the left. "You don't seem all that
surprised."
Jenn, who was sitting directly opposite Michelle,
across the table, tilted her own head to the right, mirroring
Michelle in Jenn's own form of mockery. "I think I knew from the
day you told me you might be."
"I figured it was too
good to be true, after all this time," Michelle admitted.
"Hopefully this one will work out." Her face took on a
dreamy, wistful expression. "I wonder if our last child would
have been a boy or a girl."
Jenn reached across the table and
grabbed her wrist. "Never start thinking like that,"
she emphasized. "You have to live in the present."
Michelle
looked shocked. "Who's being all philosophical now?"
