"Happy
anniversary!" two voices cried together in the early morning of
June 21, 2003. Two forms, one tall and slender, the other smaller and
markedly pregnant, crept out quietly onto the back deck to curl up
next to each other and watch the sunrise before heading inside to
have pancakes and scrambled eggs and toast and bacon and cereal.
After eating, they didn't even worry about the excess syrup dripping
from their plates onto the beige tile floor that she worked so hard
to keep clean, or the dirty dishes that piled up in the sink, or the
persistent stickiness that lingered on their fingers and mouths even
after they'd eaten. Two mouths locked in the bedroom, silhouetted
against the bright sunshine that streamed in through vertically set
windows, curtains drawn back. They merged together like a river
meeting the sea, the graceful lines of their bodies melting into each
other and becoming one. Against the contrasting bright background,
they looked like one misshapen person, her legs wrapped around his,
his hands pressing into the small of her back, her arms locked around
his neck.
They fell back onto the bed, barely taking note of the
movement, not permitting it to interrupt the moment. He felt himself
sinking beneath their combined weights, and the weight of two
children who were not yet born, but very nearly ready to enter the
world. And she forgot for one wild instant that she was anything but
his loving wife, forgot to hold herself back as she usually did, for
fear of being hurt. She could feel his heart racing against her own
body. And she knew that his strength was there to protect her, not to
hurt her. She didn't have to hold back.
He rolled over, so she was
lying on her side, and got up to close the curtains. At once the room
was thrown into semi-darkness. She blinked, adjusting herself to this
new dimness, aware all the while of his returning to her. As she grew
accustomed to the light, she stared at his muscular, yet slender body
as it drew nearer and nearer to her. She'd never before appreciated
how very tall he was, or how his strapping shoulders gave his whole
body a sense of power, or how his stocky hands lent him a feeling of
balance. She'd never given a thought to his strong chin, which
created a sense of sternness about him, though she knew it was
misleading. She had seen him at his weakest and strongest in the time
she'd known him, seen him break down crying in blind terror of that
which was out of his control, had seen him laughing gaily as they
opened presents on Christmas morning and birthdays. She felt the
mattress sink on her right as he rejoined her, automatically rolling
her closer to him, to be caught in the comfort of his embrace.
And
as he walked back to the bed, he too was bombarded with past memories
of holidays and visits and dreams they'd shared. And he too stared at
her, realizing as if for the first time the perfect balance of her
dancer's body, wrapped in silk sheets, which clung to her and
revealed the stunning form beneath, as he still considered it to be
despite her pregnancy. He gazed at her round face and the long hair
that framed it, hair that he'd spent what seemed now the better part
of his life convincing her was beautiful and perfect for her. Yes,
the better part of his life: it felt as though the only moments of
his existence that mattered were those he'd spent with her. He
noticed her little hands, and how they gave her whole body an
illusionary sense of frailty and defenselessness. He peered through
the darkness into her rich hazel eyes, watching and regarding him
silently, even as he regarded her. He admired the soft, gentle curves
of her body, set in all the right places. It was the body of a woman,
not the young girl he knew she still considered herself to be.
He
didn't tell her any of this as he took his place in the bed beside
her. Nor did she voice the revelations she had just experienced. In
fact, both of them stopped thinking at all as they melted into each
other once again, holding each other as though afraid of letting go
ever again.
They
allowed themselves to sleep until it was nearly noon, overtired from
a late night and early rising. Jenn sat up, blinking sleep out of her
eyes. The room was still semi-dark, the thick curtains allowing
little light to penetrate.
Orli awoke as he felt Jenn move.
Yawning, he rubbed his eyes and looked around. He smiled as his eyes
lit on Jenn. "Have a nice nap?" he asked cheerfully.
Jenn
looked over at him, returning the smile. "It was great. I'm
ready to get up and do something, though. Do we have plans for the
rest of our day?"
Orli wrinkled his nose, apparently deep in
thought. Jenn giggled as she watched his face. "I don't know. We
could take a drive out to our property along the river, where we went
for New Year's, and spend the day away from the city."
Jenn
swung her legs over the side of the bed and slid onto the floor,
walking across the room to pick out an outfit. "I can't think of
anything I'd rather do."
Orli grinned and slipped out of bed
also. "We can go whenever we're ready."
Jenn paused,
halfway through pulling on a lightweight, simple cotton T-shirt.
"What if someone else is up there already?"
Orli looked
puzzled. "Such as…?"
"Such as someone else from
your family?" Jenn suggested.
"Nobody's there,"
Orli responded carelessly. "I would know if someone was in the
country."
"Should we grab some lunch on the way there?"
Jenn asked.
"That might be a good idea," Orli answered,
yanking a shirt on and stepping into a pair of shorts. "How do
you feel about fast food?"
Jenn shrugged. "Whatever
works. Are we having a nice dinner?" she added as an
afterthought.
"Nothing but the best for my wife," Orli
told her, with a mock-formal bow in her direction.
Jenn laughed,
unable to think up a clever response.
They drove down to the
riverfront. The trip took nearly an hour, but Jenn stared out the
window and enjoyed the scenery most of the way, talking almost
nonstop as she did so.
"So don't you have a new movie coming
out soon?" she asked innocently.
Orli glanced over at her.
"You seem to already know the answer."
Jenn's whole face
lit up. "Can we go together to see it?"
"No,"
Orli said firmly. "Absolutely not. No. Stop that. I have
to watch the road. No, no, no! I will not give in to the cute little
puppy face. No!"
Jenn slunk down in her seat and stared out
the window again. Orli sighed. "All right. Fine. We'll go see
the movie. But I will not watch it. I will sit there and… and… I
will not watch."
Jenn grinned, sitting upright again. "What's
it called again?"
Orli rolled his eyes. "Pirates of
the Caribbean."
"Sounds intriguing," Jenn told
him, trying not to giggle madly. "So when exactly did you film
this? I remember some last summer and into the fall, but you've
mostly been working on Ned Kelly lately."
"We
film a long time in advance," Orli explained. "I shot a lot
of this last spring, and finished up in early fall. I actually had to
beg for a month off so we could have our wedding and
honeymoon."
Jenn's response was simple. "I'm glad you
did."
Orli reached over to squeeze her hand. "I always
have time for you. I threatened to walk out if they refused to give
me the time off."
Jenn was touched. "I didn't know you
cared."
"None of that," Orli reprimanded, sounding
very much like Michelle did when she was about to begin a lecture on
self-confidence, and Jenn's lack thereof. "I think marrying you
should have told you I cared. By the way, after the wedding last
year, Michelle told me you were convinced I was marrying you out of
pity?"
"That rat," Jenn muttered, and shrugged,
slightly embarrassed. Her husband and friends provided her with much
self-esteem, but there was still something to be desired. Jenn had no
idea what she was waiting for, but she did know that her hard-earned
self-confidence tended to abandon her at the most inappropriate of
times. She determinedly shook it off and gave her husband an
apologetic look. "I was just nervous. I didn't really mean it.
I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to be sorry for,"
Orli answered gently. "I just don't want to think you think I
don't care about you."
Jenn sighed. "I know you do. It's
just…"
Orli waited. When he realized she wasn't going to
finish, he prodded her with, "It's just… what?"
"It's…
nothing. I don't know. Oh, I'm being stupid. Let's just enjoy our
first anniversary," Jenn declared.
Orli pulled into the
driveway of a large, three-story house surrounded by elaborate
gardens. Jenn jumped out of the car almost before Orli had rolled it
to a stop. She loved the property. Everything about it was so
beautiful. Jenn was not an outdoorsy type of person, but she did love
those gardens.
She rushed toward the bench where she and Orli had
wished each other a happy New Year. Though she wasn't sure how she
knew which bench it was, she knew. The wind whipped past her as she
sprinted across the soft grass, bending in submission to her
presence. She laughed out loud as she felt the sun warming her face
and heard Orli behind her, chasing her. Let him chase her. Let him
run. She was Jenn and she was unstoppable.
They both collapsed on
the bench, laughing, breathless. Jenn grinned up at Orli through the
windblown hair flying across her face. "You couldn't catch up
with me!" she cried gleefully.
Orli lunged as if to tickle
her. "I think I just did!"
Jenn rolled away, sensing his
intended action. "Only because I stopped!" she yelled,
wildly exhilarated. She gasped and clutched wildly at the bench as
she rolled right off it, landing in the grass with her hand pressing
into the rough edges of the marble.
Orli reached over and tucked
her hair behind her ear before graciously pulling her to her feet. "I
would have caught you in ten more seconds anyway," he declared,
sounding quite sure of himself.
Jenn sneered. "You couldn't
catch me if you had a hundred horses to ride and ten thousand men to
help you out and a car in case the horses…"
Orli covered
her mouth with his hand. "Jenn, you're talking nonsense."
She
pulled away, looking playfully insulted. "I am not!"
"Are
you hearing yourself?"
"Yes!"
"Well, are
you actually listening?"
"Yeah!"
Orli grinned,
shaking his hair, still damp from a quick shower, out of his face. "I
worry about you sometimes, Jenn."
Jenn burst out
laughing.
"This is one of those times I'm worrying about
you," he informed her, alarmed. Had he missed a joke?
Jenn
only laughed harder. Orli stared down at her, eyebrows raised, then
shrugged and gave up. Looking at her made him laugh, too. He didn't
know why, and he doubted she did either. But he hadn't laughed like
that in a long time.
He
chased her for a while, and then she suddenly turned around and
chased after him. He let her catch up, and she ran right into his
arms, knocking them both over. It didn't bother either of them in the
slightest.
They ran barefoot through the gardens, sometimes
stopping to rest on marble and stone benches. Orli collected several
of the choicest flowers and presented them to Jenn with a bow. She
clapped her hands gleefully as she accepted them and gave him a kiss
in return. He pulled a small flower from the ground and tucked it
behind her ear; she seized his hand and pulled it around her, and
then they kissed again.
They barely noticed when it started to
rain. They kept running, as if sprinting in circles would take them
far away. When the rain became a downpour, Jenn stopped running and
stretched her arms wide, letting her mouth hang open to catch
raindrops. Suddenly, she found herself looking at Orli instead of the
sky. "You're blocking my raindrops!" she yelped,
indignant.
Orli pretended to look hurt. "Would you rather
have raindrops or me?"
"I'd rather have you," she
answered quickly, and it was true. She hurried to add, "But I
can't quite reach you."
He bent down, his mouth merging with
hers.
Only when it started to thunder and flash lightning did they
realize they had better go inside.
Orli blasted the air
conditioning. Jenn was confused as to why he would make it so cold,
but couldn't deny that it was a nice change from the monotonous heat
of summer; even the current storm made for intolerably humid weather.
Still she shivered, involuntarily. He went into a back room, deaf to
her questions, and came out with a thick woolen blanket, which he
wrapped lovingly around her before going off to boil water for hot
chocolate.
Jenn had to admit it was nice to be cold and sip hot
chocolate in the middle of June. Though not a fan of winter, she
missed curling up by the fire on winter nights, and cuddling extra
close to stay warm, as she hadn't done for months. It was better than
any fancy restaurant, and she told him so.
"I do my best,"
he said with an embarrassed sort of laugh, not wanting lavish praise
heaped on him. "I had a craving for hot chocolate anyway."
"So
did I," Jenn admitted, wiping the drink from around her mouth.
"But it's just so hot out, I never would have thought of
this."
Orli waved his hand, as if to also wave aside the
praise. "Sure you would have."
"No," Jenn
insisted. "You're really something, you know that?"
"I
don't know about that," Orli answered carefully, "but
thanks." He laughed suddenly. "I guess you don't remember
it, but you've mentioned several times how you wish it were colder
out, I suppose partly because you're always overheated these days.
Once, I mentioned hot chocolate to you, and you practically jumped at
me, as if you thought I had some."
Jenn was puzzled. "How
is it that I have no memory of this?"
Orli looked down
quickly, but was too slow to hide his grin. "You were asleep.
Actually, this was something of an impulse. We can turn the air down
whenever you want."
Jenn, wrapped in her blanket, snuggled
closer to him on the plush couch. "I think I'm doing all right
for now. It's a welcome change."
Orli draped his arm around
her, his chin resting on her head.
By
the time Jenn finally grew cold enough to want to turn the air down,
her hot chocolate was long finished and Orli had disappeared beneath
a thick flannel blanket. Jenn's hand hovered over the control unit,
suddenly reluctant to make it any warmer than it was. She'd been so
overheated for months now, and, glancing at Orli, she realized what
her husband was sacrificing to make her more comfortable.
She
shook her head with a grin. She had the sweetest husband in the
world, and it was time to do him a favor. She turned the air down and
returned to the couch where he sat.
As soon as he heard her
return, Orli slowly poked his head out from under his blanket,
grinning up at her in a way Jenn found comparable to the smile of a
newborn baby. "I made it warmer," she told him, proud of
herself.
He smiled. "But now you'll be too hot," he
protested halfheartedly.
"Nah, I'm fine," Jenn declared.
She pulled him into a big bear hug. "Besides, you've been too
cold."
"I was fine," Orli insisted, but Jenn
laughed. "You were completely holed up under a huge blanket,"
she reminded him. "Don't worry about me, it's still cool in
here."
Orli sat upright, setting aside his blanket as
relatively warm air seeped through the house. "Hey, the babies
were due yesterday, weren't they?" he asked, not sounding
alarmed, but rather surprised.
"Yeah, they were," Jenn
answered. "Are you worried?"
"Not if you're not,"
Orli murmured, pulling her closer. "I trust your
instincts."
Jenn frowned, thinking of the time Orli had
rushed her to the hospital for what turned out to be no reason. Orli,
guessing her thoughts, laughed at the miffed looked on her face. "But
at least we knew there was no reason to be alarmed that time, instead
of wondering if you were about to give birth in the middle of the
living room," he told her. His face grew pensive. "So what
have we decided on for names, exactly?"
Jenn absently tapped
her finger against the arm of the couch, frowning as she strained to
remember. It was silly to forget- imagine being unable to remember
her children's names!- but for some reason they weren't jumping to
mind. "I liked Jayme and Brian, I think. And you liked Allyson,
didn't you? I don't want Brian anymore. I want Allyson."
Orli
burst out laughing. "Babies are not interchangeable. Besides,
you can't change a baby's name to Allyson if you've planned to name
it Brian. One's a girl and the other's a boy, Jenn," he
explained earnestly.
Jenn frowned as she pushed away his hand,
which had been creeping towards hers. The playful note in her voice
contradicted her harsh action. "Well, I still like Allyson. You
were right. Allyson is better than Jayme. And Brian doesn't sound so
good with Bloom. Someone said that it did. But they were
wrong."
"That might have been me," Orli cut in. "So
I was right on one count and wrong on another. I'd say they cancel
each other out."
It was Jenn's turn to look thoughtful. "I've
always wanted a girl named Allyson Michelle. It has nothing to do
with our Michelle," she added, anticipating his question as he
opened his mouth. "I just love the name. Allyson Michelle
Bloom."
"It's nice," Orli agreed, surprised to
arrive at a peaceful solution. "But it's also only one name,"
he added as an afterthought. "We need four."
Jenn
frowned. "You come up with something."
Orli thought for
a moment. "I can't think of any other names for girls. You liked
Jayme before, didn't you? I mean, I know you like Allyson better, but
Jayme's a good name too."
"Do we want middle names?"
Jenn asked. "You don't have one."
"I suppose they'd
be fine, but it depends on baby names," Orli remarked. "We
don't want a huge name that would take an hour to say."
"I
thought we liked a lot of two-syllable names," Jenn said,
straining to remember that long-ago afternoon when she, Orli and Josh
had sat and argued about baby names as if there were nothing more
important in the world. That had been before the car wreck, before
Michelle's miscarriage, before Jenn's false alarm, before Jenn had
fully realized that she would love her children even if their names
were not her favorites. She mulled over that one for a few silent
minutes as Orli sat watching her, absorbed in his own thoughts.
Finally she spoke. "I've always liked the name Jocelyn, but I
know you're not crazy about that."
Orli chose his words
carefully, trying to avoid what he clearly anticipated as an
argument. "It's not a bad name, but no, I'm not crazy about it.
I do like Allyson, though. If we only have one girl, that's my
choice."
Jenn glanced up hopefully. "Do you like
Michelle as a middle name, too?"
"It goes well with
Allyson," he answered. "And we know it's a great name,"
he added with a grin. "I like that."
"But what if
we have two girls?" Jenn fretted. "And what about boys?"
"I
like Justin and Daniel for boys' names, and I don't know about other
girls."
Jenn spoke seriously. "I was thinking- if you
agree- of giving any boys your name as their middle name. We could
have Justin Orlando, maybe. I just think it makes a good name. Maybe
it's not best with Justin, but I love your name."
Orli
laughed, pleased. "Thank you, but I don't know about that. We're
not giving girls your middle name, are we? That's a thought, though…"
he added.
Jenn wrinkled her nose. "We already have one girl's
name, and we like Jayme. Jayme Nance doesn't sound so good."
"True,"
Orli reflected, "but if we come up with another name…."
He trailed off into silence.
"I like Nicholas as a boy's
name," Jenn volunteered, "and it sounds pretty good with
Bloom."
"Nicholas Bloom," Orli mused. "I like
that."
"Justin's nice too," Jenn said, anxious to
agree with him for a change. "And Daniel's a good name."
Orli
smiled. "Well, we have all our choices… Now we just have to
wait and see what happens!"
Jenn laughed. "I feel like
we should write them down or something, in case we forget."
Orli
started laughing too. "Imagine our children being ten years old
and we forget their names!"
Jenn looked mock offended. "I
think we'd remember by then. I'm actually picturing us in the
hospital, and the nurses asking what our babies' names are, and us
standing there looking at each other and trying to remember."
Orli
seized a pen and pad off the end table nearest him and pulled it
towards him. "Let's see…" he began, clicking open the
pen. "Allyson Michelle," he dictated to himself as he
wrote. "Justin… Daniel… Jocelyn… Nicholas… Jayme. Did I
miss any?" he asked, glancing up.
Jenn tucked a rebellious
lock of hair behind her ear. "I think that covers it." She
yawned and stretched. "I don't want to talk about baby names
anymore. Let's do something."
"Such as…?" Orli
questioned.
Jenn checked her watch. "It's almost five-thirty!
How did it get so late?"
Orli looked up at the clock over the
fireplace, startled. He had no idea where the day had gone.
"What
did you say we're doing for dinner?" Jenn asked, subconsciously
placing a hand over her stomach.
"A friend at a restaurant
not far from here offered to cook for us," Orli told her
distractedly. "I told him we'd call between five and six to
order." He tugged two menus, buried under a centerpiece of
artificial flowers, off the coffee table in front of him, presenting
one to Jenn and diving into the other. "Knock yourself
out."
Jenn looked as though she very much wanted to comment
at his choice of words, but resisted the urge.
