Your Diary

By: Lakija X

Author's Notes: FINALLY! It's about time! My story is so going to continue full fledge now. I've been very busy, with school, ad Avatar stories and all that. But I'm back! Thankies for reviewing. Me is happy!

Mutsuki: We Are Eternal

It was early in the morning the next day. Miraculously, I had fallen asleep in the atrium of the house. There's no real reason I fell asleep in the rain. I had wandered about the house consumed with grief, and I think that I fainted whilst searching the atrium for solace.

When I awoke, I was soaking wet. Obviously, everyone thought I was in a room somewhere. When I'd gone to sleep, I had a terrible dream. Have you ever dreamt so that you feel as if you are doing things in the dream? I felt that way. The dream was in the village, under the Whispering Bridge. She had on an abnormally long uchikake (formal Kimono). The skirts of it trailed behind Mio like a stream of blood.

I was underwater. Mio was walking on top of the water above me. She was getting farther and farther away. I saw Yankou in front of me, holding a vial of something red. I remembered it from the cleansing. Venom.

Yankou's frighteningly long hair was vividly, if purposefully, placed over his face. It was so bloodcurdling, the way I could not see his eyes, those same eyes that had taunted me so each time my voice reached Yae's ears

Yankou's hand reached for the cork that was holding back the poison. I stared at him. Mio's feet ceased movement. She turned around, and with supernatural speed, appeared back over me. Yankou pulled the cork. The red substance shot out through the water. At that moment, I opened my mouth to scream, but the water blocked my voice.

I struggled with the water, but the venom in the vial turned into red hands that grasped my neck. Yankou and Mio vanished. Instead, Itsuki appeared above me atop the water. There was blood seeping from his neck, a red rope hanging forlornly from his throat. Itsuki was on his knees, crying.

The hands around my throat tightened. I tried to breathe…

I'm sure you're tired of this dream… All I have to tell you is that no matter how tight the hands were, no matter how terrifying Yankou looked, no matter how confusing Mio's presence was, the only thing that left a vivid memory seared to my mind was the sight of my dear brother. I couldn't get the image out of my head. I awoke with is lingering in front of me.

It was still raining when I awoke. The drops of water hit my face. I raised my eyes toward the sun. It wasn't there. Was this a sign?

As you can imagine, one side of my face was muddy. I felt weak as I made a move to stand. My mind whirred as I tried to make sense of fainting in the atrium.

Of course, I was found by Ayane. She commented that she'd had nightmares last night too. She told me about it while she led me to the Hinasaki house. Even though it was slightly past five o'clock, I was allowed the shower on the second floor. After the steamy pleasure, I made my way down the hall. On my way, I caught a glimpse of my beloved brother asleep in his room.

I longed to wake him up

For almost two centuries, I'd wanted badly to talk to my brother. To speak with him. I'd tried to at the village, but it was as if every time I did, the red butterflies would appear and carry me away.

My emotions were at a game of tug-of-war. The longing side won. I walked into the room.

My hands grazed the side of Itsuki's face. I used to wake him that way for years, since I was about three. Itsuki's eyelids fluttered. I saw distinct red lines on Itsu-chan's throat. Suicide. Marks of suicide.

I realized what he must be feeling.

"Itsuki-chan… Tsuko-chan?" I called softly, using his childhood nickname. Itsuki frowned, turning toward me.

"Hm?" he groaned. I smiled. Silly…

"It's me. Mutsuki," I whispered. Itsuki opened his eyes slowly, trying to focus on me. His brows furrowed.

"Mutsu-kun?" he asked.

"Yes…" I replied. I felt my lower lip tremble.

Itsuki threw back the covers slowly. Then he sat up, staring at me as if I were unreal. My body wouldn't move.

Itsuki stood up. I was slightly shorter than he because of a previous leg injury I'd had. Perhaps my shortness was due to the way I was standing. I tried to straighten myself.

After a little bit of effort, We were the same height.

We were standing in front of each other, looking into each other's eyes. I always wondered why Itsuki's eyes were blue… and mine gray. Otherwise, I was staring at a mirror. Itsuki's eye's filled with tears.

"Brother… it's you. It's-" he broke off, falling into my arms. Suddenly, we embraced as if we were clinging to the side of a cliff. This time however, no one was going to fall into the darkness.

My arms went numb as I held Itsuki. I heard a murmuring as Itsuki began to sob. He started to fall to the ground. I had to support his weight, because then his knees crumpled. I got down to my knees as well to be at eye level with him. My heart shattered at my brother's sorrow.

"I'm sorry. So sorry…Forgive me please!" he exclaimed. I did a double take.

"What?" I asked. Itsuki did not answer.

"Itsuki! There is nothing to forgive you for. You did what was expected of you."

Itsuki still sobbed. Not so much uncontrolled now, but frustrated sobs.

"No! I killed you! I couldn't even make you into a butterfly…Then, with Yae and Sae… I felt so alone after they left me too… I would be sucked up into the Abyss. So…" Itsuki threw up his arms, letting them fall back down, "I killed myself first."

I closed my mouth. I realized that it must have been open in awe.

"Itsuki please."

"No! It was all my fault. None of this would have happened had I just… been… able to do what I was told."

Itsuki looked at the ground. A few tears that were left fell to the ground.

I suddenly scooped him into an embrace. His face shone with surprise.

"You are… not mad at me?" he asked.

"Never. Nothing was your fault. Even if it was, I would never be angry at you. You are my twin, my brother. You are my protector. And I protect you too. We have been together since birth," I assured him.

Itsuki looked at me, his eyes still red. I'd never in my life seen him this way. He was always… so strong.

"Itsuki. Tsuko-chan. Do you see hatred in my soul? Does my soul have a shred of anger inside? Tell me, because you must see that I love you Tsuko-chan."

Itsuki looked into my eyes deeply. I knew that this was killing him, but he needed to see that I loved him so much.

"I see… no hatred…" he choked.

"That's right. I'm here to heal the deep wounds that All God's Village has left upon you neck, your soul."

Itsuki hugged me back, putting his head on my chest.
"Thank you… oniichan…(big brother)"

I gasped. We hugged so tightly, that I thought I would explode.

I'd never in my life… heard myself addressed as Itsuki's older brother. Never. I was always the youngest… But… we were leaving All God's Village, and it's rules behind.

A/N: That was so touching. I almost died. I love brotherly love. That's all it is. Very good, I think. Man! I live for stuff like that!

Next chapter… We'll see what I can muster, o-k-k-k? lol

Lakija X3