Revan settled their tab, preparing herself for the lashing she was about to receive from Carth. Exiting the cantina in silence, the last traces of daylight leaving the sky, they headed back towards The Rubicon.

For a brief moment Revan believed there wouldn't be an encounter as they continued their walk in silence. That thought was quickly dashed as Carth's castigation began.

"Just what game are you playing now Revan?"

"Game? What in the galaxy do you mean Carth? He had nowhere else to go, he has information that might be helpful. We can help each other!"

"And we just met him! Now he's invited to stay on our ship. We know nothing about him."

"And that's how we assembled half the crew on the Ebon Hawk, if you remember!"

"Yeah and the last time we had a stranger on our ship he stole our children. If you remember!"

"Carth, you don't know for certain that they are 'our' kids. Right now they are mine. And yes, I remember!" she glared at him, biting back the fury she was feeling while he seemed to hold back from saying something in reply. Not now Onasi, now isn't the time for that discussion with Revan.

"I don't like this. I don't trust him!"

She stopped, feigning a shocked expression, "Really?" Her dramatics continued, "Oh, what a surprise!"

Seeing he wasn't even slightly amused, her demeanor changed, "Well, I happen to trust him. I feel like this is the right decision!"

His patience seemed to evaporate, "Revan! You just continue to make one bad decision after another!"

Fury rose in her, both at him and his harsh words that rang in her head. "You got that right!" Now that she was started she couldn't stop, "Like not protecting Aaron and Ariana, telling you about them, letting you back into my life."

Carth's fists were clenching at his side, but try as he might, he couldn't prevent the words that came from his mouth, "Try this instead - Parading around as a dark Jedi, desiring to kill people for no reason, deceiving me so you could carry out your little scheme!"

The thoughts running through her mind came out in her voice, "Just what the force are you talking about?" but she was not hearing her own words, nor waiting for a reply from him.

Glimmers, flashes of events played through her head. She felt the raw emotions with each image as they came and left, replaced by another snippet that was as short lived as the last. It was like watching a holovid, but one that made no sense. The events did not seem to follow a pattern.

She was standing on the Fore Runner, the scout was with her, she was wearing dark Jedi robes, she was locked in a heated kiss with Carth, a red light saber was held at Malaks head. 'Darth Revan', the words echoed around the images.

Carth watched as her eyes glazed over, rolling back into her head before she collapsed. "Oh frack, not again!"

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"Smooth Onasi, real smooth."

She could hear Carth's words distantly but she refused to open her eyes. I'm not ready to face him, not ready to face anyone. I need to figure this out.

She remained as she was, letting her thoughts guide her as she kept her eyes clasped shut.

Those images, they were me. Memories, but not all from my dark past. No, they couldn't be, Carth was there and the Scout. When did I meet with him?

Think Revan, why are they so foggy? Carth said I did awful things, does this confirm that? Even though I don't remember? But the emotions I felt, they are the same ones that plague me after my dreams, when my memories come back. Whenever I try to remember things.

These must be some of the events I have been trying to remember. Frack, I'm a schizophrenic. Do I really act like that? What have I done? Carth believes I've deceived him.

Oh force, this is why he has been acting so strange. Nice choice of words there, try more like hostile, cold, uncaring. But no wonder, I know how important trust is to him. This must be killing him. What have I done? How have I deceived him?

Have I physically hurt him? Wow, he's rubbing off on me, now I'm a paranoid schizophrenic! Okay, let's think Revan, when did this start?

A smile grew from a small grin to a completely encompassing feature on her face, Don't ask me, ask the other personality. Disbelief at her absurd thought in the middle of her current discoveries made her smile burst forth into a full blown laugh as it danced through her head. No more than a split second passed before she felt Carth's presence over her.

Reluctantly, she opened her eyes, "Sorry, just thinking disturbing thoughts."

She saw the concern that left his eyes when she opened hers, and how quickly it returned after she spoke.

"Don't worry," she raised her hand in a dismissive gesture. "I'm not going to go Dark Jedi on you." She grinned, letting her eyes focus, a bit shocked to realize that she was lying in the middle of the street.

"Well, I'm glad." The smile came out but they both knew it was forced, "For a minute I thought you were gone again." He was eyeing her wearily and she knew she wouldn't be able to escape this easily.

"Well, technically, I was, but I know the route now. Decreases the odds of getting lost." She displayed a forced grin that matched his previous one while he looked pained. "Relax it was just a joke."

She forced another smile, "Care to help me up? I feel like a fool lying here in the middle of the street. Not that it's the only reason I feel like a fool."

Carth grabbed her outstretched hands and pulled her to a standing position. Taking a few minutes to make sure she was steady before releasing his grip.

"Thanks!" she took a few careful steps, slowly at first but her pace picked up when she became sure of her footing, acting as if nothing had happened.

Carth caught up to her, falling in step by her side, "You going to tell me what that was all about?"

She seemed to consider this for a moment, "Not really, not until I figure it out myself."

"So that's it? In the middle of our discussion you pass out and I'm supposed to just drop it?" he asked incredulously.

"Yep, pretty much." She didn't miss a step.

"I don't think so!"

"Look, I'm the one who is persistent, not you. So just drop it, okay?"

"Woman, you infuriate me!"

"Glad to see I haven't lost my touch." She winked at him before bursting out in full blown laughter.

The glance he gave her said that this wasn't over, but he remained silent. A wave of relief washed over her, glad that the debate had ended on a light note instead of the angry words that seemed to be the end result of more than a few of their recent conversations. And I got my way, Treg's coming with us. She smiled to herself.