Carth had gone over their route, even had a few backup courses ready, in case of trouble, if they had to fly under the radar. There wasn't much left to do, except think. Think about Revan and how he couldn't bring himself to trust her anymore. Even when he knew she was the same person he remembered.

The arm thing, it would have been funny before, easy enough to see a time when he would have found the gesture so alluring, that she had wanted him so badly she would play a trick like that on him. Things were different now though, the damage had already been done, and there was no way he could get past that, to enjoy her effort at bringing him to her mercy.

The way she looked after … I crushed her. I know I did. But what am I supposed to do?

The controls lit up, signifying an incoming message and Carth could feel his heart racing as he secured the transmission. Dammit Juhani, it's about time!

"Communication secured" the droid spurred. Carth hit the button, letting himself fall back into a seat as he did so.

The image of Juhani appeared before him and she began to speak almost immediately.

"I have tracked the ship to its destination but I do not have much more to report right now. I'll begin my exploration and contact you again afterwards. I would have made contact sooner but this area is riddled with Sith. I was unsure if it would be safe. Even now I worry, so we must be brief. I am anxious to hear how things are going with Revan."

Carth ran a hand through his hair, "Not good. Juhani, I can't do this. She's falling, I realize that now, and I'm trying but…"

The holovid gave her a less then in-person impression but she noticed the bags that had formed under his eyes. He looked ragged, hurt and she couldn't help but wonder what exactly had been happening in her absence.

"I know this is hard for you Carth. What other signs has she exhibited?"

"Frack Juhani, almost everything noteworthy is a sign. But, I can't help but wonder, before, on the quest for the Star Forge, would it have seemed the same way?"

"You know that answer, her actions then did not speak of any darkness. How are her actions now compared to them?"

His hand ran through his hair again and he brought both hands up to rest against his chin. "She, uh, she tried to alter the deal during the ship exchange." No way I'm going to tell you that she was wearing dark Jedi robes. Carth shifted uneasily. Why do I continue to protect her?

"In what way?" was her simple response.

"What way do you think?" He sighed, realizing how important those words were. No, she isn't acting like she did on the Star Forge mission. She wanted to kill them, did everything in her power to bring it about. Why she revealed her plan to me I'll never know, but at least it saved the incident from happening.

"Carth? And after, how was she right after?"

Carth felt himself filled with regret and embarrassment when he replied, "I don't honestly know. I was disgusted, upset." My pride was hurt. "I avoided her until we landed on Triantean'k."

He noted the scowl on Juhanis' face before he continued, "We got in a fight before we met with the contact. Who, by the way, told us nothing, even when Revan was more than a bit aggressive. I had to pull her away, she would have… it doesn't matter now."

"And the others?" she asked.

"One is right here, on the ship. He thinks there is a laboratory being established and he knows someone who might be able to tell us more. We'll be heading there in a few more days."

"Do you trust him?"

"You know the answer to that, but Revan seems to."

"You still trust her instincts?"

His hand washed over his face, "I guess, sometimes."

"So that is it? I know there are things you aren't telling me. Although I am not sure if it is because you refuse to admit them to yourself or if you simply are choosing to not express them to me."

"Juhani, look, it's personal. I haven't exactly been able to remain a gentleman. I love her and at the same time … I can see what she is becoming and it scares me. I avoid her because it tests everything I have, but there are times when she is just Revan, the Revan I know. I, honestly, I don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I should be doing this. My thoughts are conflicting. You'll never be able to understand." He finished, regretting that he had revealed so much, but it was good to let it out. To let out some of what he had been feeling, even though it didn't begin to touch the surface of it all. Revan had taught him that much. When he brought the children into it, well, that was just more than he could deal with right now. He was tired, so tired of fighting against himself, for what he knew in his heart.

"I know I am asking a lot Carth, but you know how high the stakes are. Do not give up on her. Try not to let your hate overshadow your love."