Her head shook as she heard his words, As sure as I stand here they are MY kids! Yours and mine, slowly at first but then it gained momentum and it was rocking violently back and forth, "Carth, what are you saying? There is no way you could know -"

His voice rushed on, interrupting hers, "Juhani, she told me, she found out what really happened. At first I didn't believe it myself, but, what you thought happened was never accurate. You were never seduced by Malak. He injected you with some fracking mind restoring implant. It's been twisting you, your emotions, your thoughts." Suddenly unsure of himself, "If, if what you said before was true, that I was the only one … then there is no doubt. Revan, Aaron and Ariana are our son and daughter."

"Oh" was all she could say as she collapsed into the chair. She felt a cleansing wash over her, she was never defiled, at least not in the manner she had thought all these years. This changes everything, Carth is their father. Her heart did somersaults of joy while her mind continued to race. They aren't tainted by two evil parents, all these years I thought … No, not two evil parents Revan, just one. Just you.

Her heart stopped, suddenly realizing all she had sacrificed on just that one belief, the one stupid Jedi prophecy that had guided her. Treg's words came back to her but now she knew that she had not run from Carth solely because of that one guilt, but instead because of the many that she thought were true. Now he was telling her that most of them weren't true, weren't accurate.

If I would have known then that they were his! That I wasn't invaded by Malak, that my children weren't some Jedi prophecy. Her joy was faultering, folding in upon itself, leaving room for anger. An anger that was quickly replacing everything, coursing through her veins, screaming in her head. The Jedi destroyed my life again and this time they destroyed more than just my future. Aarons future, with a father who would have loved him. Ariana, who would have been the pride and joy of an overbearing father. Carth, who would have known the joy of their first steps, their first words. How would he have influenced them? How would their lives be different? How would his? How different would mine have been if he was there when they were born? Another past I can't get back, because of them, the Jedi – the damn thorn in my backside for all of my life!

She had to lash out, the rage was boiling within her with such force that she couldn't contain it any longer. It needed an escape or else it would swallow her whole. She looked around, the fury evident with every gesture, every limb, every word, as she sought out the only person able to receive her lashing, "Why did you keep this from me? How long have you known?" she screamed out.

Carth watched as her face became tormented. Deep regret settled around him as he tried to make amends for the brutal way he had bestowed this information upon her. "Revan, listen to me. Together, we will find them. Together."

His words were too late, everything was too late as she slowly digested what he had told her, "No. I don't believe you! You have always been afraid to trust others and now you slap me in the face, with the most important thing in my life. And you follow that up with telling me I had some fracking implant in my mind that is –" her brows crossed into a deep v, He knew and he didn't care to tell me. Her face was riddled with confusion, He let me deal with this, when I had no understanding of what was happening to me, but he knew! Why Carth, why did you keep this from me? Why the hell wouldn't he tell me – unless, unless he was truly afraid. He was afraid of what I would become. He was using me to find Aaron and Ariana. And then he was going to take them away, away from me.

The thought of being betrayed so ruthlessly by the man she loved tore away at her very soul. Her eyes grew cold and heartless, "Everything I have been going through and you KNEW ALL Along!" She jumped up suddenly, wild antics displaying themselves, "How could you! What else do you know Onasi? What else aren't you telling me?" She pushed away from the table, "Just get away and stay away. Right now I hate you!"

"GOOD!" he shouted, thinking perhaps this was the way to make her see reason, "Then you know exactly how I feel!" She stared at him, totally dumbfounded, a small part of her unable to believe the words he was saying, even though she had just been saying them to herself in one way or another.

He moved around the table, closing the distance, "You have been deceiving me, playing with me and doing everything that stops just short of lying to me outright." He grabbed her by the arm, "But still I refuse to give up on you. DO NOT give up on me!" He stared into her eyes and finally she had to turn away, closing hers as she did.

Carth waited, hoping she would turn around, hoping for anything from her. Resting a gentle hand on her chin he tried to bring her to face him but she refused. Letting a few more minutes pass, he finally gave a sigh before leaving her there, making his way down the corridor to the cockpit. Anger, whether at himself or at her, or perhaps both, radiating from every step he took.

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Carth steeled himself for what he was about to do, what he had to do. He hit the central communications button and began his message to the crew, "Rubicon has just entered the planets atmosphere. I'll have to secure our landing soon. Treg, it might be best if you were up here for that." He broke off the communication, determined to keep his personal feelings aside. At least I won't be alone with him, if I had to be alone with him I don't know what I would do, but Revan won't allow that. I'm glad for that. Carth knew Revan would hear his message, providing her presence during the transmission to approve their landing. She wasn't obvious, but still he knew, despite how she tried to hide it, that she had not left either him or Treg out of her sight since that ill-fated day. When she told me she kissed him!

His mind began to wander as he waited for them to approach the cockpit. How could Revan tell Treg everything! Why didn't she show more caution after what happened with the scout? Is their relationship that strong? Force, did they … NO! She said it was only a kiss. Just a kiss. Onasi you are letting yourself … but what happens during the time when Revan isn't eyeing me warily? Where did she go for comfort after I stupidly told her everything in such a loathsome manner? How could I have been so cruel? Damn me and my fracking pride! I dump that on her and then just leave. Maybe it was only a kiss before, but now…

"You needed me?" Treg replied nonchalantly as he settled into the co-pilots seat.

"That's not exactly what I said. But now that you're here…" he looked around, "Where's Revan?"

Treg smirked, "I believe she was on Onasi duty, since I don't recall catching a glimpse of her the past hour and you were the last person I saw her with, after I was so rudely abolished from the galley."

Carth couldn't help the glare he sent back in Treg's direction, So he knows she's been watching both of us. You're loosing your touch Revan. He smiled to himself, Or maybe not, you wanted us to know didn't you?

"Afraid not, I figured it was your turn since I haven't seen her watchful eye since we - ." He suddenly stopped as the realization dawned on both of them that neither had seen Revan. They looked at each for only a second before they both rose in unison, exiting the cockpit and rushing towards her quarters.