Post-High Fidelity. Continues from Craig looking over at Ashley and Ellie. Total Crash story! Point of views in each chapter will alternate between Craig and Ashley, though I will specify before each chapter.
This is my attempt at fixing the mess the Degrassi writer's have made of Craig and Ashley's relationship since Going Down the Road (though I don't discount that they may fix it themselves sooner or later! )). None of the character's are mine. This will have some Cranny in the beginning, and I'll try to be as nice to them as possible. But this will end up a Crash story. Dedicated to my fellow Angsty Artists at fan forum; especially Nikki, Ria, and Kathy! ) My first fic that totally took me by surprise because I never thought I would write anything really! Reviews are extremely appreciated!
Chapter 1: Carbon
Craig's point of view.
Song credit: "Carbon" by Tori Amos (in italics)
carbon-made found her at the end of a chain
"time to race" she said "race the downhill"
When I first saw her, I forgot everything. Forgot where I was, why I was there, and what I was doing. Ashley Kerwin. God it felt like decades since I last saw her. Her hair is longer and she's dressed differently in a cream colored sweater, much more feminine than last year. She looks so completely beautiful that I think I might die. Die from her beauty; die from the happiness that her mere presence has filled into my heart. I was so happy to see her again, she was all I could see; then I realized that Ellie was there too. Oh, and I'm at the graduation of the classmates that I had been going to school with for four years now. Except I'm not up there with them, and neither is she. Funny thing that turned out to be. My first reaction was to smile, what had to have been a really goofy smile, and wave. She smiled back at me, that same smile she gave to me at her father's wedding and then mouthed "I love you", I half expected her to do it again. But she didn't, she just kept smiling. And I found myself starting to get lost in her eyes.
behind crystalline irises
loons can dive
where the world bleeds white
The spell was broken when she looked away and at Ellie. Her smile faded and she looked back to me. This time she didn't smile. Now she's looking down and they stand there not really doing anything. I half wonder why the sudden change but I can't let myself worry about that right now. Because she's here. She's real. Or, at least I think she is. I keep staring as if that might clear things up.
just keep your eyes on her
keep don't look away
keep your eyes on her horizon
In the back of my mind I think about how my current, and very real, girlfriend is standing right in front of me chatting away with her friend Emma and other classmates. I realize that she can turn around at any moment and catch me watching Ashley, but I just can't help myself. I suddenly remember how Ash left me for London and that she stayed there with some other guy, away from me. But it's not enough to tear my eyes away. I'll think about that later, right now I just want to keep looking at her.
and keep your eyes on her
keep don't look away
keep your eyes on her horizon
her horizon