Author note: Ok last time I write this, just to clear it up. Buffy was called at 13 because this is an AU story and I wanted her to experience things younger. Kind of gives her something in common with Harry. Ok guys. Thanks for your reviews, they make me update faster. Reviews are my muses. lol.
Oh and one question I am a little ahead and have a question, I have this idea about putting the key into this story (not Dawn of course) do you want the key to make an appearance, won't be till like chapter 12, but if not I have another way to go with it. And this isn't a ploy to get reviews I seriously want to know..
Dear Harry,
I guess you're probably wondering what has been happening to me. When we arrived in Sunnydale, I met my new watcher. He was very surprised to find out how young I was. Kind of funny that was. I didn't really want anything to do with him. Sure a part of me was kind of glad there was someone to help me but what if he leaves me.Giles that is his name, reminds me of you, even has the same sort of accent.
He trains me hard and I stay in shape, it is a good environment apart from the fact that I live on the hellmouth.Yes you read right. I live on an honest to god real hellmouth. A hellmouth basically attracts all kinds of demons.This last year has been surreal. Made some friends, they are nice, Xander and Willow and Jesse. Kinda geeky but fun geeky. Also made some enemies, Cordelia and her followers and all the sodden vamps. Notice my play on British words. You're like 11 now, so your growing up too bet you've done a lot since I have been gone. Dawn is a pain in the neck, she is worse than you were at 4, even though she is 7. Anyway back to the point. My gang doesn't know about the slayer that is me, and I hope to god it stays that way.
I think it would be hard trying to keep them out of danger and slaying. You know I still don't really know why in the world I am still writing like this. I mean I do have a diary I write in everyday but sometimes I look at piece paper, or I feel my necklace, well your necklace and I know I should update you on my life.It is a relief being able to tell someone about Slayer me and me me and not worry about them being in danger.
Anyway nothing of the major happens, most vamps defiantly don't suspect me but sometimes it gets tough and there is blood but I get by. Actually I will tell you a little secret, ok well a big one. There is this vampire named Angel. Don't freak out! He has a soul, so he is a good vampire. Lately he has been helping me out, nothing is happening so don't freak! We're just friends but my god, um forget that part (blush) I just, it is nice when he helps me and I don' t have to worry. Plus hello only 14 like that is so wrong.
But I still really wish you were here. I probably should get over that though cause it has been 2 years already.
Buffster
Dear Harry,
The strangest horribliest best bad thing happened on my birthday this year. Real bad. My friends and Giles surprised me with a well surprise 15th birthday party at the bronze which is like this underage bar thing. Anyway, so these vampires decide tonight was the night to attack me, idiots.
So yeah my friends, being my friends seemed to take this well cause they tried to help me. I managed to dust all of them or so I thought, but when I turned around Jesse was missing, Xander was holding a bloody hand to his throat and staring in shock and Willow well she was really pale and sitting on a chair. Things didn't go to smoothly after this. I had to tell them about me and then I went after the vamps that took Jesse, Xander of course came along, and we found Jesse.
I mean we really found Jesse, but he wasn't Jesse anymore, it was horrible totally and utterly. Xander managed to do what I could not. It must have been so hard having to dust someone you've known your whole life. I've only known him a year or so and I cried so much that night.
The only part about it that was good is now my friends know what I couldn't tell them. Our tight knit may have lost a member but now we are closer and know a secret no one else can know. The thing is, is that a bad thing or a good thing. I am trying to think it is positive but it is hard when they want to come patrolling with me, scares me that maybe I will turn around and they won't be there anymore.
Buffy
Dear Harry,
It shouldn't have happened. That is all there is to say. I should never have gone, I should have stuck with my guns. It is all Angels fault anyway.He is totally gorgeous but so not the point. He gave Giles the codex and found out the master was supposed to kill me and rise. I'm 15 bloody years old, I shouldn't have to face the master die for gods sake. Angel tried to comfort me, any other time, no prob. But I told them I quit, would have worked too. But no I have to get all bloody noble and go and save the f$king day.
Short story, master wouldn't have risen if it wasn't for my blood, I am the one that released him. He bit me, let me fall in this water and I drowned. And you're probably thinking if you drowned how in the world are you alive well see Xander saved me. Weird that, Xander actually saved my life, gave me CPR. So then I killed the bastard not Xander of course, the master. I just knew I could, don't know why. It was this strange feeling, kind of like being connected. I stared him straight in the face when he tried to work some mojo and pushed him ontoa big stake which a broken upturned table made.
I'm at my dads right now for the summer. I keep seeing it Harry. Myself dying. Images of the world, what it would have been like if I had died and not killed the master. All these images, it's like being awake when you're asleep. So yeah not exactly sleeping very well. Sometimes when I'm awake I imagine the people around as corpses, it freaks me out. The things I see, aren't meant to be seen by anyone let alone me.Everyone expects me to bounce back, be my old self. They keep calling and being all chirpy and asking when I am getting back but it is just soo... errgghh. I know not a word but try someone telling you you're going to die and there is nothing you can do to stop it and then there isn't anything you can do to stop it.I don't think there are enough words in the english language to describe how I am feeling right now. I just.. I just can't handle all this pressure.
Buffy