Author note: Screw it I am double updating. After the next chapter I promise the world of Harry Potter comes into this story. I hope you enjoy the double updates, and Allen hope that answers the whole when is this going to go AU. Plus I have like no patience. lol. So Enjoy!
Dear Harry,
I find it quite hilarious that I only write to you when something big happens. I am 16 now, you would be 13. Time had flown hasn't it. I feel like I am 30. I know you are going to think I am crazy but I fell in love with him and it seemed the natural action.
Iknow I know he is a vampire and I am the slayer, it is supposed to be wrong. I just loved him so much, it was like the air got sucked out of me whenever I saw him. I think it might have even started last couple of years, nothing happened of course. Hell even now I think I am, I was too young. I don't have anything to explain my reasoning behind why we made love except that I loved him.
Something happened though, I guess I caused him to lose his soul. This isn't why I am writing though because that happened 3 months ago. I am in LA at the moment writing this to you, I ran away from home. Yeah you heard right me Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Slayer of all things evil ran away. I had to, I just couldn't face it. You want to know why? Well Angel decided well Angelus decided he wanted to play god and destroy the world with this portal to hell which came in the form of Acathla. So I went to stop him but not before he killed my sister Slayer who was called after I died and he injured my friends and kidnapped my watcher.
Anyway I ended up making a deal with this vampire named Spike (bleached freak who I knew woulddouble cross me)and we were walking when my mom saw us and made me go back home. This vampire came out and we staked it and then I had to tell mom what I was. She didn't take it well and when I was leaving she told me that if I left the house never to come back. But I had to leave because I had to save the world. Who else would? So I went to the mansion where Angelus was and we fought, it was down the two of us when he pulled the sword out of acathla thus opening the portal to hell. I was right though wasn't I? Spike didn't come to help, he was too busy helping his precious Drusilla.
Just when I was about to kill him, Angelus, this thing went through him and he was Angel again. His eyes kind ofglowed and he was him again, theguywho helped mefight thevampires, the guy who patched me up whenI got hurt. The guy who gave me my first kiss, the guy who huggedme whenI wasfilling sick and the guy I lost my virginity too.
It was so hard, but I knew what I had to do. I didn't have a choice. So I kissed him told him I loved him and I killed him. It was the only way I could save the world. …………… Do you think he forgives me? Would you forgive me? I don't think I could.
Buffy
Dear Harry,
I am home now. Things are odd but improving . This new slayer came after the old one, Kendra died. Her name is Faith, she is kinda cool. I like her a lot. She has a good philosophy, I am little jealous. She gets on with all my friends and my mother but I can relate with her because it turns out her watcher was killed in front of her too. So I am cutting her some slack and trying to help her.
Things were hard when I first got back, everyone was so tip toeing around me like I was going to run again. I had a reason the first time, leave me the hell alone! Nah, it got better over time, it has been nearlytwo month and things seem to be mainly back to normal. Although the gang are back to patrolling, seems they worked out a system to patrol while I was gone. Now I patrol with them, still scares me though.
Can I tell a secret? This is something I haven't even told my friends. I don't know how. Angel, he's um back. I don't know how, it took a while to get him to normal but he is him again. He is all weak and kitteny still though, trying to help him is hard but I am learning the whole patience thing. And no it isn't like that. Everytime I look at him something inside me screams that he shouldn't be looking at me like that. I mean I killed him, he trusted me and I stuck that knife in him. So no nothing will happen, not when I can't forgive myself let alone let him forgive me. Not that he would...
Buffy
Dear Harry,
I can't handle their accusing. They are so angry about Angel. I was only trying to help him why can't they see that. It wasn't my fault he kissed me at the exact moment Xander decided to come running to me. I mean geez give a girl a minute to explain or at least some privacy. Hello 16 here! Everything is just falling part again. The gang is mad at me, Angel is upset and on top of that, the new watcher for Faith turned out to be evil and Faith and I fought. I hurt her so bad. I don't know what to do. I wish you were still you and talked to me. No one understands me here. They don't realize how much it hurt me to do it. No one can. I just wish I could go back, redo it all.
Funny thing is out of all this the main thing I am concerned about is Faith. She has been through so much without the support of anyone and to find out the person she is supposed to trust is on the other side. It does something to a person I think, just look at me and Angel. It breaks something inside you and you start wondering if everytime this happens with someone you trust. I'm going to try and make her see but I don't know how well that will work. She seems to be very closed off, especially at the moment.
Well wish me luck,
Buffy