"smiles and masks"
You always hid behind a smile. You could fool everyone else, but I saw through it right away.
Behind that sunny smile was pain, humiliation, shame. You hid behind your mask of happiness, never letting yourself falter.
I always wondered why you put in the effort. I never smiled. You let them walk all over you. I kill anyone who messes with me.
You laugh and try to get attention. I glare and tell people to go away.
You found precious people and swore to protect them. I was shunned by all and depended on no one for anything.
I wonder how you can smile at all, even though it's fake. I can tell because your eyes never look happy. They are blue and bright, but filled with angst.
I wonder what made you crack on that day. You ran so that no one could see your pain. You let the rain hide the tears on your face. What made me angry was that you were still smiling.
You looked at me when I walked over, my eyes full of rage. You looked shocked when I grabbed you by the shoulders and told you that it was okay to cry.
I don't know why I said that; I never cried. You believed me though, and for once you took off your mask and cried, your face screwed up in pain.
Why did I hold you? I never cared before. Maybe because you could show all of the emotions that I did not know how to express.
The first time I saw you smile for real was through your tears. You looked up at me and there was happiness in your eyes. You told me, "Thanks for caring Gaara."
I just nodded and looked at your smile. Ever since then you don't plaster on the mask as often. People you know are surprised and some of them angry.
It's not fair for them to expect you to be happy all the time; I go through the same thing and kill to let off my frustrations.
Why do you only give me your real smile? Every time you see me I catch a glimpse of your real smile, the one that reaches your eyes.
Will you be the one to teach me how to smile?
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