They had reached the castle and soon after that, they were sitted in the big dining room eating quietly, well actually, Rin was eating quietly, Sesshoumaru never really ate with her, only the sounds of the fork and knife could be heard, it echoed through the whole place, especially cause the dining room has high ceilings.
Rin kept glancing up her Lord. She was waiting for the right moment to invite him for a stroll in the garden.
She felt his heated gaze over her, and she looked up meeting his golden eyes.
"You are dismissed Rin." He told her.
She stood up immediately, and started putting her pink chiffon scarf over her face.
"Sesshoumaru….sama? Do you have time later?" She asked shyly, suddenly finding the ground more interesting.
"I will see to it." He said.
Rin´s face lit up as she gaze back at him, his eyes were also filled with warmth although his lips didn't move, she can tell, he was smiling inside.
These were one of the scenes that only happens when they are alone. Rin started walking down the long room. Soon the generals will storm in, dining with there Lord, talking about the best way to maintain the Western Lands.
She closed the heavy door behind, the demons were already waiting outside, they bowed at the sight of her, this was a sign of respect, an order from Sesshoumaru. Or maybe, because, when they are bowing, they wont catch a glimpse of her.
But they still did, they would look at her, watch her small figure walking down the long stony stairs that led out of the hall. She wore slippers of gold and layers of kimono in pink and white. The demons sniffed in the air. Captivated by her smell of pureness and the mysteriousnes that hid under the scarf.
Many, had not seen her face, but her eyes had told them everything. She is a beautiful human woman, trapped in the grasps of their Lord.
Before entering her room, she paused on the opposite side of her door, it was Sesshoumaru´s room. As if waiting for him to storm out. She sighed heavily, knowing he wont have time till late. She went inside her room and started putting her sleeping dress.
Then she began with her routine, writing on her scroll, made to be her diary. Given by her Lord, and so she begins drawing with the words:
Dear Lord Sesshoumaru….
In the dinningroom.
Sesshoumaru was losing his patience with the pact of demons that were consulting him with there oh so small problems, like people trying to steal there headquarters, the marriage with one of the daughters of the Lord from the South, nonsense from which he doesn't want to know a thing. His head was aching again. He just wants to go to his room for a long rest. He shut all the voices down, and started thinking of something important.
For example Rin. ´Did this Sesshoumaru, just thought of Rin?´ He asked himself, confusion etched his features, but to the ones who are not used to it, became fearful. Before Sesshoumaru knew it, all the Generals started leaving. Bowing with respect and bidding good-bye.
Silence entered the room that was filled with noise before.
It was deafening.
He left the dining room instantly, swiftly making his way to his.
Before he entered it, he paused in front of Rins. She was already sleeping when checked inside. Had he not said that he would spend time with her? He stood before the bed, watching her. Rin shifted slightly. She was a light sleeper. She sat up finding him standing before her. It took her moments to realize she was not dreaming. She stood up and walked over to him.
"My lord. Was it a hard day?" She asked tiredly.
What was this feeling that crossed his heart? It was the same, after a battle, after a long days work, after a patrol across his lands… after all this tiring things, he is always happy to come home, because he knows Rin is waiting for him dutifully. Asking and caring for him.
He nodded slightly. His eyes fell on the open window, night breeze went in, making her shiver. "You should sleep." He ordered.
She stepped closer to him and started reaching for his face, slowly, when she realized he reject her, she cupped his right cheeks and press her thumb lightly against it. "My lord, wont you like to stay with me?" She asked. She pushed her cheeks against his hard chest.
"Rin." He called. She looked up finding his eyes. He pushed her up the window bank, making her sit up the hard wood. He untied her obi and let the kimono slip down her body slowly. She looked up finding him staring down her naked form. She was not blushing anymore, not like she used to do.
This happened a lot of times already. Her Lord would stare at her. Piercing her with his golden eyes. But he wont touch her, only take in every curve and nothing more nothing less. His hands rested on his sides, forming tight fist.
Rin is such a doll. A doll he could do anything with. But he cant bring himself to touch her. The burden of his father kept distracting him. His eyes wandered over her calm face that was also staring at him.
"My Lord?" She asked dutifully. He knew that if he had asked her, she wont say no. She trusted her Lord so much. But does she even know that she could be ripped in two? His hakama had already tighten. He stared down her full lips. Only, this once, he wants to kiss her.
He backed away…..
"Go to sleep, Rin." He ordered, closing the door behind him.
A page in the diary: He dresses and undresses me, he watches me, burning my image in his eyes. I don't feel ashamed, because I am happy that I can play a part in his life. I am his doll, he can do anything with me, but he treats me like a princess, I am a doll. A very expensive one, at that.
Although he can touch me, he doesn't, because I am only human, I am a burden and that eats my soul to know, I want to make him happy….. Soon.
Tnx 4 the reviews you guys, I am so sorry if this is a disappoinment. But soon the plot will begin it´s trail. –much love- … watch out for Chapter 5 : The visitor from the north.