Sekowari: -sigh- I reposted this fanfic. All cuz of a few minor quirks here and there...anyways, just wanted to say again that this story is set in modern times, written in Sanzo's POV. It's based on a true event, though I didn't put details. (don't know any, actually) Credits for the poem goes to my sis. She wrote a long time ago, dedicated to our brother. We'll never forget you, Billy...R/R
An Angel Named Forever
Journal Entry #1:
I still remember the day when that incident happened. Something just felt wrong at the time, but I let it pass. After all, Goku was going traveling with friends. Before he left the house, he had asked for meat buns……again. I started to spit out curses at him. Now, I regret doing so.
With an occasional stupid remark from the kappa, the day was progressing pretty well. That is, until afternoon came. I received a phone call from the police. The voice on the other end sounded very urgent. They informed me that a bus explosion had occurred on highway 99. An explosion that, apparently, involved a certain saru. Shocked, I dropped the phone. The other two asked about what had happened. However, there was no need for explanations – Goku had died.
Hakkai, Gojyo, and I rushed to the scene. Death was in the air, and the smell was absolutely nauseating. The survivors were crying uncontrollably. Bodies were charred and burnt. Looking around though, I spotted Goku's body right away. An unbelievable sight. I threw up.
At that point, I was angry. Angry at the bakasaru for always getting into trouble. But I never thought he would actually get himself killed. See, there's a difference between not caring for someone, and knowing they can take care of themselves. I was wrong when I assumed that Goku was independent enough at the age of 18. A reckless kid, that's all he was.
Also, I was angry at myself. I put Goku in danger. He was the closest to family, aside from my father figure – Koumyou Sanzo.
After Koumyou passed away, I vowed never to show emotional pain in front of others. But seeing Goku's dead body lying in front of me, I couldn't stop the tears from falling….
Date: June 21st
Journal Entry #2:
About a week later, we attended Goku's funeral. I really hated to see his ex-lover Homura there. But I knew that inside, Goku's death was killing him as well. Stupid saru….how could he just leave? Doesn't he know that the people who are left behind hurt the most? Tch…..
We've placed Goku's ashes at Kinsan Temple. Hakkai's suggested that we spread them in the most beautiful place on earth. You know, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea. The saru deserves it. I mean, what else can we do?
Date: June 28th
Journal Entry #3:
Everything's quiet now. Too quiet. Even the kappa has nothing to say. It's unnerving. I've always asked for silence. Now, it's what I miss the most.
There isn't much that keeps us three remaining people together anymore……..
Just living our separate lives……..
Date: November 29th
Journal Entry #4:
It's been awhile since I last updated this journal. I've decided to write a poem dedicated to Goku. Yeah, I know what you're thinking – Genjyo Sanzo the 31st, writing poetry? That's right. But hey, it's a different way to express what I feel. So Goku, this is for you. We'll never forget……
An Angel Named Forever
Sweet angel, ruthless death snatched you away.
But unharmed, your pure heart lies.
Too sudden the thunder sounded,
On the threshold of your happiness,
Clouding the Sun.
Your body was light in years,
Filled with laughters,
And your soul showered by the innocence of your youth,
Unknown to the cruel world.
But reality stole your heart and its glorious songs,
Ere they were sung.
Your smile seeded gardens,
Where flowers bloom in a painting,
And you shall be the blossom that never fades away.
You could leave us without tears,
For the memories you have left us,
Are more than treasures.
For you, a child dancing in the wind,
Life was your shortest, sweetest dream,
From which you have awakened.
Date: April 5th
Signed,
G. Sanzo
P.S: Ne, happy 19th birthday, saru……….
Owari