As the days and months dragged on I began to believe that Sesshomaru would not be coming back at all this time. Usually even when he was away I could feel his presence here with me, but now the air felt still and I had the overwhelming feeling that I was alone. Many of the men in the village have caught word that Sesshomaru has denounced any romantic claim on me, and they embarrassingly have made many proposals to me. Kohaku seems to be bothered when things like that happen and some part of me has found myself enjoying his jealousy. So much so that a voice inside my head tells me that I could grow to care for him, but my heart still tells me even if that were so, it would never be enough to love him. I hate these conflicting feelings because In the end Kohaku suffers, because I cannot let go of Lord Sesshomaru.
While walking through the village staring at the night sky, I was wondering what Lord Sesshomaru was doing at this time. Since Kohaku has been helping me with my daily tasks I've had much more time to myself to relax, and for that I'm grateful to him. During these long walks I could spend my time imagining a different life, one where perhaps I was born a demon, so that I could be good enough to be Lord Sesshomaru's lady. I began blushing to myself thinking these thoughts when I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Hello miss Rin, it's me Daku, I was just going for a walk, and I noticed you were alone. I would love to accompany you, what great company we could be for each other!"
He proclaimed this with such enthusiasm that I felt extremely awkward in declining, but Daku's persistent conquest of me in recent weeks has gotten quite irritating and I couldn't stomach a walk with him.
"Daku thank you for the offer but I am just heading home now, it's gotten quite late."
I smiled kindly, but his golden brown eyes became dark in response. He was a handsome man with long dark hair pulled back in a pony tail, but he had always given me such a dark feeling, the way he had always followed me with his eyes never failed to send shivers down my spine.
His mouth formed a straight line, and his entire demeanor changed. "You know Rin it's really quite disgusting how you walk around here like you're too good for everyone, other than that disgusting dog. One day you're going to regret your ungrateful attitude towards the men in this village." He spat his words with such hate, and I could feel my body trembling. He surprisingly began to walk back where he came from, and I desperately wanted to get back home and far away from him.
Once I reached my hut I breathed a sigh of relief and I felt my body relax. What was with him anyways? I couldn't understand why it was such a foreign idea to people that I loved Lord Sesshomaru. He was handsome, brave, and he has spent most of my life saving me. It was only until now that I have ever questioned if he would always be there to protect me, and that thought saddened me greatly.
As I entered my hut i felt a sweaty hand come over my mouth, and I was brought down to the ground. I struggled to get out of his grasp but it was no use, and though it was dark i knew that it was Daku without a shadow of a doubt. He hovered himself over me keeping his clammy hand over my mouth, while I squirmed fo get out from under him. I was able to bite his hand causing him to roll over grabbing his hand in pain.
"You stupid bitch! I will kill you!" He screamed.
I ran for the door and towards the forest, and in the midst of my terror I was reminded of the first time that I had been killed. I remembered running towards the forest, towards Lord Sesshomaru, only to be slaughtered. I was running away from a human village then too, just like now and all my feelings of resentment for humans, particularly human men came flooding back. This was why no one could ever understand my affection for a demon, because they couldn't understand the evil things that humans have put me through, that they were still putting me through.
I kept running and running not sure if Daku was even behind me, until I tripped over a rock. Once I fell to the ground I felt his body fall on top of me. Daku rolled me over and slapped my face, I instinctively yelped in pain.
"You stupid bitch you made my hand bleed!" His eyes were so dark, and I felt like they were swallowing me whole.
"Please!" I cried. "Get off of me, please!"
My sobs meant nothing to him, and he continued to rip my kimono off me, tearing it into pieces. In the back of my head all I could think about was that Sesshomaru had bought this kimono for me on my birthday, and how would I explain to him what happened. Daku began kissing my neck and fondling my breast and I felt so dead inside, I felt worthless. I promised myself no man would have me ever, unless it was my Lord, and now that choice was about to be stolen from me.