A/N; Finally the I have got this up. Please Review to tell me what you think.

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

James Blunt

Three weeks, it has been three weeks. An eternity without her. I am lost, broken on the rocks of despair.

Her funeral was grand, as befitted a lady of her station, and every single second was another blow to my soul. I cannot do it anymore, every day is torture to endure. Food and drink turn to ash in my mouth, I can't sleep for the nightmares, and it is all my fault. I should never have let her go with me, I knew it was dangerous, I knew there were all sorts of foul creature abroad. But when she turned that sweet smile on me I couldn't say no, I could never say no. Now I will never see that smile again, or hear her laugh or watch her sleep.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while

Never will I wake evry day to her arms, nor will we have the child we so desired. She was my heart and soul and without her my spirit is lost. The day she walked into my life was the day I changed for the better. She so completely enveloped me with her love that I becam a better person. Now she is gone, ripped away in my own foolishness.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.


Everyone is being so kind to me and I son't understand why. Because of me they have lost a daughter, sister, friend and comrade. Why waste their pity. They tell me time will heal all wounds, but she was my soulmate, my lover, my world. Now I stand alone as my world crashes down around me, cut and torn by the shards of it. I wish only to throw myself at her feet in the House of Death and beg her to forgive me.

And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

The world is growing darker, and I do not think I can face the darkness without her. There is nothing here for me anymore but a world of shadow and mist. I cannot live without her.

I don't plan too.

And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.