Holding
Funny, how sleeping with someone is so personal. Not sex, that doesn't have to be personal, you're awake and you can lie when you're awake. I never liked sleeping around other people, it made me jumpy, fitful. I slept with my back against a wall if possible.
You have to trust someone a lot to become totally helpless with your back against their chest. Ifalna trusted me, but I never let her hold me. I don't let people hold me, it's too personal, too much trust involved.
You're the only exception kid. Don't let it go to your head.
Veld