A/N- First of all you all have permission to be completely mad at me. So it's been two years since I stopped this story. But I felt like continuing it so if it totally sucks just tell me and I'll stop because I know how annoying it can be when you have to go like three pages to find the fan fic you want to read and the stupid sucky one is taking up space on the first page, so if any of you are finding that this one is doing that please tell me. Also I do know that Jason is long gone by now and believe me no one is happier about that than me but the real show is starting to make me mad so I am going back to before Luke and Lorelai started dating because it makes me happy . That's all. Enjoy.
Lorelai got more and more anxious as her wedding day neared. She barely got to spend any time with Jason because when he was home from work she was working on planning the wedding. The decorations had been picked out, guest lists had been made, and invitations had been sent. The dresses and tuxedo's had been ordered, just some small adjustments that needed to be made. Lorelai needed one thing, a wedding dress. She had one picked out when she was getting married to Max, but this was different, he was different, and therefore she needed a different dress. Her and Rory had decided that they would go shopping together to pick one out. Rory had come home from Yale and was driving the Jeep to the nearest dress store with Lorelai in the passenger seat looking out the window.
"So, thoughts?" Lorelai asked her daughter.
"about what?" Rory answered.
"Well you know, about the whole Justin Timberlake has a solo career and isn't Cameron too tall for him thing. ABOUT the wedding Rory…"Lorelai said impatiently. Ever since Rory had found out about the engagement she didn't really talk about it or Jason much, she seemed to steer clear of the subject.
"I don't know- I guess if you're happy that's all that matters, right?" Rory said half-heartedly.
"Ok, but pretend you don't know me." Lorelai said.
"Why?" Rory asked confused.
"No, like pretend you just see me and Jason walking next to each other. What do you think?" Lorelai asked.
"Those people need to get a life?" Rory said sarcastically.
"Seriously. Pretend I'm Lane. Tell me what you are thinking." Lorelai asked. Rory knew it was a dangerous subject.
"Okay. Are you sure about this?" Rory asked. Lorelai nodded "I never really thought you and Jason were serious. I mean from the outside it looked like a fling. He would ditch you when he had work and it seemed like it inconvenienced you more than it hurt you. I just didn't know it went any deeper than screwing with Richard and Emily." Rory said truthfully, leaving out how much she disliked Jason. He wasn't good enough for her mom. Lorelai swallowed. What Rory said had hit her hard, was it because it was true? She didn't know how to respond.
"Ouch." Lorelai said.
"Mom, you told me to-" Rory said, but Lorelai cut her off.
"No, I just. It doesn't matter." Neither of them spoke the whole way there.
The day was unsuccessful. Every dress Lorelai tried on she was ok with. She liked them all, and had no way to choose. She didn't really even care which one she bought but Rory insisted that she be completely in love with whatever one it was and Lorelai never found herself in that situation. She was a little distracted with what Rory had said. Was it just supposed to be a fling? She asked herself as they entered the diner.
"Hey Luke" Rory said noticing that her mother was a little too quiet. Lorelai sat down at the counter not really paying attention to where she was.
"What's with her?" He asked. Luke always cared, he always noticed. Unlike Jason. She wished it was him her mom was getting married to. He would take care of them. Oh my god, could she stand seeing Jason everyday for the rest of her life? Now she was being selfish, if Jason made her mom happy- but did he? She didn't seem happy.
"Oh, she's just. She's distracted" Rory answered, not lying. Luke poured them coffee without arguing because he could tell Lorelai wasn't having the best of days.
"So how'd dress shopping go?" He asked Rory though looking at Lorelai, making sure she was ok.
"Nada." Rory said. She too started to worry about her mother. She lifted up the cup of coffee that Luke had poured for Lorelai and started waving it around under her nose. Lorelai immediately broke from the trance.
"Oh my god!" Lorelai fell off of her stool and put her hand to her heart, "are you trying to kill mama by scaring her to death?" Lorelai questioned from the floor catching her breath. Rory was hysterical and Luke went over to help her up. As Luke's strong hand took hers and pulled her off the ground, Lorelai was sure she felt a tingle run up her arm. She shook it off and cleared her throat.
"Thanks." She said trying to act cool.
"No problem." Luke replied. "You Ok?" He asked.
"Oh. Yeah. Just. Distracted." She said as she sat down again.
"Hey mom, I got to be heading back. Yale's a calling." Rory said as she took a to-go coffee and kissed her mom's cheek.
"Damn those Ivy League sirens" She said trying to lighten the moment but Rory just smiled and left. She turned to Luke. "Get it, Sirens, because they lure her back and then work her to death?" He just looked at her.
"Are you sure your ok?" He asked.
"Yeah, Oh! Tonight. Tuxedo." She said.
"What?" Luke questioned.
"The bridal party dresses and tuxedos should have arrived at my house by now I need to do adjustments. What are your measurements?" She asked
" My mea-" She cut him off.
"Yeah when's the last time you got measured for a tux?" She asked. He stared blankly at her. "Ok then. Um can you be at my house tonight at six? And don't forget to work on your best man speech" She sing-songed.
"Yeah. No problem. So this whole speech thing, mandatory?" He asked.
"Luke you can back out any time, you know that right? Your call." She said as she started to get up.
"Six?" He asked. Lorelai smiled and left.
Luke knocked on Lorelai's front door. It wasn't very often that he was here that didn't involve him doing chores around the house. Lorelai opened the door.
"Why hello there." She said in a country accent. Luke rolled his eyes and she stepped aside so he could come in.
"So your suit is over there we have to get cracking on this because I have to have them all done and sent out by tomorrow at five." She said tapping on her watch. He Picked up his suit and started heading up stairs. "Ya know Luke, we're all adults here. And plus it's not like you need to get naked to put on a tux." She said. Hmm, naked Luke in her living room? She smiled, ah, stop it Gilmore you're engaged.
"I'll just use the bathroom" He said self consciously as he made his way up the stairs. Lorelai watched him ascend the stairs. God look at that ass. She stared a little too long and she quickly averted her eyes. When Luke came back down stairs Lorelai was getting out her sewing kit. She looked up and saw Luke in his Tuxedo.
"Wow- uh. I - you look-." She swallowed hard. He shifted around awkwardly. She wished she could tell him how amazing he looked but she quickly changed the direction of the conversation. What was she feeling? This was Luke, Lukie Dukie Luke. Lukey, Lukit- she wasn't starting that again.
"What?" He asked.
"No it's just." She stepped closer to him and took his baseball cap off. She dropped it on the couch. "There." His hair was a little messed up from the hat so she ran her hand through it to smooth it down. What are you doing Gilmore? He just stood there wide eyed. "Better." She said
She swallowed and squinted her eyes, using everything she had to get her mind off of his ass. "So. Um, we should" she nodded. "Probably do the whole measuring thing?" She finished and Luke felt both amused and completely confused at the same time. Why was she acting like this? Did she- no. No way. She's getting married. To someone completely different from him.
Luke stood there as she measured him. His muscles getting tense when she touched him. Every so often he would steal a glance at her. She looked so pretty, even when she was wearing her hair in a pony and sweatpants that said Juicy on the butt. God her butt. She's getting married- he kept reminding himself.
"And done." She said. "I can um. I can get this to you by tomorrow? Is that ok?" She asked.
"Are you ok?" He asked her genuinely concerned.
"Yes. No. I don't know Luke." She said with a small laugh.
"Want some coffee?" He asked her.
"How can I refuse?" She followed him into the kitchen and they sat in silence until he poured her coffee.
"It's just. Rory said something before and it kind of hit home." She said. He nodded wondering what it could be about. "I don't know I think that, it's about Jason. I think she doesn't think this is right but she wont just say that. What if I'm making a huge mistake?" She asked the one man who knew more about her than any other in the world.
"Do you think it's a mistake?" He asked her.
"I don't- I mean. Sometimes I just feel like- I" She couldn't finish.
"What?" He asked
"I just-" They were close now.
"What?" He asked again. She leaned forward and looked from his lips to his eyes. She forgot about everything and leaned a little closer concentrating on nothing but him. The front door slammed shut and Lorelai flew back to her seat.
"Lorelai? You here? You won't believe what just came out on DVD-" He said. He stopped when he entered the kitchen. Seeing Luke and Lorelai across the table from each other looking completely guilty. "What's up?" He asked.
Lorelai swallowed hard again. "We were just going over some- best - man stuff." Luke nodded.
"Ok? Um I brought home Miss Congeniality Two, any takers?" He asked.
"I actually have to start heading back. I told Caesar I would be back by now." Luke responded. Lorelai nodded absently and he left. Did she almost? Did they almost? What would have happened if they? Luke left out of the kitchen door.
"So what was that about?" Jason asked as soon as the door shut.
"What? I told you we were going over some stuff." She said.
He stared at her in disbelief. "You sure?" He asked.
"Yeah." She said trying to convince him and herself at the same time. "Sure." She nodded.
Lorelai sat there a little longer while she thought about what could have been.
a/n- ok so I know that that may have been a little cheesy but I really needed something to make me feel better and there we go. I also know that I told you that the next chapter would be the message thing but that was two years ago- again im sorry- and I needed something in between. So I might do that next chapter I'm not sure. Lastly, what do u think the message should say, everything about how he feels about her or just enough that she would get the hint? Cuz if he told her everything than he one, wouldn't come to her wedding out of embarassment, unless he didn't remember, or hm. She might stop the wedding before it even started if she knew how luke felt, and that would kill the whole pulling the ross thing, IDK. Im stuck- helllp. Thank you. I really do love you guys. Review!