a/n- So I officially hate this computer. I wrote this whole chapter and the frigging piece of sugar decides that it's a good time to freeze up and stay that way. So I try to reboot it like I do every time when I want it to shut off and instead it just goes into sleep mode, but this time it decides to actually shut off, so being me I didn't save it and I lost everything and have to rewrite it so if it seems to be slacking I'm really sorry. Also- thank you so much for your reviews and ideas, they really help a lot. On with the show.
The wedding day was getting closer. Every day Lorelai got more and more anxious. She hadn't been alone with Luke since the night of the Tuxedo Measuring. Jason seemed more protective lately. Tonight was her bachelorette party and Jason's bachelor party. Her wedding was only in two days, Lorelai was not too sure how she felt about that. She was making her way to Luke's for lunch, it was around three so she decided the rush would be over. When she entered the bell above the door announced her presence and Luke looked up from the couple he was taking orders from.
"Hey." He said as he made his way behind the counter.
"Hey. So are you ready for your big night? Ready to go Bacheloring?" She asked him curiously.
"What big-?" Luke cut himself off when he remembered the Bachelor party. "Oh. That was tonight. I completely forgot."
"Well then it's a good thing I came in right?" She said. Luke showed no reaction. "I mean because then you would have forgotten about it. Hello?" She asked. "Coffee?" Luke snapped out of his daze. He had been thinking. What would it be like once Lorelai was married? Would she come in every day or would Jason make her breakfast? Psh. That guy probably couldn't cook for his life. Wait. Jason works in Hartford. Would she move there? What would he do? Luke thought about coffee. It was one thing that he hadn't dare changed in ten years. It was the one thing that brought Lorelai to him every day. Or so he thought. Luke tried to concentrate on what Lorelai was saying. She smiled at him. "How are you feeling today Lucas?" She asked in a mock Indian accent. He looked at her questioningly. "You are soooo out of it." she said with a laugh as he filled a cup of coffee for her.
"I'm just. Distracted." He said.
"Ya think?" She said sarcastically. Was he thinking about the other night? Did he feel it, did I imagine it? Lorelai didn't have time to sit around and think about all the what ifs. "Well I should probably be going, got to get ready for the big night!" She said. "Have fun tonight Luke" She said with a small smile.
"Yeah. You too." She left through the diner door and the bell rang again. Luke stared after her. He couldn't stop thinking about the other night. They were so close. At least he thought they were. What if Jason hadn't walked in? Luke didn't know what to think any more. Luke suddenly realized that he had been cleaning the same spot on the counter for the past five minutes. He went into the kitchen to get the next order of food.
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Lorelai's Bachelorette party began. It was just a small house party, Rory, Sookie, Lulu, Gypsy, Lane, Patty, Babbette, and her mother who insisted on being at her only daughters bachelorette party. Lorelai had already gone through the whole bachelorette thing. It didn't seem to excite her so much anymore, but hey, you only get one bachelorette party, well in theory, right? This was her last night to party before she would be married. Wow. This meant she'd be with Jason for the rest of her life. She was not sure how she felt about this but decided not to think about it for now, there were other things that needed to be done.
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Jason's party was much more festive, and expensive. He had rented out a bar for his Dad, his male family, family friends and closest clients. Luke arrived last. He looked so smug, thought Jason. Well he wouldn't be for long, after all, Jason thought, he was the one who would marry Lorelai. He greeted Luke with a handshake and showed him to a booth. Luke hadn't been able to think straight since he and Lorelai almost- well he thought that they almost. Sure there was Karaoke, Live music, free drinks, exotic dancers, and strippers, but all that Luke could think about was Lorelai. The waitress came over. "Can I get you something?" She asked.
"Just a beer." Luke responded. "And keep them coming." The waitress nodded. Luke downed his first beer as he drowned himself in thoughts of Lorelai Gilmore. God. She was amazing. The way they bantered and flirted. The way she was addicted to coffee, or could eat more than anyone he knew and she still had the perfect body. The way she would make him feel better when he was sad, her strange sense of humor. The way she smiled when she thought that no one was looking, how she cared about her daughter. She was gorgeous in a way that made his heart ache just thinking about her, how he could get lost in her sparkling blue eyes. He felt so blessed to have her in his life at all, even if it was just as his friend. Luke always felt that the way that they flirted, or how she smiled at him, might mean she felt something for him too, and it comforted him to know that the possibility was always there. But after Saturday, it would be gone. It killed him to think that maybe if he wasn't such a coward, he could be the one marrying Lorelai right now. That if he told her how he felt and she felt the same, they could be happy forever and he would prevent her from making a huge mistake, but if she didn't feel the same way, she would be out of Luke's life forever, and he could never forgive himself for that.
Luke examined the table that was in front of him. By now it was covered in empty bottles. He didn't realize how much he drank and quite frankly he didn't care. Luke knew that Lorelai deserved more than him, she deserved a king, a god. And Jason did have money to support her for the rest of her life, but it was just that , it was Jason. He didn't seem to care that much about Lorelai. Luke knew for sure that he knew way more about Lorelai than Jason would ever know or even care to know. Luke knew what each one of her expressions meant, he knew the way she liked her eggs, he could look into her eyes and know what she was feeling at any given moment. At this moment Luke knew that no woman would ever make him feel the way that Lorelai did, and he didn't want to spend the rest of his life searching for it when it had been right in front of him. Luke staggered over to the pay phone in the corner of the bar.
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Lorelai closed the door as she said goodbye to the last of her guests. Rory was staying for the weekend and was already asleep in her room. Lorelai was making her way up the stairs when she saw a red light blinking from her answering machine. When did that happen? She asked herself. She was too tired now, she would check it in the morning. She laid down in bed and looked across her room. There hanging from her closet door was her wedding dress. Lorelai hadn't even though about trying it on since she bought it. Was that wrong? She couldn't think about it now. Lorelai fell asleep.
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The next day all that Lorelai could think about was that there was one day until her wedding. Tomorrow she would be Mrs. Jason Stiles. She cringed. Not this again. Lorelai and Rory were making their way into Luke's. He was leaned over the counter, his head in his hands. Lorelai and Rory approached the counter and Lorelai was the first one to speak.
"Are you ok?" She asked. Luke looked up. His eyes were blood shot and he looked miserable.
"Rough night." He responded. "I can't really remember what happened." He said.
"Wow. Looks like someone had a little too much to drink." She said. Rory looked nervous. Was he ever going to tell her mom how he felt about her? Lorelai turned to Rory as Luke went to get their food. "So, Jason's supposed to be here by now." Luke was back with their food. "Luke did Jason say anything to you about not being here?" She asked him not really thinking he would know the answer.
"Not that I can remember, then again, I don't really remember much about last night." He responded as he poured them coffee. Lorelai seemed a lot less witty lately, she didn't talk that much anymore. She didn't seem happy.
"Right. Oh. I did have a message last night I didn't check it must be him." She said. Luke reacted. Message? Something rang a bell but he couldn't remember. She took out her cell phone. No cell phones in the diner, that must be what he was thinking . There seemed to be more. "I'm just going to check the machine" she said.
"Lorelai." He said pointing to the sign, not really because he cared but he didn't want to hear Jason's voice. Was it Jason's voice? Lorelai was doing her slow motion thing as she made her way to the door hoping the message would be over when she got there. Lorelai froze halfway there and Luke couldn't remember something that was nagging him in the back of his mind.
"Hey, Its me. Luke. Well I'm at a bachelor party." Luke's voice slurred as he spoke. Lorelai glanced questioningly at Luke. What could this be about, Lorelai asked herself. "Well you would know," he said. "It's Jason's. I want you to know-" He continued. "You. You are making a mistake, a big one. Jason isn't right for you, he doesn't know what your faces mean. He cant make eggs. He tailgates. Not me. I know what your faces mean Lorelai Gilmore. Every single one of them. I want you to know. I'm done. I'm not going to wait anymore. Its him or its me." The message clicked. Lorelai looked confused.
"What's wrong?" Rory asked while Luke tried to figure out why everything was sounding familiar.
"Oh. Nothing- I . I remembered. I-" She said stammering. She pointed to the door. "Home." She said simply and absentmindedly as she left through the door. Rory looked at Luke.
"I just can't figure her out lately." She said. Rory said bye to Luke before she grabbed her mom's bag and headed for the door. Luke looked down at Lorelai's full cup of coffee. What had he done last night? He asked himself.
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"I knew it, I just knew it!" Rory squealed as Lorelai replayed the message on the answering machine. She sat there completely confused.
"Rory I'm getting married tomorrow." Lorelai managed. "To Jason." She stared off. She couldn't make clear of what was going on.
"But mom, You don't love Jason do you? I mean it's always been Luke right?" Rory asked. She had seen it.
"I don't know anymore Rory!" She said lying. "I mean what if Luke was just really drunk? He doesn't even remember what he said. I can't do anything about it. I'm promised to another man!" She said. "I can't do this right now" She said as she went upstairs. Rory started to get nervous. Was her mom going to ignore what was happening all these years and marry Jason anyway?
The wedding would go through as planned. Lorelai did not know what to do but she knew that there was too much at stake. What if Luke didn't mean what he said? What if? That would kill her and she just didn't have it in her anymore to take that kind of rejection. Plus she would be risking her marriage with Jason. Jason was a good guy. Wasn't he? He meant well. He couldn't even sleep in the same bed with her. That bothered her, but everyone had their quirks right. It was just- they were going to be married. She didn't want to wake up alone every morning, her presence in their bed should not be something that bothered him. If she was with Luke- but she wasn't. She wasn't with Luke. Her head hurt, Lorelai went to get some aspirin.
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TBC. Review please, they make me happy. (: . I probably won't be able to get another chapter out until Thursday. I'm really sorry about that but I have school and stuff! So ya know the part where Lorelai is like "Home." I didn't really know if you got it but I wanted her to say it kinda like the way in friends after Ross finds Rachel's message he's like, oh I have to go get my cat. Then hes like "Cat" and then he just leaves. Hah. That was so funny I was dying. That was my favorite episode. So I didn't really know how to explain it but that's how I wanted it to come out. Also you can see that I had Luke completely forget about the message and Lorelai isn't gonna tell him cuz otherwise they would get together right then and that would ruin the whole plot of the story so I had to have it that way. Anyway.. Till Thursday. Cya then. I hope you like the story so far!