Chapter 5 - Memories and Regrets

Sam sat down at her desk in shock. Phil had just tried to kiss her. Phillip Hunter had just tried to kiss her. And what did she do? Reject him! Stupid girl, she told herself.

Samantha thought back to when she were younger. When she was at school there was someone just like Phil in her year. He even looked just like him. When she first met Phil, she were convinced that it had been Matt. Matt was probably the most popular guy in the year who every girl fancied, of course Sam was no exception. The problem was that he already had a long term girlfriend and so that pretty much put anyone else out of the frame.

Samantha used to sit next to Matt in many of her classes because their surnames were so alphabtically similar. He was typical Phil, flirting with anyone and anything. Despite his good looks he was terribly lazy and copied most of her work in most of her lessons. She didn't really care, it would only fall back on him when exam time came. He always used his charm to get her to give him her work and she always fell for it.

The most high profile couple split suddenly for no reason. One day they had been all loved up and the next they wouldn't even look at each other. He sloped into English class one Thursday afternoon, refusing to look at his ex. He sat down next to Samantha without saying anything. They began their work, Sam half heartedly began but was soon distracted, he was watching her. That of course made her nervous.

"What's the matter with you?" She asked.

"Nothing!" He smirked. She watched him carefully before she was told to get back to her work. She picked up her pen and started writing again. She saw his hand before she felt it crawl along her leg. She turned to look at him before she was told off yet again. She returned to her work but she oculd still feel him crawl up her leg. She felt weak at his touch as his hand got higher and higher under her skirt ... This was the kind of thing that she could imagine Phil doing. Underneath his philandering ways he was kind and caring but he hated showing it. If she could just break through his exterior, she was sure he would become a completely different person. Not that she wanted him to change too much though.

After they escaped from the lesson, Sam made a quick exit to ensure their was no confrontation but she wasn't quick enough. She turned around a corner thinking she had left him behind but there he was before her. Everybody else had dispersed and she was left alone in the corridor with him. She carried on walking but he blocked her way.

"What are you doing?" She looked up at him.

"Come in here I want to tell you something!" He gestered to an empty classroom. She hesitated before he took her hand and gently pulled her inside.

"What do you want?" She asked. He didn't say anything, he simply stood, leaning against the door staring at her. She grew nervous as he slowly moved towards her trapping her inside the classroom. He was blocking her path to the door. He stood before her, one hand wrapping itself around her waist and the other gently stroking her cheek. He leant in to kiss her. She froze. He pulled away and looked deep into her eyes before kissing her again. She pulled away from him, pushing him away from her.

"What's wrong?" He asked "I thought this was what you wanted!"

"No, this is what you want. You don't give a damn what I want!"

"That isn't true!" He said, looking hurt. True he didn't have the best reputation but he still had a heart, he still cared. She didn't believe him though and began to walk away. "Look, wait please?"

"Why?"

"Let me explain, me and Becca have split for good and she's with someone else, she's moved on. And I want to as well."

"So you just want to show that you can get another girlfriend?"

"No, of course not! Why do you always expect the worst from me?" It was Sam's turn to have no answer now ... This was what she had been thinking when Phil had tried to kiss her. They had been getting on really well together, just like she had with Matt. He was popular and good looking, like Matt was. He was arrogant and selfish but often displayed shows of kindness to her, like Matt had. He had daliances with other women, like Matt had. She had rejected Phil but she didn't reject Matt ... Samantha and Matt lasted much longer then anyone expected, everyone thought that he was using her to seek revenge and show that he could have anyone he wanted. Samantha knew what people thought, she sometimes saw evidence that proved these people right but most of the time she honestly denied that he was using her.

He did truly love her but they were so different. People say that opposites attract and that certainly seemed to be true in this case but their 18 month romance just seemed to fizzle out. It still hurt them both when they finally decided to end it.

Samantha sat at her desk thinking of Matt and how in love they had been and wondered if she had made a mistake in rejecting Phil. She had been much harsher than she had intended, she saw the pain and tears in his eyes that she had caused with her cruel words. But then she thought of all the bad times with Matt and how she had sometimes felt that there were things that he never told her and women that he denied knowing but she knew that he did.

Phil was in a terrible mood when he came into CID. His brother chased after him, whispering accusations that he was a coward. When Steve at last felt that Phil had finally understood his point, he sat staring at the floor. She watched him for a few minutes until he got up and went downstairs. She went to the window and saw him sat on a bench crying. She knew that even though Steve had got to him, his tears were for her harsh words. It looked like she had finally broken the unbreakable, Phil Hunter ...

By the way, this chapter in case anyone isn't sure, refers to episode 313 where Phil tries to kiss Samantha but she basically tells him where to go. At the same time she always tells him some home truths! Hope you enjoy. Thanks to everyone who has read and to everyone who has reviewed, please keep it up. Also, just to get you a little more involved, tell me what you want to happen next. How should they get together or should they at all?