Title: his love is my shelter.
Disclaimer; Ray belongs to me.just kidding...he belongs to Neela lol
Spoilers: season 12.the last two episodes.can´t remember the name of the first one...sorry!
Hope you like this...sorry if is not so good but it´s late...I should be sleeping by now,I just couldn´t wait until tomorrow to write this.Besides,writing is the only thing that makes me happy and I had a rough day.
the title sucks,I know...and it´s short.REALLT short.
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His love is my shelter.
I honesty don't know where it came from. I just couldn't take any longer, I couldn't fight back the tears...I sat on the couch at Abby's, holding a pillow and crying my eyes out. I hold it tight; as if this would take everything away, all the pain and my tears...it doesn't work. I hear the door open, Abby is here.
I turn on the TV and pretend to be watching something interesting, she sits next to me...that's when it hits me once more. The last few days I was at my old apartment, with Ray...we did this too.
I cry again but this time she sees me.
"Honey, what's wrong?" she asks me, I can't even talk
I can't hold back the tears, I can't stop crying "I...can't...stop" I cry even harder, Abby looks extremely worried.
"You can't stop crying? Why?"
"I...don´t...I can´t!" I yell, squeezing the pillow in my hands, my heart aches.
"ok, calm down honey...talk to me" silence. "You wanna glass of water?"
"Ray..." I say, she holds me and walks towards the phone...10 minutes later I hear a knock on the door. Ray walks inside the apartment, straight to the couch where I'm sitting.
"Hey, what's wrong?" he ask, as he sits in front of me...I look at his eyes and cry again. "shh don't cry Neela, please"
"Make...it. Stop..." he hugs me, I put my arms around his neck holding him tight "oh Ray...don't go, please don't leave me." I'm amazed at how desperate I sound, but it was true. I didn't want him to leave.
"it's ok, I'm not going anywhere"
The last few days had been a complete nightmare. It's not bad living with Abby, not at all but it was different than living with Ray. Nothing seemed to be natural here, I felt like a complete stranger even thought this was supposed to be my house as well but most of all I missed Ray.
I missed all the mess he made and he tried to apologize later, I miss him sing every now and then, I missed his eyes...I miss everything about him.
"I stole your shirt" I say shyly once I stopped crying, he smiles sweetly. I show him a blue shirt, the one he was wearing when I decided to leave "sorry..."
"Don't worry...you have a fine taste, it's my favourite"
"...I know" I whisper, I feel the urge to hug him again, I do it "take me home" he smiles at me and kisses my forehead. There's no need for words. I stand up and walk toward Abby, holding Ray's hand "thanks for everything Abby."
"no problem sweetie...be safe" she hugs Ray too "take care of her, Barnett"
"I will"
I never let go his hand on our way home, I can't let him go anymore. Things will change, more than they did before when I realize he was the only man in my life...if I have him, I don't need anything else.
His love is my shelter.
THE END!